"resealed" poems
I expected something like memories,
lost eyelashes marking the paths
where our laughter bounced off of buildings
disturbed birds and audacious shouts
Something within me said, yes,
this is the feeling, this is what I was waiting for
blue eyes and full lips
Hair as beautiful as your hands
white teeth, beautiful back
But as the day dripped by
slowly like molasses from my fingertips
I heard nothing
not a smile, not a sigh
not a look from your eyes, not a sideways grin
I did not hold your hand
or run my fingers down your side
I did not touch your lips
or bump thighs on the sidewalk
because you do not exist
or you did not, in the moment that i wanted
and now i hardly think
you ever will have the chance again
the water that was my soul
is resealed in its tupperware
and the dolphins in my pockets
have been erased away just a little bit more
fade fade fade
fade until there is no more
fade until it's all rock hard
like cauterized nerve endings
and hollow cheek bones
and the names in my pocket book of **** yous.
Nov 20, 2011
Nov 20, 2011 at 1:58 PM UTC
Samantha a garden as beautiful as your eyes.
Your beauty was a surprise.
It is not just your outer beauty,
But your inner beauty is recognised.
Because the beauty in your heart is eternal.
Your beautiful pictures kept in a journal.
A heart with scars that has healed.
Her tears in a snow globe resealed.
Samantha your favourite car is your hearts shield.
For extra protection your heart is protected by a force field.
Hurt her and a car will hit you.
Your beautiful red lips and red hair is unsurpassed.
When she is sad its overcast.
Her beauty is unmatched.
Those who don't recognise your beauty must be weary.
When she is speaking, if you listen closely, her heart tells a heartfelt story.
Nov 11, 2016
Nov 11, 2016 at 2:41 PM UTC
I wish this **** would end
This mass destruction
This mass corruption
I wish Pandora's box could be resealed
Not concealed
With rumors and lies
I wish that it would end
It's getting worse and worse
Pandora's box is blasting
The corruption is spreading and causing destruction
The terrible truth concealed With rumors and lies
I wish to grant my freedom with these bottle of pills
As I sit from the top of my prison hill
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 1:31 AM UTC
I crash
My mind hits the rocks
The tide sweeps away hope
Prevention was in the clocks
Time was ticking
The old father knew
sooner or later
Reality would blast a hole brand new
My beliefs and my Hope
My imagination ran wild
Malicious Reality intervened
Cunning Fate sat back and smiled
In one brief moment
All I thought was real
Laughs in my face
The vault is resealed
Realizations hit me
I sit and I cry
I am left beaten and empty
Silenting hoping no one will pry
Love and Faith
Take pity on my soul
The ways of the world are not my own
And carefully, I fill in the hole
Oct 17, 2011
Oct 17, 2011 at 11:39 AM UTC
I swear I meant all the words
that I said when we were lying
in bed together that night
and in the car every time
I drove you home, way too late
because neither of us wanted to part
Sometimes I catch myself
laughing at some inside joke
of which I am now outside,
turning to find you
gone, only air in your place
because none could ever take it
I held onto hope for the
longest time, thinking you
would get tired of the city life,
run back to my arms
I never knew when you might
come, so I kept them open
But this morning, I went
out to my mailbox to find
in it twelve letters
from me to you,
resealed,
"R.T.S." written on each.
Feb 4, 2013
Feb 4, 2013 at 6:49 PM UTC
i found the letter
it had been opened then resealed a few months back
titled; 'reasons why i love you'
a page filled with such a mellow tone of words
words that replaced your thoughts
and were then addressed to me
i unfolded the creased page,
that had been stored in my cupboard
in between a couple of books
i read each line 3 times over,
to make sure that i had tortured myself enough
with your sweet words from the past
each line had been read,
until my eyes were filled with the bitter sting of tears
until i was unable to make out the letters
you had once scribbled out
and as the drops silently fell onto the crease of the page
my heart sank and my mind began to wonder,
all i could ask myself was 'what if?'
what if i were better to you back then?
would you still be mine?
what if i were stronger and held on?
would we still be together?
what if everything you had written on this page were true?
what if you still meant it all? what if? what if?
what if maybe there's a little hope left for us.
but then, the cold hard truth of reality hit me,
there is no hope and there never will be.
you will never love me like you used to.
Mar 10, 2014
Mar 10, 2014 at 3:17 PM UTC
Maybe that space is simply just to let the flowers grow.
From a bed of ashes, one bud will rise, prevailing all others that tried.
The space that once was covered and wrapped in warm blankets now is naked and exposed.
Everyone knows my pain,
No one understands it.
Everyone feels my pain,
No one comprehends it.
For a year it laid open, the draft leaking in through the curtains.
It chilled other existing happiness,
Some it penetrated, but others it just reached the surface.
And now there's promise, with the shutters tied down the wind will persist,
But the space will grow warm again.
That first bud shines through, and the seeds left behind ache to be opened by water's lusting hands.
The flowers open and invite the sun into their petals' warm embraces.
The clouds disperse and the rays tangle with the leaves of the tree saplings playfully.
The land forms into mounds and shapes,
The colors grow in variance,
And soon the growth is simply too much,
No longer can the cold wind linger,
It simply mixes and becomes just a number.
The trees grow from edge to edge of the deep divide,
So much,
And the gaps close in on each other.
-The transformation is almost complete-
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It may take years, and perhaps the body this canyon resides in may perish and create new flowers,
But one day the gap will close
And the seal will be resealed
And the storm may be quelled.
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 11:05 PM UTC
I am a reflective adjective
Of the universe
A TITAN spurned
The surface of water resealed
Bones, turned
I am DESIGN
Deoxyribo Helix nebulae
Memories of the taste of snow
Shivering, sailing Boggy Bay
I am my grandfather’s hands
Teasing the keel
I remember
And my brother can’t heal
Our loved ones now vapor and
Preserved teeth
I too hunger
And will meet relief
Jan 5, 2017
Jan 5, 2017 at 12:49 PM UTC