I'm breathing heavily,
heaving,
unable to face what I have just done.

You: The world is *******.
---
Me: You don't say?

Never has the smile been so forced
Perched upon sadness
Teetering into joy
But not quite.

Put your chin up.
Don't let anyone see you down.
Don't you ******* dare
Sit around and wallow in self-pity.
That just proves my assumptions
That you're a little *******.
Head up, look the problen straight in their
******* eye,
And fix it.
Don't go sitting around moping,
"Oh woe is me!"
*******,
Stand the **** up,
And see how the people around you care,
And how you say your leaving as to not hurt them,
You leaving hurts them ten fold.
See how we care.
Open your ******* eyes.

Sleepless nights lying awake in bed
trying to get another glimpse of the boy
that stole my heart
hoping that something will end the aching soon
knowing that sleeping will only just make me hurt more
for the dreams are too hard to bear-
they remind me so much
of what I want
but can't have-
at least,
not soon enough.

Drowning, drowning in this fathomless abyss of unrequited love, where so many have fallen before

Air,
The need for air--
So strong--as strong as the need for you in my life.

Oh, how I swoon at the thought of just
being there, by your side,
maybe even in your arms...

The waves rock my heart
Back and forth...
A lullaby starts to ring in my ears
Your name,gently spoken
By the water

But this does nothing to calm
the canniballistic urges that
crowd and overpower my being.

When will the world see
What you've done to me?
How you brought a smile to my bruised lips,
Formed reds on my cheeks instead of the blues of bruises?
Slipped endearing love into the lyrics I sing, banishing away the blues I bellowed?
When will the world finally realize
That you really are my everything?

Things have changed,
we have changed,
innovating oursleves to better
understand each other and
help each other learn and
Love.

An uproar around the station
filled the air,
plummeting all the death that stank the room,
and killed all that had seem to
be ****** and murderous all before.

The smiles that broke onto their faces,
and the shattering applause that
Enveloped the room
only further heightened the joy that seemed to permeate the room,
striking all the sorrows at heart
with nothing but a simple smile.

Its been awhile
since the last words that left my pen
really meant something.

I study science to help me understand the world better,
but really,
Im just getting more and more confused the more I learn.

When will I learn
why I feel these irrational voids
of pitch-black anger and this
agony that eats me away, little by little?

Nothing seems right
It's not supposed to make sense
But somehow it all fits together
The hurt the agony
But yet all that love and smiles--
Spinning, spinning
Twirling in this sea of words
As the rain crashes down and with each raindrop
A gunshot of words
Fired right for me
Piercing me through and through

Yet somehow we're still standing

Please don't let us
f
  a
    d
      e
away...

It'd hurt too much--
I've bared my soul out for you,
my whole heart is in those deep pockets of yours
the ones I always loved so much.
It's been so long since someone has been able to
hold my heart
oh so tenderly
the way you do.

Don't squeeze it, drop it,
return it.

Sorry! I have a no refund or exchange policy :)

Love is such a powerful thing...
When someone you love wants you to
Achieve something, thinking of you and your future,
You will do it.
And things will get better. :)

Here in this day
I can feel the way your breath hitches
on every message
I can see your eyes smile with joy
and the way your mouth curls up
into that smile no one really knows.
The things I live for-

They all said they wouldn't leave me.
They all did.

What hurts the most though,
Was the fact that
I'm not strong enough to fight for them.

without you,
there's no point in trying.

It's hard to leave
The things you hold dear to your heart,
Its hard to leave your home,
The things you hold oh so close to you...
But sometimes the wild
It beckons
And sends you a crooked finger
Motioning for you to come closer...

Love is not caring that
You miss them so much it physically hurts,
That it's agony,
But rather,
Hoping so much that it hurts,
That they are doing well,
And they are
*happy.

There was a death in the room.
Everyone in the room lay still and silent,
Heavy with and unknown weight
That sagged and sunk.

All was eerily quiet,
Not a sound to be heard.

But then-
A burst.
A cry,
A shout!

He had arrived and he brought life,
Miracles and spectacles to behold,
And there was glory!
Oh such glory!
Everything sprung to the occasion,
And suddenly the room was alive
And vibrant and bursting and oh so happy, for he had arrived.

I bit my lip
In hopes of not trembling
In fear
For I remember the days
When thimgs were so sweet
So innocent
When you were still you
And I was still me,
When things were okay.
...

Do you regret the
emails you sent me?
The ones that made me fly above cloud nine and
get so happy?
When I would smile and burst with joy,
people expecting unicorns and rainbows and glitter to
just burst out of me from the way i was acting...
It was you who made me frail with want...
and undescribably giddy...
The only way to explain how i felt is by telling you that
its the feeling of being in love.

Now I just need to hope and pray that you won't break my heart too hard.

I am pathetic.
I waste my time waiting for a text from you,
Hoping it wasn't all a dream.
But I guess it was.

...
Its hard for a butterfly to fly
With only one wing
Flapping so hard,
The other half broken
And flapping just barely.

It'll only go so far.

