can i be close to You again
or have i ruined myself so much
that You don't even recognize me
sometimes i don't even recognize
myself when i look into the mirror
my dearest friend
i want to come back home
but i'm not sure i'm welcomed
there anymore
if i could just hold on to
the hem of your coat
maybe i'd go back to who i used to be
maybe the familiar feeling would awaken that faith inside of me
i used to have a sense of freedom
within Your arms
i wanted to stay there
i didn't want to leave
i know these past few years
i've adopted a lot of self destructive tendencies
as if they were my family
they all live with me and
god, how they run me into the ground
it's the voice singing me to sleep
when no one else is around

She missed the days when he made her toes curl
Those days when his touch started a firestorm
His whisper made her wetter than a rain forest
He's the one who made her feel like a woman
Like musical composer , he knew to hit all the right notes

That's was then
All that remains now is echos of emptiness
Desolace abound
Her heart aches and longs
If only she turn hands of time
Just for moment to be with him
He is gone now

Memories is all she got to hold on to
She got more than many get in 3 lifetimes
She traded chaos for peace
Adventure for serenity
Wild *** for a book
This is after she realised he could not be tamed
He's a free spirit, a wild spirit
She could not keep up
She thirsted for something different
A slow pace
A moment for sanity
That is when
She walked way