I want to travel the world
Wanderlust
Off road
Living in the dirt and the dust
Throw the roadmap out of the window
I wanna go where no one’s been before.

The buzz of the street lamps keeps me awake
Thick metal power lines cast shadows on my drapes
Those wires they crackle
And cackle
And mock me through the night
They whisper
Converse
Like a room full of jurors.

Sayin you’re lucky to have me
Clovers have four leaves,
But *** has five
Baby let’s get high
I want to adventure-cise
Explore the outside
As you explore mine.

Snuggled up in your hoodie
You said it looked good on me
As we walked between trees
Looking for a place to go
Somewhere you could smoke
It smells like your cologne
So as I lay here alone
It’s as if you’re still here
Whispering sweet nothings into my ear
Still remember the first sight
The first time
And the last
But all that has passed.

You taught me how to steal
How to feel
That thrilling appeal
In fact this very hoodie
Was one of your five-finger discounted goodies
I took a top from Good Will today
Just to feel the same type of way
As when you were by my side
It was like you were there along for the ride.

Cannot wait till I see you again
My soul aches for its best friend.

Ripping up flowers
Tearing off petals
Shooting down stars
Watching them fall
Snatching up broken dreams
Burying them all

Six feet under
I hope my tears
Drown out the sound
Echoing in your ears
Of screaming and pleading
For all these years

Overgrown weeds
And heavy grey clouds
Even shadows have shadows
Guess everyone has a past

Threw my penny into the well
Well, I guess that didn’t end up too well.
It’s like you were Jack and I was Jill
But it wasn’t Jill who took the spill

It was jack who fell
Under the spell
Of that little girl Jill
Who had the best will

And intentions
Full of questions
Bright eyed
And engaging
Optimistically waiting

For the right guy
To happen on by
Well once she met Jack
She never looked back
And that was that
A fairytale ending

Except that wishing well
Went straight to hell
And that water was poisoned
That penny corroded

Exposing the truth
The ignorance of youth
You weren’t all you seemed
A wolf in sheep’s clothing
Bursting at the seams

The real you came through
But that’s old news

What’s worse is I stayed

Even though day after day
It all was the same
Routine
You think
I would have learned

But I didn’t
And you were only acquitted
When death finally admitted
You to its domain
I hope it rains
Every day
Over your **** grave

And that the most beautiful flowers
Grow just out of reach
Not visible between weeds

And that when the leaves change
And the snow falls
You’re left with nothing
Nothing at all
But the miserable company
Of what’s left of your “love” for me.

Maybe you were the ocean,
When I was just a storm
Never meant to be here
For very long.

Experiential seeker
Live in the moment sort of believer
Capture the essence, capture the feeling
What is the story, what is the meaning?
Ephemeral and fleeting
Such is the world through eyes of human beings
But just for a minute forget what you're seeing
Embrace this pure and unadulterated freedom
Now give up control, your conscience is leaving!!

Turn the music up till my ears ring,
till I cant hear myself sing,
scream,
at the top of my lungs,
can't deal anymore I'm done.

One,
more time,
you say give it one more try,
well sorry not tonight,
cause I'm already gone,
been at this **** for way too long.

So baby rev up the engine,
step on the gas,
turn the radio up
till it shakes the ******* glass.

In the rearview,
flashing blue lights,
knock me off this high,
******* killed my vibe.

Won't come back down,
no I won't slow down,
tires squealing peal out,
heart pounding so loud.

Adrenaline,
again again,
can't get enough,
I lied I really give a ****.

Come back to me,
dear sweet ecstasy,
I crave you like a drug,
coursing through me in my blood.

Let's throw our hands up,
in playful surrender,
give in to the 5-0,
give up everything we know.

Let them think we've changed our minds,
then jump in the car and leave it all behind,
you're all I need and I'm all you've got,
so what do you say; give it one more shot?

Spiraling down
now
out of control.

Into the darkness
looming below.

Glimpses of starlight,
sunshine,
and gold.

Moments of life
and purpose
arose.

Gave me the strength
to carry on.
Found me a singer
to my life's song.

These times of perfetion,
so well played out,
in sync with the worthless,
thoughts of doubt.

Is this what it's like?
Is that what it could be?
Or am I meant to sit here
left out and dreary?

Climbing the staircase,
taking my time.
Counting them each,
as they arise.

Coming undone
'cause these steps lead nowhere.
I need fresh air,
breathing in failure.

Can this opportunity even compare?
I'm walking,
but barely,
across thin air.

The railing's gone,
no safety net.
I'm life's cruel joke,
a burnt out cigarette.

Trying to move on,
having regrets.
But all new beginnings
start with an end.

We're still climbing up the same **** wall,
bracing ourselves for the inevitable fall,
ignoring the chance of losing it all.

Is it true that you don't always know
what you've got
till it's gone?

'Cause I know what I have
has been right here
by my side
all along.

You say life's been cruel to you
knocked you down
and kicked you
then never came back around.

Well I say stop being the victim
get back up
hold your ground.

There are a lot of people rooting for you
to make it through
I hope you know.

Hope it's not too late
hope you choose to partake
in this life you have.

Don't let hard times make you hang your head
this is not
what you had planned
what you wanted.

Look at me you're better than this
this helplessness
is foolishness.

Now come on I've had enough
stand up up up
last chance calling
make it count
make it yours.

You think I get high
just so I can get by?

Well the truth is I drink
so I don't have to think

about how much I hate it here.
I'd rather chug another beer

than sit here and feel.
The likes of which have no appeal.

Work it out? I'd rather not
Come pour me a double shot.

Let's all try to get along?
You'd better make it extra strong.

