Imagine waking up one day and you could have anything you wanted , Family , friends, boyfriend or girlfriend. Just everything you could ever want then one day your friends aren't your friends anymore , your family doesn't talk to you anymore and the boy or girl you thought loved you  tells you he/she never had any feelings for you that they only talked to you because they felt sorry for you. You think you're all alone , no friends no family , no love just alone in a cold hearted world thinking a razor is home and the cuts are the momeories of what meant the world to you then one day you loose it and you're gone.

I use to be ok
I use to be alright by myself
I use to enjoy new things
I use to enjoy the freedom

Mental state got worse
I now need a service dog
When my mind tail spins
And when a safe hug
Turns into a flash back of pain

I use to be ok
Now the momeories haunt me
Keep me awake at night
Force my body to collapse in the day
All because my mind is a prison

Now I struggle with words
The articulation a difficulty
Where I use to give speeches without a stutter
Now I'm tounge tied every hour
My mouth fully of taffy
And for what?

I use to be ok
I use to function
Why is my brain
Locking me out of the world
I grew up living in?