Why can't I ******* be like everyone else?!?!

Because I don't want to.

Because when only one person in the world
understands you and cares about you
you will do anything and everything for them.

I asked you to pick
From two boys,
A real one
And a fake one.
You always picked the
Fake.

I'm tired.
I don't want the false claims
Only for you to forget and go on
Because ******* you promised me
And I need you now
As I lie in bed
Crying to sleep,
How you told me you wouldn't
Be the cause to my pain
But here we are
And all I need,
Even as I lie here in the everlasting bottomless pit of melancholy
Is your arms.
Even though I want to hurt you so bad
Make you feel my pain...
I just want you to hold me.
Tell me it'll be alright.
That you've changed.

Guess something never change, huh?

I sit here alone...
in the corner...
crying...

In the next room over...
I hear them laughing...
hysterical laughs...
taunting me...
of what life has neglected to give to me...

We were nothing but children trying
to find our way in the world
Clambering our way over corpses
and clinging onto sweet nothings
until we found each other
and grew to be
adults.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHRGHGHRGRHGRHRGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't talk much,
So I'm hoping I'll find someone who will talk for me
And know me enough
That I don't need to talk.

He was so smooth,
The way he walked on over to me,
Wrapped me up in those strong arms,
And brought me close,
Whispering into my ears,
"Hey babe."
Just as I swoon,
He'll catch me before my knees buckle,
His chuckle echoing through the corridor,
My face alit with flames,
His with a sheepish,
Sneaky smile.
The dogs will bark,
The guards will holler and run.
He'll grab my hand,
And start to run,
Fast,
Faster away from the world,
And way up into outerspace,
Where we'll find our
Peace and quiet,
Where nothing will stop us,
Where we can finally come together,
And be
Us.

Was reading past emails again...
got really blushy and embarrassed
just like the first time I ever read your replies...
I wanna cry now... I miss you so badly.
Not the flirting, not your adventures,
but I miss the way you made me feel:
important.
You made me feel like someone wants me for once,
and sees me the way I see them,
in that wonder, with that intensity.
I hope you're okay, mon cher.
I want to be the one that carry your worries,
to help you through tough times.
Sometimes, it's better to worry about someone else
than yourself.
In fact I prefer it.

Did I say I miss you yet?

You only ever used me.
But I'm done being used.

"Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine."
"Are you sure?"
"No. But you should know enough about me to know what's bothering me."

Love is like a vaccine,
sometimes it's good for you,
keep you healthy;
other times, it will hurt you
and get you even more sick.

The 14th of February.
La fête d'amoreux.
The one day that actually encourages
More public displays of affection.
Isn't there already enough?
Thanks for reminding me how lonely I was.

I used to despise Valentine's Day.
I still kind of do.
Mais, maintenant, ce n'est pas une grande problème.
Actually, I kinda look forward to it.
Gives me an excuse to be even more affectionate.

I understand now.
I understand the public displays of affection,
The loving way people stare at each other,
The dazed looks in people's eyes.
I understand.

Okay, so here's a poem challenge! 6 days until Valentine's Day, well here's something to do:

There are a couple days left before Valentine's Day! So every day until then, write a poem about someone you care about. Each day, write about a different aspect of the person you care about. Use the tag: #vdayaspects
This person can be anyone, imaginary, real, someone you hate. Just someone you know well.

Vanity is a strange being,
It can demolish your very being
Or
Help you win a raging war,
So don't spoil me,
Telling me lies.
It never helps, and only hurts me more.

I need to wallow in
pain, agony, loneliness, tears.

Please, just shove me into a vat full of that.
I'll float, don't worry,
but I need some of that to
stop feeling so out of place,
and when I'm ready,
I'll come out.

Reality is a nightmare,
And my dreams have slowly been infested
With it.
Is there no rest for the wicked?
This pain,
This aching...
It never stops does it?

If you take me apart,
Shred me to pieces,
You'll find pieces of him everywhere.

On my arms are
Chains of his words,
Whispered into my ears,
Spells to get me through the worst.

On my legs,
Distances,
Time zones away from you,
How to get to you
Engrained into my feet's memory.

In my head,
The music notes play
Like children in the park,
They dance around,
Merrily, joyfully to your smile,
And are melancholy when you cry.

In my lungs,
Every breath is filled with you.
Inhale all you,
Exhale all of me.

On my skin,
Warmth a lit all across,
Little bonfires every where,
Sparks trailing down my skin
Tickling, tingling.
It takes away all the cold I shivered from before.

In my heart,
Your happiness.

Everything inside has been
Simmering,
Waiting,
Burning deeply
Just for today
And now finally,
It can erupt
Bringing springs into my steps,
Wider, real smiles,
A pleasant additude,
And everything sugar and spice.

But guess what?
I got rid of the chemical x and the spice,
so all I have is
The sweet, sweet, sugar!

Today I stood
and watched
as the smoke wafted up into the air
away and away
and all I could think of was
how much it hurt to see
something so bad for you
drifting away slowly
yet I want that high
I miss that high you gave me...