Forty Days

A Season of Grief, a Season of Rejoicing

November 9-December 20, 2014

For Barbara Beach Alter 
It is Christmas morning in Saco, Maine, where today Bett, Aaron, Emily, Thomasin and our beloved cousin Marie find ourselves gathered to celebrate our first Christmas without dadima (our name for Barbara Beach Alter).  Brother Tom writes that already in India he and Carol with Jamie, Meha and Cayden (the only of her seven greatgrandchildren Barry never held) have celebrated.  Today Marty and Lincoln join us in Maine.

This gathering of documents—notes, drafts of memorial services, poems, homilies—is my christmas present to each of you.  It is a record, certainly subjective, of grief and rejoicing.

John Copley Alter
1:14 a.m.
Saco, Maine 
November 9

Loved ones,
Barbara Beach Alter died peacefully at 2:55 Sunday morning (today).  Bett and I had the good fortune to be there for the final beating of her good strong heart.  She murmured charcoal.  The nurse who was bathing her afterwards noted how few wrinkles there were, and it is true.
For those of you nearby you may if you want visit Mom in her room at hospice this morning (until noon).  Visit? Darshan? Paying respects?
Bett and I plan to be there around 11:00.
Much love to all. A blessed occasion.
John

 
November 10

Matthew 5:13-19
Jesus said, "You are the salt of the earth; but if salt has lost its taste, how can its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything, but is thrown out and trampled under foot.
"You are the light of the world. A city built on a hill cannot be hid. No one after lighting a lamp puts it under the bushel basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father in heaven.
"Do not think that I have come to abolish the law or the prophets; I have come not to abolish but to fulfill. For truly I tell you, until heaven and earth pass away, not one letter, not one stroke of a letter, will pass from the law until all is accomplished. Therefore, whoever breaks one of the least of these commandments, and teaches others to do the same, will be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but whoever does them and teaches them will be called great in the kingdom of heaven."

yesterday in the early hours my mother died her saltiness
restored all that had through the months of her old
age and convalescence obscured the lens of her life cleaned
away so that for us now more and more clearly
as we hear about her through the memory and love
of so many people her good works shine forth in
their glory but it is to the days of her
convalescence the days of her dementia I would turn our
minds those of us who spent time with her at
Wingate long-term care facility remember that Barbara Beach Alter became
at times fierce in her commanding us that ‘not one
letter, not one stroke of a letter’ of the commandments
should be altered do you remember that those of you
and us who were given the work and gift of
spending time with Barry in those days in that condition

remember for instance how fussy she became about the sequence
of food on her tray how impatient with us for
our trespasses and violations how adamant that we look forward
for instance and not back at her how she would
say stop holding my hand and saying you love me
you have work to do o she was almost impossible
and certainly incoherent and demented in her obsession with law
and procedure fussy impatient imperious I do not forget being
scolded reamed out put in my place for having somehow
failed to do what the ‘law and the prophets’ demand

Barbara beach alter in the days before hospice in the
nursing home and hospital and even if we are honest
in the final years of her life found herself caught
up in the rigidity of her anxious desire to be
faithful to the laws and commandments of her life and
that made her at times extremely demanding to be with

amen and the epistemological confusion of course the clash between
her reality and ours it was all an ordeal for
her and for those of us who kept her company

and yet and yet through it all and now as
that ordeal for her is no longer paramount as she
dances in heaven all the wrinkles and discomfort of her
life removed and forgiven Barbara Beach Alter kept the faith
living in the midst such that those who cared for
her most intimately the strangers all professed your mother blessed
us


Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.



So, brother and sister, here are my thoughts about the memorial service(s).
Let’s find a time when we three can be present; that’s the most important thing.  My life is currently the least constrained by agenda and schedule.  And then the grandchildren, recognizing that Jamie may not be able to come.  So, our work is to find our when our kids are able to come. Bett and I are exploring that with our three, each of whom has some constraint: Emily, the cost; Thomasin, the piebaking demands, Aaron school.  But we are flexible.

Much love.

John



Walking in my mother’s wake today some trees
a gentle breeze some dogs a little boy
the neighborhood and I took joy from interaction

we are at best a fraction in love’s
calculation after all heaven I realize is not
above or below cannot be taught comes naturally

as death does walking in my mother’s wake
I found new allies learned yet again not
to take myself too seriously to be caught

off guard as a matter of principle and
not to insist that I understand but live
in the midst of forgiveness


in my mother’s wake I am reading these books for
some way to continue to knock on her door Wendell
Berry he can tell me some things and William Blake
he can take me closer and I remember she described
me once as an unused Jewish liberal so I am
reading about protestant liberalism but ham that I am also
reading Carl Hiassen’s Bad Monkey and Quo Vadimus that my
daughter left behind and mythologically Reflections from yale divinity school
no fooling Denise Levertov David Sobel Galway Kinnell’s translation of
Rilke some wake
 