You cry out "Why why why?!"
and I'm here like "On the rocks with lime."

Pleading that it's not too late
while I'm downing ***** straight.

But it IS too late I'm gone.
You can sing some long sad song,

or bid me goodnight,
but I'll be alright

laying here and singing my
good old whiskey lullaby.

I hate coffee, but I guess it'll do
because I really love spending time with you.

We meet at three
in a cafe down the street.

Grab a booth by the window
to watch the falling white snow.

Hours pass and we're still talking
don't want to leave so we keep stalling.

"Just one more drink..."
you say with a wink.

And there we go again
laughing at stories about your old friends.

This moment is perfect
every second worth it.

We make plans to see each other next week
you're so determined to teach me how to ski.

I'm terrified of heights
but if you're there it might be alright.

The monotany,
has caught up with me.

I need separation,
independent declaration,
from these divided,
un-united,
people called family.

Try to escape reality.

Waste of conciousness,
so fed up with this.

Done...

Run...

straight into oblivion.
Feet pounding on the pavement.

Trip...

Fall...

Love is the root of revolution.
War is a problem, not the solution.

Quit fighting

and lying

every ******* day.

Get on your knees, fold your hands, and pray.

We should want it to be better.
Blood bonds, strong, hold us together.

Sick of it now.

Sticking it out.

You come off as an absolute mystery
No past, no present, you've clearded your history
You wear your suit and cool demeanor
You've caught her eye, no plans to free her.

The light dims on your conversation
But on your face shines indignation
Brutal lover, no heart to break
Driven under make no mistake.

Moment of silence for the girl you used to be.
You can wave goodbye, that girl is history.

I know what it is, but not what it means
Come closer children I’ve seen the light
Between the lines
Scattered across the page
The glare is blinding how could we have missed it before?
That flash of truth
That spark of inspiration
Enlightened and free to spread
That glimmer of hope
To those desperate and needy
To those with nothing more
Than the ideas floating aimlessly round their heads
Broken and forgotten
They creep through shadows
Sleep in rubble
But what can we do?
Find it
Find the will to survive
Find the fight deep inside
Find our humanity
And make it a reality
We are all animals
Untamed beasts driven by desire
Subconsciously drifting
Aimlessly wandering
The brevity of our condition is all too apparent
Control the creature inside
Show it compassion and love like it’s never known
We are human
We are alive
We are free
To decide
To think
To scheme
To scream
To make war
To make love
We are capable of such beautiful things
Step forth from the shadows
You are here you are alive
Hold your head up high
And let the light shine.

Come with me; take a walk on the wild side,
Let me show you what life’s like through my eyes.

Leather and lace cover bumps and bruises
Scars and stories only leave you clueless

Under long sleeves, I cut, I’m bleeding
What kind of life do I think I’m leading?

You think you’re tough, baby you’re not prepared
Come take a walk with me, unless you’re scared.

Seeing you happy with her
It kills me inside
But I don’t dare say a word
Behind this smile I hide
Shattered, battered, broken, and bruised
Toyed with, strung along, worn out, and used.

I mean I had a good time
From the slow sips of white wine
To the liquor shots all in a line
I’ll be here doing just fine.

There's nothing you can say or do
Convinced I'm as ****** up as you
Have no idea what it's like inside
These four walls that I call my mind
I wish I didn't, if only I could
But god it just, hurts so good
Maybe this is how life goes
Maybe I'm just the last to know.

We're just frustrated youth
and we're stuck in our ways
searching for answers
as we live out the days

On the fast track
to our last laugh
drive our fast cars
to the shady bars
drink our feelings away
till we can't feel the pain

Live a reckless life
and we don't think twice
got a point to prove
and nothing to lose
go where we're not allowed
so what, we're ****** up and proud

We're just frustrated youth
and we're stuck in our ways
searching for answers
as we live out the days.

Welcome to our home
Where actions don’t speak louder than words
Where silence is a relief
And you’d rather eat alone.

Our “Hellos”
Turn into “Hell no’s”
And there are no hugs and kisses
Only blows and misses.

You learn to slow your breathing
And appear to be asleep
To avoid the shallow apologies
That won’t mean a thing next week.

Welcome to our home
Where you’re summoned and sent away like a dog
Where you wake up in the morning
And you’d rather go to school.

Our friends are always over
Our fridge is always full
Just ask Jack Daniels
We’re his second home.

Broken street lights
Dim against the black of night
Cast shadows on the wall behind us
The red brick smolders from the heat between you and I
Clothes soaked from the summer rain
Laughing we lay down on the empty road
Where only the memories of cars drive by
Hands intertwined
We look to the stars above
And watch as the world goes by
The sound of two breathing as one fills our ears
My head on your chest
The beating of your heart echoes mine
Hanging onto the shadows of yesterday’s youth
Not yet ready to face the consequences
Let us once again feel alive

The chorus
And the rhythm
Listen to the rain fall
All through the
Night
The wind
Whistling to the
Tune of the brewing storm
All through the
Night
The bass
Of thunder
Thumping rumbling
All through the
Night
The lights
The flashing
The strobe-ing of lightning
All through the
Night

I will be as I am
Not as you pretend me to be.
Defiant until the end.

Scars are simply small reminders
That you are alive
And you will survive.

I fight the urge to break down and cry
No
I refuse to look weak
I tell myself that I am strong
That I will smile through it all
I will laugh at the pain
And scoff at the struggle
I will flip my hair over my shoulder
Straighten my shoulders
Hold my head up high
And put one foot in front of the other
No matter what
I will carry on.

Stay fierce
Stay free
Stay passionate
Stay questioning
Stay independent
Stay wild
Stay young
Forever