Every day i want to scream my lungs out every person i face just leaves there darkness on me like taking a sharpie and drawing lins on your skin words will fade so will the scares but the pain they left you in feels like your not strong enought. The one i loved hqve left and abandoned me as time seems to lose all i can say if im tired i have no more strength to listen to words that have no meaning

As i sit on my knees its vary clear the pain will never leave the sadness willl keep playing with your heart your life will flash in front of your own existence. The cold chills that run down your spine. The love you lost leaving you numb and deeply hurt and broken. Addiction you fill the emptiness deep inside your soul. You tired there no point of careing when everything you creat gets destroyed by people during the day. The money you make seems to slip away when you fall inlove. Control overe you with now escape you want to be loved and held tightly cuddled. But dose love really even exists dose it even have meaning dose it have any real feeling. I have dreams i seek nomatter how hard i work everything around me just crubbles im left to clean up all the broken peices




I want to be loved i want to feel what real but this world is just filled with artificial life

I am loosing controll spinning around the room fighting memories that just bring the pain take a stronger dose all you see is the world crumbling around you i am so vary lost no right way no path i should take i need love i dont want to be alone my mind exploseds with flashes of memories i cant escape i keep running threw the emotions like they are just delicat flowers. Everything around me slowly fades as i walk alone in this aginizing pain there is no sunshine just darkness the cemetery has wolves ripping up the graves creating my own bed of inturnal sleep like snow white just give md the kiss of life bring me back to life bc i will just keep dying every time memoris will break. No escap no air to breath the drugs are getting stronger finding peace with a world with no way to run or hid just keep finding all your deamsn that tourcher you threw life every mistake another drag loosing control with how high you get saddly theres isnt anyway to fight pain its better just to go threw it and fight your way threw the pain i need your love i need you higs give me the kiss bring me back to life

lets have some fun lets take our lives lets throw our selfs at echother breaking down the walls lets make echother go crazy lets make the night explode with our fists lets make the house come down lets take what ever we can find and fight all night seeing who will be the one last standing. lets see who will lose there minds after the first could of rounds i want to see your anger the beast deep inside you i want you to unleash it alone the entire circle of people fighting every one at once tear them down like chopping a tree down show the group you the king while i blow every one down with my pure aggressive anger

your love is like a wild fire uncontrollable to dangerous to play with. the danger you put me threw only leaves me with wounds not even a skilled surgen can fix. you leave me broken with no voice to say any words. you left my heart broken twisting withering it till is has no beat. i gave you my love i gave you my trust. but you turned on me pushing me to the ground in your pride. i grow cold as you lie to me every thing you put me threw just leaves fade thick white  scares out in the open. not even enough booz or pain killers could erase you from my life you sic twisted *****. my life has now become a mess a twisted mess i can't escape when you the one who is responsible for it.  every day i try to find the answers answered that could possibly save me from this burning hell I'm in. you used me you took my soul from me now I'm dead inside cold withered no life left inside of me. i gave you my trust i gave you my love and affection but instead of loving and caring for me you ran off cutting me apart our wedding was just a mistake you sick tadistic ****.  my love you played with but you forgot i am a wild fire that will spread uncontrollably burning anything it my path killing and leaving the earth scorched. you played with my weakness but what will happen to your sic games you play will come back and tear your soul apart to show you the pain you put me threw then i can close my last faded **** memories about you you sic sadistic *****

As i look in the mior at my self i see two sides of me one bright and beautiful and the other a mistory awiting to be discovered. My mind is where i spend most of my time thinking long thoughts. Pondering on what is going on. My friend is my own creativity a poet esacpinv my reality i live is hell i cant escape. My mind is full of things i cant explain. Ideas creative exiting but road lesss traveled. Bc beyong every bend is a mistake i make every time i open a new door to my own hell. Where god or satan has no control over. I am a walking hell setting wild fires with nothing left bright or beautiful. In my life there is no sun just a world of hell. If i let you see what i see you might lose your mind and go psychoticly crazy just to escape the pits of fire i walk threw. Wind chimes blow giving a chill to the air leaving me with chills of fear down my spine. My bipolar is like a roaler coster a speeding car that crashes into another cras sometimes. Most of the time i spend my time in my head thinking long thoughts pondering on the possibilitys of what is true and what is false. Week after week im stuck in my head just with all my thoughts that never seem to end it never tires me at all. My friend dont follow mw unless you wish to walk in hell like me

What i see is my self nothing special nothing crazy.  Nothing but a weak smile and scares all over my entire body looking deep into my eyes you can touch my soul. The only thing to see is my humble heart i would hide from you. Music flowes threw my body sending the vibrations threw my mind and heart. Hearing the rythem drown out of me seem to bleed when my scares rip apart.