November 11

Matthew 25:1-13
Jesus said, "Then the kingdom of heaven will be like this. Ten bridesmaids took their lamps and went to meet the bridegroom. Five of them were foolish, and five were wise. When the foolish took their lamps, they took no oil with them; but the wise took flasks of oil with their lamps. As the bridegroom was delayed, all of them became drowsy and slept. But at midnight there was a shout, 'Look! Here is the bridegroom! Come out to meet him.' Then all those bridesmaids got up and trimmed their lamps. The foolish said to the wise, 'Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.' But the wise replied, 'No! there will not be enough for you and for us; you had better go to the dealers and buy some for yourselves.' And while they went to buy it, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went with him into the wedding banquet; and the door was shut. Later the other bridesmaids came also, saying, 'Lord, lord, open to us.' But he replied, 'Truly I tell you, I do not know you.' Keep awake therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour."

this morning in the wee hours my mother died one
of the wise bridesmaids whose lamp to the end was
full she carried always the flask of oil that is
joy that is the love of the kingdom of heaven
and of the bridegroom a flask always replenished by prayer
by devotion by a humble courageous living in the midst

she expected every day the bridegroom to come in other
words and she was also one who would never refuse
to share even the last drop with somebody in need

and at the end it is so clear the door
into the banquet hall was not closed to her as
it is not closed to any one of us foolishness
is to believe otherwise to believe that the bridegroom will
not come today in the early morning in the wee
hours that is when he comes in the midst of
other plans is when he comes even when we are
doing what we assume to be good work when we
are doing what gives us pleasure our duty joy comes
then unsummoned unpredictable random even according to all our best
laid plans my mother loved so many things her pleasure
included dancing late in her life terminally unsteady she invented
what we loved to urge her to do namely the
sitting jig and we grew up with images of her
Isadora Duncan dancing with white scarves in an enchanted forest

Barbara Beach Alter aka Barry aka dadima bari nani aunt
and daughter wife missionary is now I know dancing a
rollicking boisterous jig on the shores of a lake that
is as her grandson once confided to her god in
liquid form spilly Beach of course also dyslexic executive function
compromised she was but one who loved to be always
in the midst surrounded by loved ones some of them
absolute strangers she shared her oil because for her it
came welling up from an inexhaustible source a deep eternal
well of such illumination and laughter such giddy divine chuckles

for her there was to be no exclusion she would
not find the awful idea of being one of the
foolish applicable to anybody but happily she welcomed into her
midst so many it is hard to imagine how many

so there she is now a bridesmaid dancing for joy
in such elegant clothing with such perpetual brightness

amen hallelujah rejoice


sometimes I think she pulled us all out of the
magic hat sometimes I think she knit us all into
one of her theologically impossible sweaters and then with a
wink she passes through the eye of the needle and
is gone and we are left to play in her
honor endless hands of solitaire sometimes I think we are
no more than the hermeneutics of her life the epistemology
artless she was not her heart like one of those
magical meals for her then a doxology praise then praise
she knows salvation

what is a life’s work it is like a landscape
dotted with oases and gardens for the thirsty and the
lost it is like scraping through dry barren ground and
finding there suddenly not only the theology of paradise but
such seeds your hands ache to begin the planting what
is a life’s work what has been shut for too
long opens what has been shut for too long opens

a life’s work renews itself then with death the kernel
of hope that dies in springtime sprouting is what a
life’s work becomes
 
November 12

John 21:15-17
When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?" He said to him, "Yes, Lord; you know that I love you." Jesus said to him, "Feed my lambs." A second time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" He said to him, "Yes, Lord; you know that I love you." Jesus said to him, "Tend my sheep." He said to him the third time, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter felt hurt because he said to him the third time, "Do you love me?" And he said to him, "Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you." Jesus said to him, "Feed my sheep.

I know my mother very much enjoyed having breakfast with
god and that the meals of her nursing home drove
her nearly crazy and that when at last she found
hospice o she again could imagine the feast of heaven
at which Jesus breaks bread with us and speaks with
such clarity do you love me more than these I
know it was questions as simple and overwhelming as this
that dominated her final days do you love me love
being  one of the last five words she attempted to
speak do you love me she wrestled in her last
months with epistemology and psychology and theology and all had
to do with whether she could answer unequivocally you know
that I love you and that she could say of
her life that she had broken bread with god we
all remember in her life those moments when there was
a great gladness an innocent acceptance of what lay immediately
in her presence now those months in the nursing home
tormented her in precisely this fashion that it was hard
to accept to be in the midst of such mediocrity
and woe to be innocent and accepting but now praise
god there she is a happy guest at the great
feast and we left behind bereft can acknowledge that she
loved god in her own fashion as best she possibly
could and do you remember being with her there in
hospital or nursing home and she commanding us to move
beyond holding her hand and saying we loved her and
to feed the sheep to do that work which will
make of this earth this here and now an outstation
of heaven Barbara Beach Alter loved god in her own
fashion as best she possibly could we remember that and
that memory is today like a great network a web
of love and inspiration o we would gladly one more
time hold her hand and say I love you but
we know also clearly I think today what the work
is to love our neighbor as ourselves to work for
peace and justice I think of my sister with her
colleagues in WEIGO and how her sisters have understood her
grief  let us break our fast together then glad for
the worldwide web that in these days is reading the
gospel of the life of Barbara Beach Alter praise god


feed
tend
feed
in exchange for his three denials Peter is given three imperative verbs
feed
tend
feed
this is the commission Jesus after breakfast on the shore of the sea of Galilee gives to Peter
twice he says feed
in the commonwealth of Massachusetts 700,000 people are hungry
1 in 6 americans are hungry
living in uncertainty about their daily bread
more than 18,000,000 in Africa
842,000,000 around the world go to bed hungry


