Cucumber mornings and coconut breezes
Embracing the moment
As the wild wind teases.

Painted red roses and stunning green eyes
Surrender your heart
To harmless white lies.

My mind goes out to reach the brightest star
Past the dark side of the moon
And beyond the constraints of simple things like time
Words fail
As thoughts run free
Let it go
Leave it all behind
Stargazing
Starblazing

Sugar, satin, and spices
Every girl has her vices
Words slip out like sweet molasses
Time slows down as each one passes
Take me captive in your arms
Each breath you take calms and warms
Let this moment never pass
Love me now, like no one has.

Experiential seeker
Live in the moment sort of believer
Capture the essence, capture the feeling
What is the story, what is the meaning?
Ephemeral and fleeting
Such is the world through eyes of human beings
But just for a minute forget what you're seeing
Embrace this pure and unadulterated freedom
Now give up control, your conscience is leaving!!

I want to travel the world
Wanderlust
Off road
Living in the dirt and the dust
Throw the roadmap out of the window
I wanna go where no one’s been before.

Sayin you’re lucky to have me
Clovers have four leaves,
But *** has five
Baby let’s get high
I want to adventure-cise
Explore the outside
As you explore mine.

Vanilla yogurt and strawberry cream
Hint at the beginning of a very dull dream

Eating breakfast, how exciting
The end of my nails, I’m enthusiastically biting

Let me dream of something exhilarating
Not sitting at my table waiting

I’d rather dream that I could fly
Or travel the world in the blink of an eye

Swim underwater without ever breathing
Win in Vegas without ever cheating

Box in a ring for the world title
Become a judge on American Idol

Fly to Paris and date Johnny Depp
Dance on Broadway and not miss a step

But here I lay and begin to dream
Of vanilla yogurt and strawberry cream.

Welcome to our home
Where actions don’t speak louder than words
Where silence is a relief
And you’d rather eat alone.

Our “Hellos”
Turn into “Hell no’s”
And there are no hugs and kisses
Only blows and misses.

You learn to slow your breathing
And appear to be asleep
To avoid the shallow apologies
That won’t mean a thing next week.

Welcome to our home
Where you’re summoned and sent away like a dog
Where you wake up in the morning
And you’d rather go to school.

Our friends are always over
Our fridge is always full
Just ask Jack Daniels
We’re his second home.

I hate coffee, but I guess it'll do
because I really love spending time with you.

We meet at three
in a cafe down the street.

Grab a booth by the window
to watch the falling white snow.

Hours pass and we're still talking
don't want to leave so we keep stalling.

"Just one more drink..."
you say with a wink.

And there we go again
laughing at stories about your old friends.

This moment is perfect
every second worth it.

We make plans to see each other next week
you're so determined to teach me how to ski.

I'm terrified of heights
but if you're there it might be alright.

The lights from the city burn through the night
setting the world on fire
illuminating the blackest corners
of mind and matter.

Buildings rise from the ground
towering over all
casting shadows over
even the most wealthy powerful and strong.
They are but dust in comparison
specks swept beneath the rug.

People come and go
A steady stream of consciousness
Flowing through the streets
Business to be dealt with
Always far from home.

Sirens wail
slicing through the air
a silent chill
an electric thrill
as danger flirts with death.

Knee deep in passion,
No turning back,
Quicksand, quick to love,
Lost in the moment, lost in your love.

Moment of silence for the girl you used to be.
You can wave goodbye, that girl is history.

Turn your face up to the stars, my dear
Picture yourself falling up, far from here
Drifting higher
A ball of fire
A shooting star
A firefly from inside a jar
You're a weightless wanderer
A philosophical ponderer
Let yourself fly free
Don't think, just be.

Snuggled up in your hoodie
You said it looked good on me
As we walked between trees
Looking for a place to go
Somewhere you could smoke
It smells like your cologne
So as I lay here alone
It’s as if you’re still here
Whispering sweet nothings into my ear
Still remember the first sight
The first time
And the last
But all that has passed.

You taught me how to steal
How to feel
That thrilling appeal
In fact this very hoodie
Was one of your five-finger discounted goodies
I took a top from Good Will today
Just to feel the same type of way
As when you were by my side
It was like you were there along for the ride.

