"Hello" Yes it's late. No problem. Whats up? I'm okay. Don't cry, you should be happy under the Moonlight sky. You have noticed the Moon arisen?
Another night with your crying eyes
it keeps me realizing you made
a mistake leaving me.
Come over tonight with having your company
beside me.
Let us attract the Moonlight that's  burning
inside me.
Let's live our lives again of how it
used to be.
We can wish together to make it come
true.
Promise a list of things that will always please you.
Never again mention our past, to have one
life become two.
Wake up to the morning sun reflecting off
the outside boulders.
Flowing with Love as we get older.
Keeping fresh in my mind of being young,and
how i loved to hold her.
These are the things we should live for.
It's time for me to hang up this phone, and
have the Moonlight show you the way to my
home. Click. Accompanied with a dial tone."

I am brittle, not broken.

I am fragile, yet stronger than any part of me that ever begged for mercy from the sweet darkness that inhabits my silent hours.

My diagnosis will not define me. It is but a drop in the oceans of love that swell and ebb behind my vacant stare.

My mind may be tainted, it will often descend into darkness but it ascends to the light with such glorious grace that I am grateful for the duality.

I sometimes hold on too tightly as I quake amongst dreams of letting go.  White knuckles and curled fingers cling to the void that becomes my existence as my dark companion enters without pause or invitation and dances through my day with numbing ease. 

Today I will refuse to follow.

If I had a dollar
for everytime she hollered
I could be a millionaire

If I had a stitch
for everytime she *******
I could mend everyones clothes

If I had a bread crumb
for everytime she cried
I could lead a path to paradise

If I hand a grand of sand
for everytime she lost control
I would have a hour glass with unlimited time

If I had a chair
for everytime she cared
I would have no place to sit

If I had to walk a mile
for everytime she smiled
I would never go anywhere

If I had a perk
For everytime she hurt
It would never run out of benefits

and so on
and so on
and so on