Marty and Tom
The thinking about the memorial service is taking this slow and cautious turn, namely that we have three services (at least), one in Sudbury, one in New Haven (allowing Stan and Chuck and others to come) at First Presbyterian (with Blair Moffett we hope), and of course one in India.
The date frame appears to be somewhere between December 17 and 20, unless you have other thoughts.
The actual cremation happens tomorrow.  Lincoln, Bett, Alexis and I will attend, and then of course there is In the Midst on Friday.
Love you more than tongue can tell.
John


the thing with a life well lived is that many
people have partaken the way let’s say a river moves
down through any number of different lives all the time
sedulously seeking the shortest path to the sea to steal
a line from somebody or other meandering a watershed within
which so many of us find a way to live
our own lives nourished and for each of us the
river distinct and different white water the slow fertile meander
the delta and we say to each other this is
the composite river


sometimes I feel like a sleepwalker trying to run a
marathon sometimes I feel like a speedbump in a blizzard

an arrow in a wind tunnel sometimes I feel like

a hazard sign in an old age home sometimes I
feel like a tyrannosaurus rex trying to ride a tricycle

and sometimes those are the good days when identity is
strong like an icicle in a heat wave is strong

I try to read wisdom literature at happy hour scotch
and Solomon can’t go wrong I think and sometimes I

feel like crying
 
November 13

four days ago we were left alone there with your
body after your breathing ceased and the proud stubborn beating
of your heart and in those four days beloved mother
so much I would love to say to you and
share the antics of the squirrel late leaves on the
neighborhood trees music Orion the network the atlas of love
your life has left behind and all the words we
are the gospel of today and I would sit with
you there then in silence as I sit now four
days later vigilant insomniac aware that the kingdom of heaven
is not more complicated than singing than love than dancing

we are all dancing the dance lord siva teaches and
the s

If thou survive my well-contented day
When that churl Death my bones with dust shall cover,
And shalt by fortune once more re-survey
These poor rude lines of thy deceasèd lover,
Compare them with the bett’ring of the time,
And though they be outstripped by every pen,
Reserve them for my love, not for their rhyme,
Exceeded by the height of happier men.
O, then vouchsafe me but this loving thought:
“Had my friend’s Muse grown with this growing age,
A dearer birth than this his love had brought
To march in ranks of better equipage;
    But since he died and poets better prove,
    Theirs for their style I’ll read, his for his love.”

She begins
to stare out the windows
of every place she goes
She slept a few nights in a stranger's home

Looked out his window
And begged the sun to stay
She wished for the morning to
breathe through the lights again

The nights became empty again
She fell in love with a stranger's room
The way she could breathe so easily
and talk so clumsily to herself

Closed the door and didn't
feel like locking it
She didn't have to lock herself in
to feel okay

Warten,
in einem fremden Raum.
Ungewohnte Geräusche.
Unangenehme Gerüche.
Die Anwesenheit einer Fremden im Bett nebenan,
auch wartend,
auch nicht schlafen könnend.
Wie kalter Honig zieht sich die Zeit.
Der Wunsch nach dem Ende der Nacht
begegnet der Angst vor dem Morgengrauen.
Alles sträubt sich.
Die Augen brennen vor Müdigkeit.
Die Matratze zwingt den Muskeln ihre Härte auf.
Was alles sein wird oder sein könnte am morgigen Tag,
taucht auf und ab,
wie ein Ball wogend auf dem Meer.
Der Versuch, alles auszublenden;
die fremde Umgebung,
die fremden Geräusche,
die fremden Gerüche,
die Fremde.
Abtauchen in eine andere Welt;
in meine Welt,
meine Gedanken,
mein Denken.
Müdigkeit übermannt mich.
Schlaf beendet das
Warten.

Breathe! Just breathe in!
1it hurts
1i can't
1cant....
1cant think
2why...
1why cant
2i be
1why can't
2i be
3normal
1i think...
2
3im getting bett-
1ouch!
2it hurts
1bre-
1breathe!!!
1breathe,
2 don't panic
3its okay
4 I've got th-
1theyll get me
1who?
1i don't know
1help
1 no
2its okay
3breathe
4dont panic
5colors
6 blue and red make purple
1theyll get me!
1im scared
1i hate myself
1die!
1no, it's.okay
2 blue and yellow
3 green
4every color makes brown
5blue, white and green
6 they make that color you like remember?
7 breathe
8 its okay
9relax your muscles, you cut your arms with your nails again
10 I'm okay... Let's stay this way...

