It’s one of those days Where the mask is slipping The only smile I can muster Is so weak and pitiful I don’t even try The pain is just under the surface On the verge of tears All day long It was just a single memory Tugging on the vestments of our marriage Unraveling what has already been torn apart Into a tangled knotted mess One thought that cascades Into every other memory Seeking the truth In all of this Where did it go wrong? Where did I go wrong? What was the starting point For the ending? I come to realize It’s not the warning signs I neglected to heed It was the warning sirens I didn’t want to hear The excuses made Realities altered All the little straws Thrown upon my back Now feel like logs I know there was a time When I loved her I know because it hurts Hurts that I tried And nothing really mattered Not me Not us Just her Now the pain Is just a dull nagging ache No longer sharp I try not to let her cut me anymore But she still does And she doesn’t even know it Worn out Worn down Worn away Not much is left Good memories? Tainted by Unanswered questions I guess it doesn’t really matter Did she ever really love me We don’t share We don’t care We don’t dare Today is hard Hard to remember When it was good Hard to fake a smile I don’t feel On the verge of tears