When I walked away
from all the ones that cause me to hurt
I thought I was doing myself a favor

Not once did I thought I would come running back
with new burdens that prove not only my dependency
but also my fears that lurk with in the depths of myself

It lead me down a different path of pain
sleep was my only relief from the criticism that lives in my head
cause time went faster when you turn off the lights at three in the afternoon
to calm the temporary gut wrenching ache of emptiness

So I lay here with tears streaming down my face
and the numbness that no one will know
cause there is no one I can express my feelings to

There is nothing more draining then being your own supporter
when you are at the same time
the reason for your destruction

And I cant quite understand
how a pair of best friends
or a pair of lovers
could connect in a way as if two soul mates have lost each other
thriving, craving, just full blown out
mad for one another

I never had that

It's a terrible art indeed
one that eats away your worth
until you are nothing without those people
that once defined everything you were

I know its tempting
but you have to let these grudges go
the isolation will **** you otherwise

Don't be afraid to bend the pages in your book
there is a reason why you left those permanent creases
to go back when you have gave in

They'll forgive you and even more importantly
you will thank yourself