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she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
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                                 vacate again all
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                                 vacate again all

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rendetion an entire year
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"""  chris crossess immashort off breath widerhides her
onntootoo/many gabrielle hire the!tin can man  
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theendsmendingfreefall _a room invented  along , noww

    melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr  
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
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    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
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numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr  
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you_
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more                              
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deflection

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       the.traces
  pearls plentyful made in skyy/  scuffed
/landscapes/embraces/ invented  /fluxes
rendetion an entire year
  &  akingdom constructed) &  /a  trance tiltscorissa
"""  chris crossess immashort off breath widerhides her
onntootoo/many gabrielle hire the!tin can man  
   unkept  /pigging cleaning,every quarter
  on all times   many many many-/cut/ _so forth
theendsmendingfreefall _a room invented  along , noww

    melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr  
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more                              
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all

enthralled forr noww

ineptta jazza bop   the stomp    "she" 2is a sheep  she said
       the.traces
  pearls plentyful made in skyy/  scuffed
/landscapes/embraces/ invented  /fluxes
rendetion an entire year
  &  akingdom constructed) &  /a  trance tiltscorissa
"""  chris crossess immashort off breath widerhides her
onntootoo/many gabrielle hire the!tin can man  
   unkept  /pigging cleaning,every quarter
  on all times   many many many-/cut/ _so forth
theendsmendingfreefall _a room invented  along , noww

    melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr  
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more                              
               ­                  burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all
deflection

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       the.traces
  pearls plentyful made in skyy/  scuffed
/landscapes/embraces/ invented  /fluxes
rendetion an entire year
  &  akingdom constructed) &  /a  trance tiltscorissa
"""  chris crossess immashort off breath widerhides her
onntootoo/many gabrielle hire the!tin can man  
   unkept  /pigging cleaning,every quarter
  on all times   many many many-/cut/ _so forth
theendsmendingfreefall _a room invented  along , noww

    melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr  
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more                              
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
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three times a dribble!!!!
shunted //  everybody justt fades_____permanent fckin pepermints/forr fcksake
for once/scuffled-sufficient______________­_and brave
and the depths so pretty for sure / it wil lure all it  suffixes
will remitt   /loops/poops/soups, stoops, stoups,
and some of them  burn in hell occasaionally /permanentlyy
pridepreoccupiedmaterializedhey heyhey!
men withthe scowls //so distinct ?? but  fck them all INNgodd TILL GODcomes/around
it  lasts //the leapings!creeping, heaping, keeping, peeping, reaping, seeping, sleeping, steeping
/ // reappearingg /lendinggg / limping// rearing/handmade kind of  dreams /transpicuous
and we wonder whyy   // in this al of it
it will ........
of tea/and honey -man i know  with it  /// buzzin all the slushing//blushing  jazz like   *******
time and time againn  !al night  day
wired tried intake-uptake /cup cakes/hatted  /// orbs many many many kinds justt soo many soo many  many
  any takers in no hurry
/Orphic
left /blending/mended melting too which she says enough off all this shenanigans i want //if this is
her--  landscapes   changes to a lake!samea sloth/kindd  for fck-sake
&thunderheart
last calll
vistitude
inn all and all thatt might / iff it don't , skipped all //were/connoisseurs---
all are invitedall now invented

-redone-relearnttsome //// are --- as / is///
  knownas fullblown-milestones
cluttered////complusarily a stance a man

a-blue,, a-temple a bloom,a ,temple a rook a trek a stoop now
Buddha, a simpleton/buddah geriane 16-1-5-1, miniature lamps,,blizzards6-1-5-1,
all that can in a man/rigour all that hula hoop
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\mann
,,,little empty purposely,, masterfully done,,,in a cann
beefy ,,,and, plenty-full surelyy/ superman
the nectar bequeathsA  batman
once-more
projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  shimmering  dearest of stories  / wings/reminising faires
drool  an artt decoo ,,,a purple tea *** in which we drink our tea,,,mirrors,,, the very best in the pristine
the mannequins,,all the more-jesus,the-rider,, the- boxes,,
,, iff only i may all that   hula hoop.dope-slopes -keystrokes -rabbi=ed folks we traversed   alone
among the ******* faires shining.and whineing
tee -hometown alleys too,the innate shufling,  neat //pique
   from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp



tar pit / alchemy ______systemic
if all thatt frantic/pseudo-automattikk !forced-forged  all thatt fluttrings // ringed _ /foams iff it don't stop ,,
_ /linking/ skippeingg weekly {builtsbuilds__reigning__the ends
learned
,lended ......ineivitable............. what nott
cluttered////intentionally a full blown blow an angle man

shunted //justt permanent



  .astute, many floors up,every quarter
the clouds/massquadre ,













,






















occasaionally /permanentlyy
one more
once-more
_


    all the honey  all those loops /foams iff it don't  all that //were/  -redone-releventt to some.
    that's brave itsan intake//// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  ?=similar=
shunted // the cats dare the rats stayed clear everybody justt fades permanent
/sad !

