You think that you know me.
You think that you understand me.
You think that you know what I think.
You believe that you know who I am.

But you have no idea.

How many times have I taken peoples thoughts to my heart?
How many times have my own thoughts plagued my dreams?
How many of my owm dreams did I crush because of the demons that I created?

How many times did I cry myself to sleep?
How many times have I drawn words on my own body that discrimated me?
How many faces do I show everyday to mask the pain that you and I inflict on my mind and body?

Do you know how many times I've held a knife to myself?
Do you know how many times I've dreamed of spilling the crimson liquid that runs in your veins?
Do you know how many demons I have created for myself?

The truth is always there...
I always scream it to you...
But you don't see...

You don't know how many voices live in my head that match yours!
You don't know how many tears that I have shed because if you!
You will never know how many ropes I have tied around my neck to remind me that I am still alive!

So let me ask you...

How many times did you blame me!?
How many times did you tell me that I was no good!?
How many times did you force me to change myself!?

You will never understand how many times I've looked at death as a friend.
You will never understand how you hurt me!
And you will never understand why I wish that I had never been born!

So, when I am grown, and when I have a family of my own, I promise that I will never treat them that way.

I promise that I will never make them look at the mirror defeated.
I promise that I will never let them face their demons alone.

But, most of all,
I will never forget the very reason that I make these promises. I will never forget my promises. And I will never forget to stare at you, and smile when I finally see the day that you realize how you ****** up.