Your words are on repeat and they take hold of my body like a serpent slithering coiling itself around making its home inside my chest, the nothingness i feel drips in like how the IV did when hooked up in my arm. And i wish i could say that the feelings i felt slowly poured out like the blood from my veins but they didnt. It was in a blink of an eye and  i knew i shut them off. The simple word suicide makes everyone scared, they wont believe youll act upon it until one day you do. You give them all a frightful scare, and on the inside your gloating. Youve found a way to make them pay, to make them see what they put you through. I got so exhausted from playing the "im fine" card and "im just tired" but every time i shut my eyes i begin to think of you. How fair is it to drag my life on when you could be out in the world living on your own.