dont /scuffled-sufficient
so pretty _____effiecently done 1 by 1
men withthe scowls //so distinct ??
itt lasts //the leapings!
kind of  dreams /transpicuous
orbs many many many kinds
   in no hurry
/once-more
left /blending/

everybody justt fades

   *******
too which she_ admits


and here  a  motherfuggzi
   and/and all-rigour and all that
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\
,,,little empty purposely,,

like   *******
time and time againn  !
  any takers
/Orphic
from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp


An ongoing black screen,
A blandest  morning,  ,
  ,abundunt  ///////////blunt & burnt
  DAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­­
inadequate




       an excuiste disposition  man .
patterns   off a renditionactedrepetition&repetitions&
repletion
shufflingsguzzling delinqunts&coefficients
grassess boldpretty yellowred blue the spectrum
and even more_prisms
all off the “  the probabilities ”,man
blackk walls white onesnow how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
oh me  the appointees, appointing _the degrees
dreaming, in
uncutt n undone
/clidosocpicc ,bymy
implict
understanding
finally
bequeathes
produces
copulate­­s
rests
indignant
relates

bit by bit
everthing
eventually all the leverging all my clever things

, climbing And/////////////ripping  , In a  room, twenty floors up, thriving,
to let me in, in a binn
dolls !incorrect mannequins insolvent
remainders


melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all




bequeathes itdoes so "soo, noted ""
"a cup of tea-- tells Jon
all oveer the leftovers
rearing  ,,“to which i may”,tells jill
,,,,, "a neat //pique"joon0
while whil i .......................... / invent ,,,,,,,









blinking/  /transpicuous&blue that  never end their rune
turned/clidosocpicc ,bymy _hey  ,chamomile- tells Jon/ mayb,,,“the drudge  magenta!,
//hilly billysyes please ,may be!
foams  ///////// noww/  well for once “   so pretty  ” shesays -cohorts_  welma
a  beguiling  taste/iNTRICATE
obscure/iff i may/maybe  enduring the imaculate many  times ( ()()())      undone  blown         shards/curls/hollahop boilerplates (/reminicent)))        pecarious a   ,
maybe manyy       benevolent        a blue moon soon wil b bluedont  dont ////////////  /imposing a finale- fugazii ( )    //tiers//-
!! the mirrors_(son)))))))yes allof them
rattled.....................................................­­....the proceses....................will take care off   to reset to beget to, towards
never complete         i had 2       yesthe cuss

(off.................................repetitionrendition
fr­ivolities as it seems   (belong 2  you               conditioned _))   the very magnifients/the more then malignant 1s           the redundant  aas much as you like _/NOW                 tipidinsovent       intact emotions    _87911987         rundown
the outcomesthe blunt ones
how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
! turn        off the fencess        this be me "contrite“ patterns  emerge
3 times A big one _returns ,                 reminicent
)


heyy the
tin can /ginger bread man / alchemy! _____systemic/bring me a clouser man
if  thatt don't work
then the folk lore is broke
implict now_you cann land
i will need you to bow /noww
then go// fetch me a whoreall of them
and and all thatt flickering_____you seeis sea
ineivitable............. what nott?/. why  knot?/
a full blown
show tht i will orchisterate
at a
permanent  rate
                                        intenti­onally/maybe!
the ends
learned
,lended ......
cluttered/
shunted //justt// just
a massivve/ cursive! urge~! to merge/~!
withh a swelling!  Atemporal herdd
even more then ////////////////thatt
a fact of a non vanishhing/a verybrave !lure
now  booed()&&&&)through
andthrough

you bett

enthralled forr noww

ineptta jazza bop   the stomp    "she" 2is a sheep  she said
       the.traces
  pearls plentyful made in skyy/  scuffed
/landscapes/embraces/ invented  /fluxes
rendetion an entire year
  &  akingdom constructed) &  /a  trance tiltscorissa
"""  chris crossess immashort off breath widerhides her
onntootoo/many gabrielle hire the!tin can man  
   unkept  /pigging cleaning,every quarter
  on all times   many many many-/cut/ _so forth
theendsmendingfreefall _a room invented  along , noww

    melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr  
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more                              
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all

yep i knoww iff we stop fighting things wil be fine ,./ but really who the fckk wants that ,,// this is now a bigger  thing then feeling fine !

