CERTAINTY
in the uncertain
C O M F O R T
in the unknown
SECURITY
in the vulnerability
utter calmness
in the midst of
the treacherous storm
The fall of the
greatest pyramid
so low to the
core of the earth
peace, serenity
S   A   F   E   T   Y
like never before.

And I know I said it a million times
a sensible girl like that
just pretending that we’re cool. So tonight
it’s for the best you didn’t listen.
And me, falling for it screaming that I’m right
when I still see it all in my head;
but the grass ain’t always greener on the other side.
I’ve drowned and dreamt this moment;
eyes on fire and they burn from all the tears;
so I’ll be on my way -
we don’t even have to try.
Let me know
all your giving me is fiction
looking for some trouble tonight.
And so I tell myself that I’ll be strong,
I wasn’t finished dreaming, about your lips.
How can you understand something that you never had?



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in the midst of my deepest
  depression I ponder Why.
What is the point of me being
     on earth? I feel as if I
am not contributing, not helping,
  not aiding the world. I don't know
how to use my gifts to impact others.
   The question repeats in my head
Why have I been given life?
      A real answer I still don't know.
But I am certain I am here
to experience all of these emotions
and to build relations, supporting
one friend at a time. I think of
older societies, living to live - find food,
build shelter and enjoy the wonders
of nature. I have decided my purpose
is to breath in each moment and enjoy
   what I feel now, today.

some find it a bit of a kick
to lay the explicit lingo on really thick
this day the hotelier let fly with the F word sixteen times
he has a liking for the sounds of its rhymes

He told you
He wants you to be sluttier.

If he loved you
Like you want him to
Like you love him
He would
Never
Even
Think
About asking you to change.

Why can't you see?

He's ruining you.

He eats at your soul like an earthworm
hollowing things out in there

He's done it to girls before.

Why can't you see?

He's using you.

Why can't you see?

I stumble
                            You reach out to steady me
I fall to pieces
                               You walk behind catching it all
I criticize myself
                                You never agree
I put myself down
                                   You bring me up
I curl into a ball
                              You wrap your arms around me
I shed many tears
                                 You wipe each one away
I laugh as you tickle me
             You smile knowing our love is here to stay

The ashes of love linger on my forhead
of burned up discarded thoughts
like old letters in a fire pit
incinerating to dust
and I watch the fragile remains
drift off onto the block
with hungry little hearts
picking them up
I didnt smile at the hands
who dreamed of pretty doves
I smiled at the children running a muck
Someday they'll know how I have grown
Someday they will drownd their dreams in that little wishing well
and I will apologise and tell them of Santa Claus
How beliefs can be magical
but beliefs they just are
I remember howling with that pack of dogs
but now it's just me the pack ran off
When they ask me, whats the meaning then?
I'll brush them off
like the ashes on my forhead
like the running wild dogs
The truth is it varies for everyone
You have to find it within yourself