I dreamt of you last night
Like you watched me
I woke up as always
But you didn’t feel like a dream
I hugged you as I recalled
But you didn’t touch me the same
I kissed your dry lips
And stared at the picture
There’s to much to remember between you and I.

They call it a flower
I eat it to live
Broken bones and severed limbs
Painted blood in Jewish homes
How can you live in my uncles house?

Everything is the same
I sleep the same
The sun shines in the window
I sleep the same
The rain on the rooftop
I sleep the same
Silk sheet and a blanket
I sleep the same  
No snoring next to me
I sleep the same
I’m all alone
I sleep the same
It’s just me
I sleep the same
I miss you
I sleep the same.

when I'm alone I hear the screams of forgotten promises.

that night, the sky screamed your name and wept more than I did.

I walked into the night, engulfed in moonlight & it was as if the stars knew me better than my mother.

I stare at walls and see her there

A flower-printed love affair

Her azure-striped and plastered hair

Are cracked but perfect, everywhere.

Her skin of beige, it ripples soft

Across my palms when I get lost

I feel her smooth and supple skin

When I can't think and need to sin.

But here is now, and now is then

I'm staring at my walls again

Each one reminds me of the face

Of fallen angels barred from grace.