fell into a black hole
pain weighed me down
but eventually I started to climb out
I could see the sun, hear the chirpy birds
and then
you dragged me back in
deeper then I'd ever been before
the walls crashed around me
so that I was buried
buried and so very alone

I want to see the sun again
I want to be over this
I want to run away

But I am stuck.

I don't appreciate
bleeding for nine days straight
Flow so heavy I wanna die
at the silliest things I start to cry
the annoying things never made me twitch
but now I just go full *****
I just lie around like a lump
And everything, I want to ****
Simply, I have no motivation
Golly Don't I hate *******

I wanna write
but I don't have a good story
I could depict something nice
or something quite gory
such as a mouse squeaking in strife
cause his wife is quite whorey
She was caught with the three blind mice
her only retort, a sob story
unfortunately he didn't believe her lie
and stained her fur a sticky wild-cherry
just beat her until she died
he gave her no time to say sorry
now he sits alone and cries
his breathing getting steep
no one can ask why
after this, he'll never squeak.

Never say remember
That means that it’s the past
Never say forget
Because memories will last
Never say forever
That word is a lie
Never say nothing
And never say **goodbye

who said about saving?
who said about sinking?
oblivious in people's eyes
killing inside

unaware of your surroundings
in underwater, steady breathing.
you are sinking to oblivion
and you just want to drown.

drowning, hardly breathing.
blood comes into life
once you realize
everything isn't right

no one realized
the lies underneath the skies
and once you fade away,
that's the time they'll care.

I Just Called To Say I Hate You

You broke my very fragile heart,
blood on the wall, looks like art.
Sometimes I hang up when I call,
I will beg for mercy, I'd even crawl.
Yes, I'm under a restraining order,
many times, I crossed that border.
I just called to say I hate you,
killing is now what I pursue.
I hate your eyes, I hate your nose,
hate your fingers, hate your toes.
You said we'd last forever,
then you slept with my friend Trevor.
We got into a great big fight,
you stormed out that very same night.
I just called to say I hate you,
sometimes plans, just fall through.
Now I'm colder than cubes of ice,
I'm on you like white on rice.
I stalked you for about a week,
neighbors thought I was a creepy freak.
Twice you had me arrested,
a trial is what I requested.
I just called to say I hate you,
you have no idea, what I plan to do.
I can't help, that I keep calling,
I'm still begging, I'm still crawling.
I just can't get you out of my mind,
I'm always just two steps behind.
Went to the store and bought a knife,
if you can't be mine,
then you'll be nobodies wife.
I just called to say I hate you,
I fed the homeless, I called it ***** stew.