Just putting words on paper
to express some thoughts,
as more death of more
humans has taken place.

No matter the time
or the place
actions like this
takes us deeper into the abyss of evil.

To all those who died today, may you rest in peace.

Many years have past
             Since heard their voice
                                 When last heard, was faint

And  I still hear
             The voices
                                  Even though gone, voices faint

When you look at the years
                Of all those lost
                                   The voices stay with you though faint

Happy memories the past
                  Sometimes that is best
                                   To keep memory close even if faint

Never forget the love
                  Which is always there
                                    Through life or death keep fears faint

When the time is right
                   It becomes your night
                                     As the light of your life becomes faint

Reunited again with voices from the past, they will be strong and no longer be faint

Looking at changes
that approach in my journey,
I find in me an emptiness.

Answers I find, I know hold truth,
But my mind will not accept,
Fate as it will always win.

When I was about 8, living in St. Louis in a 4 family brownstone, I was sent to stay with Mom and Dad Ellis in Salem. One day some boys suggested we go down to the river which of course sounded like a fine idea. As we were walking along the river bank, we started being shot at by some other boys with BB guns. We ran in and next to the river to escape. Once I got back to the house I told mom Ellis what happened. It was at this point when she asked about my new shoes that I was wearing that were extremely wet. Busted. A few days later I was being put on the bus back to St. Louis when mom Ellis handed me an envelope to give my mother once I arrived home. Exiting the bus, my mother was waiting. I started crying and telling her I was sorry, as I again told the story of the wet shoes. I wanted to tell her before she read about it from mom Ellis. So much for honesty. Nothing in the letter about me, just an update on dad Ellis's health. Fears of a little boy.

as final light fades
life is viewed as it has passed
no lies or regrets

final curtain call
closing out past and future
moments that are not

ones you left behind
cleaning the mess you left can
only shake their heads

Happy New Year's To All. Friend or foe, it does not matter. For my foes, happiness may come in the form of Karma and hopefully you are right with the world.

To All The Rest Of My Friends and those that read my words:

May the new year bring enlightenment on your life and expectations. Bringing you all the joy and happiness that can be enjoyed by one human.

Always travel the high road and keep the world in site.

Wanting to center myself,
a journey into the woods
would likely suffice.

I started out early,
about a quarter of 10.
Started off to find my center.

By reaching back to nature
to find a grounded centered me.
My Zen soul had to be found.

Sun breaking through canopied trees.

Oh wait, I have to stop!
This is the place!

Beyond this point,
my computer won't work,
I think I just lost WiFi.

Sun no longer
shining in the sky.
Clouds taking over
blocking the blue.

Sadness and despair
comes around me now.
Lack of light
and cold in the air.

Winter is near
and depression close behind.
Looking at every day
as a dark night within my life.

Darkness and lack of light
bring me sadness and grief.
In my mind thoughts
run deep into darkness.

I cannot despair
or lose my mind.
I must pull together
and find the light.

I feel emptiness
and pain within my heart.
I cannot explain the reason
or location, but just that
there is an empty place within me.

Sitting in an empty room
not being all alone
even though there is
no one else but me
to view the day and live it as it may be.

Thinking of the past and
hopes of what the future may be,
but I still have emptiness
as I think and wonder
if I really have found the path.

No matter what you think
or what you fear,
your life will unfold
to what it is,
and now it's up to you to find the way.

Flames shooting through roof
                Lapping at walls and curtains
Windows Exploding

This is not a political message and yet I have approved it.

I was back reading all the humor in the news, you know politics. I was just wondering how many people suddenly reflected on someone that they personally avoided because of their radical thoughts, then suddenly they see them agreeing. Is this a bonding moment or do we rethink what we think is the correct position on the issue?


I will revisit this in a few days and see if after some sleep and rest, if the landscape improves in any direction. Beginning to feel like when I lived in Alaska but for a different reason.


There I needed a break from isolation and cold, well I guess it is closer to the same, than I thought. Peace be with you all as I return to the planet from which I came.

It was cold my first trip to Nome. Okay, it's always cold in Nome. It was February, still going down to -55 degrees some days. This was generally a one or two night stay. You really only needed a day, but the weather is unforgiving and so sometimes you wait most of the day. It is still dark up above the Arctic Circle, which Nome is only about 150 miles south of. The ocean ice will not start breaking for a month or two.

The morning started with an early flight from Fairbanks to Anchorage. It makes for a long day with approximately a 500 mile flight south so I can grab a 1,000 mile flight north to Nome. The first flight in had no delays so there was hope for the day. The hotel I booked which sounded quite grand was “The Nugget Inn”. It felt good knowing I would be in a nice hotel in this barren land.

It was a clear morning as we came in over the Bering Strait. I waited about 30 minutes to get my bags, then headed outside to see if I could flag down a ride. Taxis here in a village are a car passing by. You just waved before they go on by and hope they see you. It does not matter where you're going, Nome is not that big. Paid my three bucks and took a seat and said good morning to the driver and one other. The process is passenger in and passenger out until your destination comes up, but no hurry as you enjoy the warmth of the car.

Checked in and got a key, so I could begin my adventure at “The Nugget Inn” and Nome. I got to my room and checked it out and yes I was in for a surprise. The room was configured like a bunkhouse shack, two beds on old rusted iron frames. A small table and chair between the beds with a very small lamp. Well this was work and not a vacation and I was at the edge of the world.

