"utterable" poems
i have found what you are like
the rain,
(Who feathers frightened fields
with the superior dust-of-sleep. wields
easily the pale club of the wind
and swirled justly souls of flower strike
the air in utterable coolness
deeds of green thrilling light
with thinned
newfragile yellows
lurch and.press
—in the woods
which
stutter
and
sing
And the coolness of your smile is
stirringofbirds between my arms;but
i should rather than anything
have(almost when hugeness will shut
quietly)almost,
your kiss
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sick in the mornings one thousand times more at night
cells tightening at
the God sized electric pain
coming quick through me like
those five forced breaths
I took them out one two three and on
when you looked out for you, & left me
left my
lungs forced open to contract the corners of
sharp colossal wide open night
left me alone in the middle of the road
when it was coldest in the end of december,
the two yellow dividing lines following you out into the dark
stabs of iced oxygen pricking deep where my fingers could
not pry
like that
this pain comes all of it at once
bright black vision of in-utterable clarity
each wave counted out by the swell
the judgement wrath of Chaos
black and silent breaking unbearable down onto my head
but somehow, becomes even more, even higher and still darker
breaking through the very form of the vast!
the rest is more than I can speak
what it was
drifted from the glimmer
pale and in form unlike the forms we’d seen before or conceived
approached where I lay bleeding into the ground,
barely more than a pile of wasted light against little shadows
“go on,
it will get darker yet
do not falter now.
go back to the earth
burn out until you are nothing left
but the bones of your bones,
and can no longer weep.
know beyond the horror and the wonder and the nothing
what you are
only whispered beloved
know it through to the end, where the dark softly turns into something else
further still, to an autumn of final ending, there
throw off your clothes, go as you came
go out into the water
drift from there, away and lost now always
look up blessed through the last evening
do not stop until you are truly gone.”
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 6:13 PM UTC
swallowed by the un-utterable
sheer magnitude
of that which surrounds
the preciousness
we oft-times mention it
in terms
designed to blunt and obscure
the horror
the fear in
all youth
and our self-derision
that this is so
swallowed by the sheer magnitude
of the deception
and our hollow responses
and the percieved future
we confront
still
we fall in love
and hope
this is probably
not enough
but it is what we do
in defence of a truth
almost forgotten
within the abuse
what i am ?
what i aint ?
soon all questions shall
be answered
Sep 29, 2010
Sep 29, 2010 at 2:45 PM UTC
i have found what you are like
the wind
(Who cautiously caresses cheek
with the anxious longing of hands, wreaks
uncommon want in skin
and disappears, the ghostly loss of
the air of utterable coolness
breaths of fading light
with pained
newfragile hope
come and go
-in my heart
which
utters
and
sings
And the warmth of your breeze is
a stirringofbirds between my arms;but
i should rather than anything
have(almost when hugeness will shut
quietly)almost,
your kiss
Apr 27, 2014
Apr 27, 2014 at 10:41 PM UTC
in darkness, a world disintegrates
in hell, hope lenders feed the fire
interestingly, as you lay next to me
I'm burning beneath such desire
a little voice whispered wishes
that fell beneath shallow cracks
next to warmth, cloaking subterfuge
bruises appear on uncovered backs
in silence you sleep with the dead
in awareness you fear familiarity
your own cancerous consciousness
finds no utterable, plausible clarity
I'm stable upon the mountaintop
you created from a demons desire
when I descend to the depth of life
will you follow?
or be swallowed by the fire?
Aug 22, 2015
Aug 22, 2015 at 1:37 AM UTC
fuddy puddly
the child playing within
the adult continuously chasin':
Non-utterable
the child says gets a mouth
washed out,
He is feeling for boundaries and meanings
where the adult uses it the
( sting the blasphemous bad thing)
an insult to hurt who hurts he.
Give the children a soda,
wash down the grown
man in suds and near drown him.
the one the children learn from.
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 9:17 PM UTC