One day,
When dust and ashes becomes us
And all there's left is a house made of memories
I hope i'd see you
In a life after the end.

Some things never change
But you certainly did

My heart has become
A town for ghosts

If my hand were to hold a love potion
I'd drink it myself

Kept my pride at bay
To win your trust.
Im loosing dignity for you

Withdrawn my right
And questioning my worth.
Im loosing sanity for you

Attempted to reach for the stars
And thought outside of hundreds of boxes.
Im loosing quality time for my self because of you

I tried to gave you everything
And i recieved nothing but misery
Im loosing a lot of battles for you
But i am not further allowing myself to lose me

I am finally choosing to lose you.

It only takes one eye to see
What monster the people have become
Yet even with two
Many still chose to get blindly
Selfish and arrogant

I kept everything hidden
Stacked behind the thickest wall i built
It made me felt safe
It gave me all the hapiness in the world
Until one day the wall leaked
Suddenly im sitting somewhere alone
Pathetic and sad

The spaces behind it is no longer empty
All these painful memories rushing are making me weary
There is no running now
There is no escaping now
As a single tear drops from my eye
I realized the price i paid for that wall
Was myself

I can feel it
This pain
This sorrow
This color of grey
Is tainting my innocence

This feeling is new
Perhaps it's what they all call
Heart Break?

All i can see is red
In a nightmare about you
Myself advised me to love you
Myself warned me to hate you
And all i did was watch me
Fall deeper for you

All i see is regret
For not loving you enough
And for loving you too much

I caused myself pain
And love not like anyone else's
It was worth remembering and forgetting
It was a nightmare worth dreaming

Well Sometimes
You just have to be blind
In order to see what the
Truth has to offer you

Sometimes you just have to listen
Where the heart beats tries to lead you
And follow it

I dont need you to promise me
Your everlasting love
One timeline can be timeless
One happy ending can feel endless
One lifetime could easily feel lifeless
But im holding your hand
Walking in the rain
Warming each other seamingless

They said my blood is tainted
With the color of disgrace
They said my blood is magenta painted
I should never show my face

They say it with their mouth
Im poisoned
They show it with their faces
Im not accepted

They frown upon me
And i doubt myself everyday
What is this misery?
A question i hope answered someday

What price did you have to pay
For your happiness?

I got so drunk to you
It made me lose sight to what mattered
My family went blurry
My friends went away
And i stayed drunk
I stayed thirsty for love

I stayed addicted
To your poison paradise
In remorse

Trick or Treat!
I never had to choose
You just offered them both
Who am i to refuse?
When i needed you most

A trickster at midnight
A treater in daylight
Im just a dog
Loyal to a termite

My heart has been dead
For quite some time
Im surprised, really
Because you still manage
To break and hurt me
My heart once wasn't beating
Now in pieces, scattering

My silence comes with a thousand words

I like how my cheek still smiles
How my eyes stop rains
And how i act like i have the bravest heart

Just like the lil riding hood
Smiling stupidly
Failing faithfuly
Unkowingly walking to the slowest death
Caused by a poisoned mentality

Searching for
What i can be
Who i can become
And where i can fit
Is easier said than done

But until then
Ill just keep filling
Myself like a bag
Dumped with unresolved resolutions

I have thick skin
And an elastic heart

But your blades it might be too sharp

Im like a rubber band
Until you pulled too hard

Well i may snap, but i move fast
You wont see me fall apart


- Sia

The gleaming stars shine
Into the surface of my skin
Sitting by the roof
Wondering.
Millions of thoughts i could think
And one only surfaced
It's face and it's beauty
It's the galaxy that i see

like the butterfly effect
It's so easy to regret
but
I will never change
The way we left

Though I wish you never broke my heart
I don’t want a brand new start
I'm not me without my scars

- A band called "Before You Exit"

If only trees can speak

It will gossip the untold

And unfold mysteries

For it sees the passing storm
And feels the calmest wind
It will become the greatest storyteller
That makes one wonder into the unlikely
Thoughts of the world

Sometimes
I wonder what would it be like
If i told you my truth
If i shared you my story
If i offered you a door to my heart

I would have never ever wear a mask again
But i just dont think i have it in me
I don't have the guts
To open the pandora's box inside me