on tuesday night i found myself in a fetal position on a bench
my shoes were covered in *****,head spinning a few bottles next to me.
i get up and i feel water in my mouth i think im crying but everything is so fast so fast and the air is not enough it never is.
opening my mouth no sound comes i guess i was trying to scream but then i realize i can scream only in my dreams where everyone listens but they always **** me afterwards.
where am i who and what am i doing here
i wish i could talk to God
i wish i wasn't so cold
i wish i loved more
i wish for you to find me
God said im an idiot
i hear him laughing
really rude
hahaha
its all gonna be gone in the end and we'll finally be okay.
just close your eyes and i'll be gone
5 minutes