for days, you were dead
resurrected only to **** me instead
i never felt a fraction of despair when with you
so i guess that's what i grieve —
how you made me an entirely different entity
with that, i'm clinging on to any fragment of a memory
i'll carry what we had in my heart for both you and me

you tore through my soul like a tornado in a city
destroying anything with the slightest sight of pretty
the few things i once liked about myself are now in a vortex
you promised me you cared for me, that it was never about ***
but one doesn't just stop loving you overnight
now you're just another thing that didn't go right

i wish you were all to blame
but i too played your game
i'll sit here and watch you love someone better
and maybe one day,
i'll have the courage to send this letter.