I just want to
know if
I'll be
okay. Years
from now will
I be happy and alive?

When glass falls it makes
this sharp yet beautiful sound
But then look at the ground
and it's all shattered and broken,
no longer whole.
No longer useful.

You know you're at a point
of insanity
when you're so overwhelmed
you start laughing like a madman.
When nothing's funny but you still
keep laughing.
You're going insane,
and there's no way to stop it.

Its funny because you get bothered
by people who only focus on the
negative things you do rather than your success.
They pick apart everything but when you do
something right, a word is never mentioned.
But see darling,  you need to stop
being a hypocrite, because you do the same.
You dont realize it but you do. You beat yourself up
but never commend yourself when you should.

First I cared too much and psh, you never tried.
Then communication stopped completely.
2 years later, you asked for my forgiveness,
and of course I forgave, but this time I didn't
try as much. Then communication stopped once again
and I thought you were out of my life.
A couple months later you appeared in my presence having
the same class
I kept thinking to myself that we're meant to be in each others
lives because for some reason we keep passing each others paths
but I think I know and have learned to accept that
we're never in sync, we never were. Our minds can never catch
up to eachother.  We're in this never ending cycle
of nothing.

Sometimes communication
can be such a hard thing to do.
How do you explain
"I'm sorry, I pushed you away, come back"
How do you explain
that I love you but I can't bring
myself to say it because I'm terrified.
How do you explain
something that you regret
but meant at that exact moment.

Don't think that you can
mess with me, because once
you do, you'll regret opening your
mouth.