Cannot wait till I see you again
My soul aches for its best friend.

Corset lace
and cigarette waste

Hushed voices
and risky choices

Rusted stairs
and twisted hair

Slippery lies
and severed ties

Stage lights
and stage fright

Behind the scenes
ends justify the means.

There are a million things,
running through my head,
when I try to lay down,
and go to bed.

Turn the music up till my ears ring,
till I cant hear myself sing,
scream,
at the top of my lungs,
can't deal anymore I'm done.

One,
more time,
you say give it one more try,
well sorry not tonight,
cause I'm already gone,
been at this **** for way too long.

So baby rev up the engine,
step on the gas,
turn the radio up
till it shakes the ******* glass.

In the rearview,
flashing blue lights,
knock me off this high,
******* killed my vibe.

Won't come back down,
no I won't slow down,
tires squealing peal out,
heart pounding so loud.

Adrenaline,
again again,
can't get enough,
I lied I really give a ****.

Come back to me,
dear sweet ecstasy,
I crave you like a drug,
coursing through me in my blood.

Let's throw our hands up,
in playful surrender,
give in to the 5-0,
give up everything we know.

Let them think we've changed our minds,
then jump in the car and leave it all behind,
you're all I need and I'm all you've got,
so what do you say; give it one more shot?

Ripping up flowers
Tearing off petals
Shooting down stars
Watching them fall
Snatching up broken dreams
Burying them all

Six feet under
I hope my tears
Drown out the sound
Echoing in your ears
Of screaming and pleading
For all these years

Overgrown weeds
And heavy grey clouds
Even shadows have shadows
Guess everyone has a past

Threw my penny into the well
Well, I guess that didn’t end up too well.
It’s like you were Jack and I was Jill
But it wasn’t Jill who took the spill

It was jack who fell
Under the spell
Of that little girl Jill
Who had the best will

And intentions
Full of questions
Bright eyed
And engaging
Optimistically waiting

For the right guy
To happen on by
Well once she met Jack
She never looked back
And that was that
A fairytale ending

Except that wishing well
Went straight to hell
And that water was poisoned
That penny corroded

Exposing the truth
The ignorance of youth
You weren’t all you seemed
A wolf in sheep’s clothing
Bursting at the seams

The real you came through
But that’s old news

What’s worse is I stayed

Even though day after day
It all was the same
Routine
You think
I would have learned

But I didn’t
And you were only acquitted
When death finally admitted
You to its domain
I hope it rains
Every day
Over your **** grave

And that the most beautiful flowers
Grow just out of reach
Not visible between weeds

And that when the leaves change
And the snow falls
You’re left with nothing
Nothing at all
But the miserable company
Of what’s left of your “love” for me.

You think I get high
just so I can get by?

Well the truth is I drink
so I don't have to think

about how much I hate it here.
I'd rather chug another beer

than sit here and feel.
The likes of which have no appeal.

Work it out? I'd rather not
Come pour me a double shot.

Let's all try to get along?
You'd better make it extra strong.

You cry out "Why why why?!"
and I'm here like "On the rocks with lime."

Pleading that it's not too late
while I'm downing ***** straight.

But it IS too late I'm gone.
You can sing some long sad song,

or bid me goodnight,
but I'll be alright

laying here and singing my
good old whiskey lullaby.

Can’t even breathe
Tripping
Falling
So far down
Sinking now
Six feet under the ground
Shouting
Can’t hear a thing
Deaf to the cries for help
Deaf to the pleas for sanity
Pinch me I’m dreaming
Can’t feel a thing
Numb to the hurt
Numb to the
Cold shoulder
That I’ve turned on the world
Your voice in the back of my mind
Pushing me closer to the edge
Of the knife
Sharpened to a point
Aimed to ****
Ready to cut
Through the tension in the air
Free falling
I’m calling
Out
No service
Just count me
Out
For this round
And round we go
Who’s right anymore?
We don’t even know
I just wanna go
Far away
On an airplane
To a new place
With a new take
On life
Come help me out
Of this hole I’ve dug
Myself into
So far down
Reaching out
Hold me now
Can’t see the stars
Or the hope they bring
Me back
To the way things were
To the way things ought to be
When it seemed like life
Was lived more simply
I’m starving for air
Can’t even think
Suffocating under the pressure
To be
Everything
To carry the weight
Of the world on my back
Turning a blind eye
To the sense I’m losing
Wishing on the stars I’m seeing
Spinning round my head
To grant me strength
To take one last breath
And lift my head
To scream out shamelessly
As I pass into
Infinity.