The room had the feel that it was the same as in the gold rush days. And when I pulled up the blanket to check on the sheets. I am sure they were there when Jack London was here. Since the sheets were worn down to no more than gauze. So I take my first night in the city of Nome. And sleep tight under northern lights.

In life, others are only seen to be players within neurons that pass by my receptors, providing me with entertainment, sadness, laughter and often great joy.

In the dark of night
my mind turned on bright,
with thoughts of you
my forest nymph.

Slender and small ,
with wings transparent
and light.
Lifting you up to explore the night.

Flitting here and flitting there,
you fly so fast
so no one sees,
for my eyes only.

Coming to rest after long night,
reposed on my bed
me holding your head.
As I give gentle kisses to my forest nymph.

forgiveness must come
from your own heart, mind and soul
              truly heal your scars

Rolling waves of foam
          Slapping against the sea shore wall
Water glistening Bright
          From sun shining high

In a sky as clear as crystal
         Reflecting on the crashing waves
Feeling freedom in the air
         Fresh and clear as the sea

When as free as this
         Dreams are running free
Under the sun and by the sea
         For all eternity

Laying down this night
feeling restless so no sleep.
Thoughts racing in the dark,
already looking for the light.

First a gentle touch
as finger reach my shoulder bare.
A hand now resting on my chest,
give me pause as I start to rest.

Then a leg gently
draped across me,
feeling the warmth,
my love close.

Now her body
wrapped to me,
like pretzels intertwined.
A gentle sleep is now mine.

Darkness brings fears it is real
Light brings happiness it is real

The mind controls your fears it is real
Your thoughts bring you happiness, it is real

Breaking of Mind Control real?
Can You Make It real?
Set yourself free  real?
You will make it real!!

hear the drumbeat now

jazz, blues, rock and far beyond

ginger baker rocks

My final night standing on the rooftop,
looking out over the city of Manila.
Clouds hanging heavy overhead,
streets wet from a late night rain.

Knowing this is my last night
with the beautiful people
I have met on my journey,
a sadness descends over me.

Reflections of my journey
fill my mind as I sleep.

Then as the dawn comes,
I awaken to sunrise for
the last time with
the Philippine Sea in the distance.

A new day for millions of people,
struggling to make a meager existence,
often from the trash around them,
hoping for just one meal for their family.

You give a few pesos hoping
to help a few, but knowing
the struggle will continue,
but with a happiness that escapes most of my world.

So as my final day has arrived,
heading to a jet plane,
I will never forget the
friends I have made.

The smiles I have seen,
happy people who have faith,
to take on another day,
with hope, that their day will come.

I will leave a little piece
of my heart, mind, and soul,
with the beautiful people,
that have touched me deeply.

So now I do not say goodbye, but until we meet again my friends.

As age comes to me daily
just like it does for us all,
I consider my life
and what does it mean.

It can mean many things,
as I imagine what would
have been and what has been,
which means nothing in the big scheme of things.

Regrets you can have,
but nothing will change,
other than dragging a chain,
that gets heavy with age.

So the past is just that
and I will remember it
for what it was
and not what it might have been.

The here and now is
a happy place
with love of life
and of fellow man.

A smile each day,
good love in my life,
with a hug good night,
and we sleep.

Good Night!!

Texture or feel
slipping slowly,
gently down
seems to be a little gooey.

First to look at it,
then perchance
a little sniff,
to see what
olfactory sensation it may bring.

Scent in check
with no critter parts.
I poked it now
to see what tactile property,
it might have.

It was not firm,
seemed to jiggle.
Unconcerned stepping up,
grabbed a fork.
Don't usually eat things,

that move, that are green.

When my journey comes to the end,
let me find the strength
to know the truth.
Showing some kind of dignity
as I pass to the great beyond, near my God.

I leave little behind to know of me,
except the words I have penned,
with very little hue.
Just my heart and soul to view.

The words I write are my truth,
right or wrong, good or bad.
It is my truth of who I am
or at least as far as I can tell.

We have war
and much death.
What is being
taken in a battle.
Means little.

How did we
get to this point.
Or maybe why
have we not grown
beyond this level.

More people
yearly come
out of poverty.
But why is anyone
really in poverty.

I cannot believe
with all that the have, have,
that the have nots
cannot be brought,
to the point of having??

Food would be nice,
and some water too.
And to not be killed
over a piece
of dirt.

But there we have
the root of it all
when you have
you want more,
at the cost of human life!

GREED!!

Friends may pass
and leave this life.
We ask the question
why them and not me.

It maybe that they
were stronger.
They were prepared
each day to move on in their journey.

Being strong
they show the way.
And give us strength,
guiding us when our time comes.

Sitting on the edge of reality in my altered state,
A place referred by me as near a Zombie like world.
Not functioning in a normal way,
But possibly leaning too far off the Edge of the blade,
keeping the true light of the reality of life in sight.

Thoughts of what we really need to find happiness.

Never allow your expectations to get in the way of your happiness. Happiness is fulfillment.

All night long
I lay by your side,
happiness floods
my soul and heart.

I never want you to
leave my side,
you've brought
happiness to my life.

Never leave my side
be my one and only,
from this time forward,
for all time.......

Be the love
I have always
searched for,
all my life.

You are the one
that makes my heart
skip many beats as
my heart beats for you.

Her love gave me my life.