jesus!
    the /rigour all that hula hoop off my kinds
possibly   ,,,  full?the beaming,   ALLmy the book keeping
glitters all  ,imortals
\ repliccaas& then somelines//to upload)wishfull-thinking /lendng
discontent  / neatt/  mother  ,every quarter)
the clouds/massquadre ,(this is cat ,, though/through ,,moved,,move onbilly bobT)))are you for free
   projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  the  hula hoop.a-slowwcutsitthroughhjust like you
ending me uping you



all that //were/  -redone-releventt_some //// are --- as / is///my polemicwizkids
yes themms
now and then again
is knownhere _as=similar
////neccessarily a stance  man
shunted // the eagles dare _the vultures stare/everywhereevrything everybody justt fadespermanent INGOD   INGOD  we fuss,
  INGOD in INGOD we rust  INGOD in INGOD beeming our dreams
fluttrings /foams///fcking sherlock holmes!!!!//// iff it don't stop ,,,i ill-equipped/i skipped
all that ...by a..leap year
//were/  -redone-releventt to some //// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  are=similari thinkk
cluttered//// a stance aNN eagle- angle man
three times a dribble!!!!
shunted //  everybody justt fades_____permanent fckin pepermints/forr fcksake
for once/scuffled-sufficient______________­_and brave
and the depths so pretty for sure / it wil lure all it  suffixes
will remitt   /loops/poops/soups, stoops, stoups,
and some of them  burn in hell occasaionally /permanentlyy
pridepreoccupiedmaterializedhey heyhey!
men withthe scowls //so distinct ?? but  fck them all INNgodd TILL GODcomes/around
it  lasts //the leapings!creeping, heaping, keeping, peeping, reaping, seeping, sleeping, steeping
/ // reappearingg /lendinggg / limping// rearing/handmade kind of  dreams /transpicuous
and we wonder whyy   // in this al of it
it will ........
of tea/and honey -man i know  with it  /// buzzin all the slushing//blushing  jazz like   *******
time and time againn  !al night  day
wired tried intake-uptake /cup cakes/hatted  /// orbs many many many kinds justt soo many soo many  many
  any takers in no hurry
/Orphic
left /blending/mended melting too which she says enough off all this shenanigans i want //if this is
her--  landscapes   changes to a lake!samea sloth/kindd  for fck-sake
&thunderheart
last calll
vistitude
inn all and all thatt might / iff it don't , skipped all //were/connoisseurs---
all are invitedall now invented

-redone-relearnttsome //// are --- as / is///
  knownas fullblown-milestones
cluttered////complusarily a stance a man

a-blue,, a-temple a bloom,a ,temple a rook a trek a stoop now
Buddha, a simpleton/buddah geriane 16-1-5-1, miniature lamps,,blizzards6-1-5-1,
all that can in a man/rigour all that hula hoop
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\mann
,,,little empty purposely,, masterfully done,,,in a cann
beefy ,,,and, plenty-full surelyy/ superman
the nectar bequeathsA  batman
once-more
projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  shimmering  dearest of stories  / wings/reminising faires
drool  an artt decoo ,,,a purple tea *** in which we drink our tea,,,mirrors,,, the very best in the pristine
the mannequins,,all the more-jesus,the-rider,, the- boxes,,
,, iff only i may all that   hula hoop.dope-slopes -keystrokes -rabbi=ed folks we traversed   alone
among the ******* faires shining.and whineing
tee -hometown alleys too,the innate shufling,  neat //pique
   from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp



tar pit / alchemy ______systemic
if all thatt frantic/pseudo-automattikk !forced-forged  all thatt fluttrings // ringed _ /foams iff it don't stop ,,
_ /linking/ skippeingg weekly {builtsbuilds__reigning__the ends
learned
,lended ......ineivitable............. what nott
cluttered////intentionally a full blown blow an angle man

shunted //justt permanent



  .astute, many floors up,every quarter
the clouds/massquadre ,













,






















occasaionally /permanentlyy
one more
once-more
_


    all the honey  all those loops /foams iff it don't  all that //were/  -redone-releventt to some.
    that's brave itsan intake//// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  ?=similar=
shunted // the cats dare the rats stayed clear everybody justt fades permanent
/sad !

dont /scuffled-sufficient
so pretty _____effiecently done 1 by 1
men withthe scowls //so distinct ??
itt lasts //the leapings!
kind of  dreams /transpicuous
orbs many many many kinds
   in no hurry
/once-more
left /blending/

everybody justt fades

   *******
too which she_ admits


and here  a  motherfuggzi
   and/and all-rigour and all that
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\
,,,little empty purposely,,

like   *******
time and time againn  !
  any takers
/Orphic
from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp


An ongoing black screen,
A blandest  morning,  ,
  ,abundunt  ///////////blunt & burnt
  DAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­
i­nadequate




       an excuiste disposition  man .
patterns   off a renditionactedrepetition&repetitions&
repletion
shufflingsguzzling delinqunts&coefficients
grassess boldpretty yellowred blue the spectrum
and even more_prisms
all off the “  the probabilities ”,man
blackk walls white onesnow how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
oh me  the appointees, appointing _the degrees
dreaming, in
uncutt n undone
/clidosocpicc ,bymy
implict
understanding
finally
bequeathes
produces
copulate­­s
rests
indignant
relates

bit by bit
everthing
eventually all the leverging all my clever things

, climbing And/////////////ripping  , In a  room, twenty floors up, thriving,
to let me in, in a binn
dolls !incorrect mannequins insolvent
remainders


melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all




bequeathes itdoes so "soo, noted ""
"a cup of tea-- tells Jon
all oveer the leftovers
rearing  ,,“to which i may”,tells jill
,,,,, "a neat //pique"joon0
while whil i .......................... / invent ,,,,,,,









blinking/  /transpicuous&blue that  never end their rune
turned/clidosocpicc ,bymy _hey  ,chamomile- tells Jon/ mayb,,,“the drudge  magenta!,
//hilly billysyes please ,may be!
foams  ///////// noww/  well for once “   so pretty  ” shesays -cohorts  welma
a  beguiling  taste/iNTRICATE
obscure/iff i may/maybe  enduring the imaculate many  times ( ()()())      undone  blown         shards/curls/hollahop boilerplates (/reminicent)))        pecarious a   ,
maybe manyy       benevolent        a blue moon soon wil b bluedont  dont ////////////  /imposing a finale- fugazii ( )    //tiers//-
!! the mirrors_(son)))))))yes allof them
rattled.....................................................­­....the proceses....................will take care off   to reset to beget to, towards
never complete         i had 2       yesthe cuss

(off.................................repetitionrendition
fr­ivolities_ as it seems   (belong 2  you               conditioned _))   the very magnifients/the more then malignant 1s           the redundant  aas much as you like _/NOW                 tipidinsovent       intact emotions    87911987         rundown
the outcomesthe blunt ones
how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
! turn        off the fencess        this be me "contrite“ patterns  emerge
3 times A big one returns ,                 reminicent
)


heyy the
tin can /ginger bread man / alchemy! _____systemic/bring me a clouser man
if  thatt don't work
then the folk lore is broke
implict now_you cann land
i will need you to bow /noww
then go// fetch me a reall-whoreall of them
and and all thatt flickering_____you seeis sea
ineivitable............. what nott?/. why  knot?/
a full blown
show tht i will orchisterate
at a
permanent  rate
                                        intentionally/maybe!
the ends
learned
,lended ......
cluttered/
shunted //justt// just
a massivve/ cursive! urge~! to merge/~!
withh a swelling!  Atemporal herdd
even more then ////////////////thatt
a fact of a non vanishhing/a verybrave !lure
now  booed()&&&&)through
andthrough

saturday aprl 124.43 am 2025









jesus!
    the /rigour all that hula hoop off my kinds
possibly   ,,,  full?the beaming,   ALLmy the book keeping
glitters all  ,imortals
\ repliccaas& then somelines//to upload)wishfull-thinking _/lendng
discontent  / neatt/  mother  ,every quarter)
the clouds/massquadre ,(this is cat ,, though/through ,,moved,,move onbilly bobT)))are you for free
   projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  the  hula hoop.a-slowwcutsitthroughhjust like you
ending me uping you



all that //were/  -redone-releventt_some //// are --- as / is///my polemicwizkids
yes themms
now and then again
is knownhere _as=similar
////neccessarily a stance  man
shunted // the eagles dare _the vultures stare/everywhereevrything everybody justt fadespermanent INGOD   INGOD  we fuss,
  INGOD in INGOD we rust  INGOD in INGOD beeming our dreams
fluttrings /foams///fcking sherlock holmes!!!!//// iff it don't stop ,,,i ill-equipped/i skipped
all that ...by a..leap year
//were/  -redone-releventt to some //// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  are=similari thinkk
cluttered//// a stance aNN eagle- angle man
three times a dribble!!!!
shunted //  everybody justt fades_____permanent fckin pepermints/forr fcksake
for once/scuffled-sufficient______________­_and brave
and the depths so pretty for sure / it wil lure all it  suffixes
will remitt   /loops/poops/soups, stoops, stoups,
and some of them  burn in hell occasaionally /permanentlyy
pridepreoccupiedmaterializedhey heyhey!
men withthe scowls //so distinct ?? but  fck them all INNgodd TILL GODcomes/around
it  lasts //the leapings!creeping, heaping, keeping, peeping, reaping, seeping, sleeping, steeping
/ // reappearingg /lendinggg / limping// rearing/handmade kind of  dreams /transpicuous
and we wonder whyy   // in this al of it
it will ........
of tea/and honey -man i know  with it  /// buzzin all the slushing//blushing  jazz like   *******
time and time againn  !al night  day
wired tried intake-uptake /cup cakes/hatted  /// orbs many many many kinds justt soo many soo many  many
  any takers in no hurry
/Orphic
left /blending/mended melting too which she says enough off all this shenanigans i want //if this is
her--  landscapes   changes to a lake!samea sloth/kindd  for fck-sake
&thunderheart
last calll
vistitude
inn all and all thatt might / iff it don't , skipped all //were/connoisseurs---
all are invitedall now invented

