You will never know how much,
How much I long for you.
I don't want to meet your eyes,
Am afraid you might see through me.
See my deepest thoughts,
Find them colored with you.
I tell myself I don't need you,
Convince myself you're wrong for me.
It hurts too much,
You matter too much.
My every tear is tied to you,
You didn't call, you didn't want me too.
How can I be rid of you,
When I can't think of anything but you?
You break my heart and somehow its only you who can fix it.
I want to be with you,
Somehow you're what I need.
Can you feel it too?

I made a mistake.
I mistook your affection for love,
Your loneliness for devotion.

I was in the palm of your hand,
A puppet on a string.
I craved your attention
And longed for your warmth.

You led me to believe
That I was the center of your universe.

In a very sad reality,
I was just a speck of dust floating through your galaxy.
You shone with the brilliance of a supernova,
Until you let me down.

You began to crumble under my feet like an old bridge.
Your devotion was obsolete,
Your affection a product of fickle desire.
I finally saw through the thin veil you hid behind.

Your eyes were empty,
Lacking passion and romance.
Your words were worthless,
Like a dim buzz in the distance.

I made the mistake of caring for you,
For getting too caught up.
I look back on this and get chills of regret.
I mistook your tenderness for a true love,
When really it was all in vain.

Quiet said the moon
the children are sleeping
away in their rooms our light only seeping

towards them the light barely for them
here in the sky all you feel is boredom
only to watch but to never adore one

lay quiet my children
with the sky full of millions of eyes
and your eyes on my sky lets me watch you

like lovers do

my gentle feel only to embrace such a face
such as yours sharp as swords for a war

How you pain me

as I siege at the cusp of the earth
like a mother at birth

nor I
for I have fallen and failed
yet still I sail for shores that adore your presence

My children
even in my banished state
from afar I see you

As love knows no bounds
I roam amongst the clouds and celestial bodies
to feel you

My stars excite the sky
The only gift to offer
acknowledgment that I am here

As so many that have looked past me
Who I have loved in loss
Your mother is waiting

I have herd the cries of the hurt and the scorned
Crying tears much like mine
For you are not alone

My shackles Bind me
But my inner unwinds me

Forever is not enough time to deter my longing
You my children are the cause
The birth of the earth

Sleep my children
I'll stay watch