"to say I love you"
tears walk away from my heart
a new series of terror
you hold fifty one vials of my blood
loving you and waiting
something ****** the soil
the cattle continue missing organs
it's too much to drive
the pastor says he's been waiting for me
it's pretty much what you choose now
blue eyes
fruit only the river could hold
we chew onions from the Amish
one week later and I'm not strong enough
we eat
summer withdraws her claws
twelve wives and eight of them pure
it's your choice the pastor says again
that prophet speaks into my perfect ****
it's the neighbors next I'm told
and thanks for asking
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fifteen years later and there ain't a bullet which could take me down
it's two lines for every buck I don't have
there's a look now
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convinced it ain't me touching
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into the red clay
tarnished steel coos
brassy nose learning to mask a smile
it's twenty two to life he tells me
these sins you commit, it'd be worth it
try as i smile
he breaks my resolve
it's ten years ago and you ask where'd I lose that tooth
that barn all but burnt
it's four years and death threats
threats but none so close
a gift you told me
a promise comes later
after the flower for the pence
after the deathwish
it's but the only wish
I killed you a long time ago
it's just a bag of trash
inside are things unwanted
with that out of my chest
i ask replace it
with an old sweet dream
it's the wolves' fangs
a sight akin to my bladder losing itself
and it's your smile
that contains my heart
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covered in a sheet of ice
thinking for so long the morgue was where i'd finish my first smoke
life burns out and death moves forward
a war is won with footsteps retreated, muddy & unaccounted for
it was my horse's tooth
'tis not that legendary silver fang
even now i taste you
weak and acrid in my happiest cups
much to remove
you
being such a series of
flashing lights
barking and hollering
defending and pleading
resurfacing and resurfacing
I'll waste your memories