Sailing by in a boat made of paper
Circus dancers far above the clouds
Trees covered with ribbons
Twisted by the sun

Birds singing forgotten notes
Past reflections of precious moments
Barking at the moon above
Firey breath and fogged up mirrors

Simple words across a page
Gently gliding with the wind
Wicked branches of forelorn beauty
Whispered temptations and unanswered prayers

Drifting slowly under broken bridges
Sailing by in a boat made of paper.

I fight the urge to break down and cry
No
I refuse to look weak
I tell myself that I am strong
That I will smile through it all
I will laugh at the pain
And scoff at the struggle
I will flip my hair over my shoulder
Straighten my shoulders
Hold my head up high
And put one foot in front of the other
No matter what
I will carry on.

Spiraling down
now
out of control.

Into the darkness
looming below.

Glimpses of starlight,
sunshine,
and gold.

Moments of life
and purpose
arose.

Gave me the strength
to carry on.
Found me a singer
to my life's song.

These times of perfetion,
so well played out,
in sync with the worthless,
thoughts of doubt.

Is this what it's like?
Is that what it could be?
Or am I meant to sit here
left out and dreary?

Climbing the staircase,
taking my time.
Counting them each,
as they arise.

Coming undone
'cause these steps lead nowhere.
I need fresh air,
breathing in failure.

Can this opportunity even compare?
I'm walking,
but barely,
across thin air.

The railing's gone,
no safety net.
I'm life's cruel joke,
a burnt out cigarette.

Trying to move on,
having regrets.
But all new beginnings
start with an end.

Light up my night
Fly away with my dreams
Firefly.

Sunshine
Hair down
Feet in the sand
This it it
The good life

Birds call
Waves crash
Salt in the air
This is it
The good life

Cold drinks
Bright smiles
Summer livin'
This is it
The good life.

The moon shines bright through the window
And sails across your eyes
Turning those small blue oceans
Into soft white pearls
Casting off reflections
Like a fisherman casts a line
Reeling me in closer
Tempting me
Like a baited hook
And suddenly I’m yours
Tangled in your net
I could stay like this forever
Swimming through your oceans
And never come ashore.

Let it fade away
with the bright light
of day.

Hope is the hand holding yours,
lifting you up,
when you have fallen.

Sunflower summers
and
Dandelion dreams.

Endless horizons
and
Peaceful beginnings.

We're just frustrated youth
and we're stuck in our ways
searching for answers
as we live out the days

On the fast track
to our last laugh
drive our fast cars
to the shady bars
drink our feelings away
till we can't feel the pain

Live a reckless life
and we don't think twice
got a point to prove
and nothing to lose
go where we're not allowed
so what, we're ****** up and proud

We're just frustrated youth
and we're stuck in our ways
searching for answers
as we live out the days.

Stay fierce
Stay free
Stay passionate
Stay questioning
Stay independent
Stay wild
Stay young
Forever

The monotany,
has caught up with me.

I need separation,
independent declaration,
from these divided,
un-united,
people called family.

Try to escape reality.

Waste of conciousness,
so fed up with this.

Done...

Run...

straight into oblivion.
Feet pounding on the pavement.

Trip...

Fall...

Love is the root of revolution.
War is a problem, not the solution.

Quit fighting

and lying

every ******* day.

Get on your knees, fold your hands, and pray.

We should want it to be better.
Blood bonds, strong, hold us together.

Sick of it now.

Sticking it out.

I will be as I am
Not as you pretend me to be.
Defiant until the end.

The buzz of the street lamps keeps me awake
Thick metal power lines cast shadows on my drapes
Those wires they crackle
And cackle
And mock me through the night
They whisper
Converse
Like a room full of jurors.