coffee drizzles
it’s tasty
& comforting
there’s too much snow
it won’t stop snowing
the window is getting boring
all I can think about
is the muffin I just ate
& what it will be like to be
home again
where all I think about
are the things I’ve just eaten
& sometimes why I haven’t
really left
my hometown yet
& not just for another getaway trip
but for good
I’ve always thought
a grey day
is the perfect metaphor
for how I feel most of the time
but so does everyone else
so I am just like
all of those other boring people
with boring lives
like this window
& the mother with the four
very plain looking kids
three tables down
& the muffins lined up
on the counter top
for boring people like me to buy
as they wait
for a plane to come to
carry them to a whole
new world
where routine doesn’t exist
only margaritas & surf’s up
or else,
to carry them back home
back to reality
back to functioning like
a complete robot
in the safety of
fear
there is a plane waiting to take off
just sitting on the runway
I wonder when it’ll get going
I wonder where everyone inside of it
is going
& where I am going
& what I am doing
here
instead of living
I watch snow fall out of a window
when it could soak me up
& give me a reason to sit
by the fireplace
with blankets, tea & a book
whether I am alone
or with a lover, friend, cat or dog
I can see
how that sounds more boring
than sitting in an airport
eating muffins
but it is exciting
to me
because it is happiness
to me

fresh trees  french streets cool breeze tight squeeze
boy friend new friend
want a dog hours logged less smog
tomorrow off
and friday off
and saturday off
and sunday on
and monday on
and tuesday on
and wednesday on
and thursday off
and friday off
and sunday off
i'm bored

head board
grab on turn on

do that thing do those things make the thing
switch on switch off
anxious on anxious off
write a song sing along play along bike along
bike alone walk alone sing alone
bike together walk together sing together
act normal act normal act normal
realize realize realize realize realize
new city new people new language
few friends bad job
two lost lovers one found love
find me find you together apart together apartment
apartment together
maybe next year.

See ma name is Lil t, born female but got pronouns with they and he

Ma big brotha calls me a lil' ******, ma otha brotha calls himself Born2Play with one digit

Nobody talk **** with this 5 foot 4, you mess with me and you out dat door!

I'm a Virgo born in a foreign country, at the age of three flew over the sea

Ma blood is made up of Blue, Yellow and Red. Romanian is one of the 5 Latin languages if y'all dumb squats read

A child of God is what they call me,
I **** skittles when I reach the MTL metro Beaudry

I ain't like those otha chicks,
When I was 17 I realized I didn't like ****

Put two and two togetha,
Adopted rainbow sheep of ma family, had a dream about this ******* named Gabby

Ima end this rap short and sweet,
I stand proud and tall for Comaneci the great 10 on 10 gymnast athlete