200 days ago
I pushed you away
And told you
You'll run away in fear
But you told me
You love me
Told me
To hold your hand and trust you
Told me
To give you my all even if
There's monsters living in me
Told me
You'll never run away in fear
And told me
You'll love every part of me
But 200 days later
You yelled at me-
You're clingy
You're needy
You're possessive
You're petty
You're selfish
You're ridiculous
Maybe you're right I cannot do this-
That moment
My world shattered

They always say you got to have a plan in life
To get good grades in school so
You can get an amazing job next
And find a lover to settle down
And build a family together
But what if I don't have any plans
Not even any plans for an hour from now
What if my life is to get wasted yet i'm ******* happy
Is that a plan too?
Am I still going to get label as LOST?

I can forgive you when you raise your hands on me
I can forgive you when you wanted the best of both worlds
I can forgive you when you cursed my family
I can forgive you when you disrespected me
I can forgive you when you left me for your friends
I can forgive you when you were selfish
I can forgive you when I wasn't your priority like you promised
I can forgive you when you broke my heart
I can forgive you when you broke promises
Maybe I didn't think I deserve better
Or maybe I didn't wanna deserve anything but you
You were you and it was enough for me
I did love you with everything I got, but it still wasn't enough for you
Your hearts are out there for those girls
And you learnt a skill over time
And that is only to find me when your fun ends
You knew that I will always be here
You took this loyalty for granted and cheated half of the time
Shame on me