-redone-relearnttsome //// are --- as / is///
  knownas fullblown-milestones
cluttered////complusarily a stance a man

a-blue,, a-temple a bloom,a ,temple a rook a trek a stoop now
Buddha, a simpleton/buddah geriane 16-1-5-1, miniature lamps,,blizzards6-1-5-1,
all that can in a man/rigour all that hula hoop
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\mann
,,,little empty purposely,, masterfully done,,,in a cann
beefy ,,,and, plenty-full surelyy/ superman
the nectar bequeathsA  batman
once-more
projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  shimmering  dearest of stories  / wings/reminising faires
drool  an artt decoo ,,,a purple tea *** in which we drink our tea,,,mirrors,,, the very best in the pristine
the mannequins,,all the more-jesus,the-rider,, the- boxes,,
,, iff only i may all that   hula hoop.dope-slopes -keystrokes -rabbi=ed folks we traversed   alone
among the ******* faires shining.and whineing
tee -hometown alleys too,the innate shufling,  neat //pique
   from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp



tar pit / alchemy ______systemic
if all thatt frantic/pseudo-automattikk !forced-forged  all thatt fluttrings // ringed _ /foams iff it don't stop ,,
_ /linking/ skippeingg weekly {builtsbuilds__reigning__the ends
learned
,lended ......ineivitable............. what nott
cluttered////intentionally a full blown blow an angle man

shunted //justt permanent



  .astute, many floors up,every quarter
the clouds/massquadre ,













,






















occasaionally /permanentlyy
one more
once-more
_


    all the honey  all those loops /foams iff it don't  all that //were/  -redone-releventt to some.
    that's brave itsan intake//// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  ?=similar=
shunted // the cats dare the rats stayed clear everybody justt fades permanent
/sad !

dont /scuffled-sufficient
so pretty _____effiecently done 1 by 1
men withthe scowls //so distinct ??
itt lasts //the leapings!
kind of  dreams /transpicuous
orbs many many many kinds
   in no hurry
/once-more
left /blending/

everybody justt fades

   *******
too which she_ admits


and here  a  motherfuggzi
   and/and all-rigour and all that
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\
,,,little empty purposely,,

like   *******
time and time againn  !
  any takers
/Orphic
from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp


An ongoing black screen,
A blandest  morning,  ,
  ,abundunt  ///////////blunt & burnt
  DAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­
i­nadequate




       an excuiste disposition  man .
patterns   off a renditionactedrepetition&repetitions&
repletion
shufflingsguzzling delinqunts&coefficients
grassess boldpretty yellowred blue the spectrum
and even more_prisms
all off the “  the probabilities ”,man
blackk walls white onesnow how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
oh me  the appointees, appointing _the degrees
dreaming, in
uncutt n undone
/clidosocpicc ,bymy
implict
understanding
finally
bequeathes
produces
copulate­­s
rests
indignant
relates

bit by bit
everthing
eventually all the leverging all my clever things

, climbing And/////////////ripping  , In a  room, twenty floors up, thriving,
to let me in, in a binn
dolls !incorrect mannequins insolvent
remainders


melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all




bequeathes itdoes so "soo, noted ""
"a cup of tea-- tells Jon
all oveer the leftovers
rearing  ,,“to which i may”,tells jill
,,,,, "a neat //pique"joon0
while whil i .......................... / invent ,,,,,,,









blinking/  /transpicuous&blue that  never end their rune
turned/clidosocpicc ,bymy _hey  ,chamomile- tells Jon/ mayb,,,“the drudge  magenta!,
//hilly billysyes please ,may be!
foams  ///////// noww/  well for once “   so pretty  ” shesays -cohorts  welma
a  beguiling  taste/iNTRICATE
obscure/iff i may/maybe  enduring the imaculate many  times ( ()()())      undone  blown         shards/curls/hollahop boilerplates (/reminicent)))        pecarious a   ,
maybe manyy       benevolent        a blue moon soon wil b bluedont  dont ////////////  /imposing a finale- fugazii ( )    //tiers//-
!! the mirrors_(son)))))))yes allof them
rattled.....................................................­­....the proceses....................will take care off   to reset to beget to, towards
never complete         i had 2       yesthe cuss

(off.................................repetitionrendition
fr­ivolities_ as it seems   (belong 2  you               conditioned _))   the very magnifients/the more then malignant 1s           the redundant  aas much as you like _/NOW                 tipidinsovent       intact emotions    87911987         rundown
the outcomesthe blunt ones
how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
! turn        off the fencess        this be me "contrite“ patterns  emerge
3 times A big one returns ,                 reminicent
)


heyy the
tin can /ginger bread man / alchemy! _____systemic/bring me a clouser man
if  thatt don't work
then the folk lore is broke
implict now_you cann land
i will need you to bow /noww
then go// fetch me a reall-whoreall of them
and and all thatt flickering_____you seeis sea
ineivitable............. what nott?/. why  knot?/
a full blown
show tht i will orchisterate
at a
permanent  rate
                                        intentionally/maybe!
the ends
learned
,lended ......
cluttered/
shunted //justt// just
a massivve/ cursive! urge~! to merge/~!
withh a swelling!  Atemporal herdd
even more then ////////////////thatt
a fact of a non vanishhing/a verybrave !lure
now  booed()&&&&)through
andthrough