I've been making bad decisions lately,
I've been choosing your happiness over mine.
I've been hiding my smile just to make you laugh...
I've been living for you,
maybe it's because I have been lonely..
Unlike pnd I've been lonely all the days of the week & not just on thursday nights..

I've been yearning to be loved for once
To be caressed for once
To be someones " girlfriend "for once

You came at the right time, when my mind only knew solitude
Oh how great it was letting my mind meet a fellow human.
we enjoyed the moments, maybe you more than me.

I got what i needed, an occasional " I love you " and a "goodnight gorgeous"

I was fine till i started making cracks on the walls of this "love" we had.
I pointed out how the corners of our affection were crumbling, you said no we will be fine
I pointed out how the floors of our love were opening in half, you promised me that we'll be fine.
I pointed out how the walls of our conversations didn't look the same anymore, you said no I'll be fine.
And in that moment the ceiling of our companionship started cracking, you said no you'll fix it.

I asked " what about we?, can't we do this together" you kept quiet....

Baby, I had to sit back and watch you slowly change into someone I didnt know.
& finally when my addiction to you that turned into a habit that soon turned into a hobby stopped

I took my heart and walked away, but you know what hurts? You held the door of our relationship open for me.

You wished me a happy departure.