Why does wanting you always have to be synonymous with not wanting myself?

It’s been days now and I still haven’t slept because my dreams are the only place you still exist.

And finding you there and not in the real world is too painful to relive each day.

But I’m getting tired now and I think I’ve found a way we can be together.

The doctor said they’d help me sleep so I’ll take them all tonight.

Soon I’ll be back in your arms without the rude awakening that morning brings.