Riddle me this
Are they laughing at me
Because I'm prone to fear and doubt
I'm trying to clean up the mess I made
You see I got a conscience like gasoline
I fuel the fire with everything they said it's stuck in my mind
If you got the keys then start the car and drive as far as you can
If you got the blood then you got the heart to give yourself a chance
Live to your fullest and own your name
Misunderstood, we are all misunderstood
Make peace with your pain
And never lose your flames
Seems like you've all been scarred
Look at it as some kind of beautiful art

Love is an emotion that strangles everyone
It holds fears and joys within its mighty palm
Fears of betrayal and jealousy
Joys of happiness and trust
Love is a possibility of both
There is the possibility of being hurt
There is the possibility of being happy
There is also the possibility of being both at different times
Love is complicated in a mental standing that humans cannot understand
I do not believe I understand Love as in my world she is magnificent
In my world she has saved my life and helped me understand this rather simple four letter word
Love is simple yet devastatingly complex
Love is well...Love.

And so, time will call again
The worlds just really heavy
Second guessing, falling under
The pull of the restless sea
Unable to stay, even being afloat
Sitting alone in the long night
The only company seems to be the firelight
For soon enough
Years from now
All the current perils
Will be glorified tales
In the eye gleams
For children to dance

The breath stealing peaks
Three friends and an existential crisis
Snow covered caps and march air
I thought the farther I ran
My problems just might not catch me
Till a voice whispered so, delicately
To the rest of my body
“What the **** are we?”

I don't want you back
I just want what you took from me
Take a look inside my heart
We got carried away
Said we'd never give up
Don't waste your tears on me
I'll be hating myself for letting you go
You can be the one to say "I told you so."
We're an anthem for a dying breed

I don't love you.

We'll be caught in forever for a long time
But your touch gets me so high, and feeling sorry for myself at the same time
So unsafe is this temporary love I crave

She's my skinny love and we were never there I told her to be patient and I told her to be kind.

Set sail and its colorblind, hoping for a black and white
Seeing it rain down fire from the skies above
My wave my shark my demon in the dark
The blue tide pullin me under, Are you my soul my heart pull everything apart.

Said you'd always be my white blood, circulate the right love, elevate my soul above I need you right here with me, I'm ready to go and can't do it alone, and we're ready to fly to those impossible heights

In the dark of the moon
When our hearts and minds are in chaos
When nothing seems to be in tune
At the end it seems as if we're always gifted loss

Running after things I just don't say
This life that we're living might haunt us forever
We're burning in hell if we're dying tonight
Hate what we're feeling, at least were honest
This change could be broken the rest of our life

Oh, and my sweet dear mother
I need love
But, your sweet sinless sensation
Just isn’t my style
And, by the church I’ve come undone
Yet, I carry on like the wayward sun
How long must we bleed?
Till we start to believe?
Colors a blend, these raw shriveled
Black and whites
She said “you’re tired.”
And I’m tired
That’s when I said “I’ll see you in the Wild.”

I think we should drive to a place we don’t know

I’m thinking you and I

Better just go with the flow

With your legs wrapped around me and the last thing I wanna do is go slow

I’m thinking about God
I want to die someday
I’m thinking about the things that I want
I get what I want

I’m thinkin you and I
Blacked out eyes
Should drive to a place we don’t know
To a place no ones seen us before

I’ve contemplated every outcome in my mind, every single one...things change in an instant of that I know.
I’ve seen the greatest sides of life and the darkest.
This world can be a dark place full of terrors and unworthiness
honestly it can just be one of the worst places, but in the same instance this world is magnificent and glorious in every step
Full of wonder and awe and love.
As I said I’ve contemplated every outcome seen every ending in my mind and still through all the pain I’ll always choose you it doesn’t matter I can’t convince myself otherwise...
I choose you this misery is worth every second, you’re worth every second and I’m content with that
As I said this world is full of love and my minds made up.

Maybe we just weren’t enough
Sitting at our favorite diner
Melted shakes
Thunder clouds chasing our sins
We looked so different now
Than what we use to be
And at the time there was no one else
Figuring I’d be a mess by myself
I feared the rain falling down
I asked “Wanna talk about it?”
You replied “The rain looks really pretty.”
And, I knew when the sun came out
Our time would be up
And, you still believe everything is meant to be
So, we learn to let go just to be free

Sadly I awoke to find myself still breathing
As I do every morning now
Maybe I should have a dance with fate
See if the dice roll sevens
Take a chance and see if my lungs still have air left to breathe
Not as if you'd notice love
You gave up on me
And it only seems fitting I do too

I must be out of my mind
I'm so drawn and craving for more
You're truly one of a kind
My hearts never been so sore

Tipping the scale and whirling sit my fears
A feeling of coming undone
Yet, your love appears
I'm hoping this isn't just all games and fun

I'm not where I belong
So, shine your light
Bring me your love tonight
Give me your hand, and let's rewrite this wrong

What more can I say or do?
I'm only see half of what's there
Trying to free my head above all this chaos
What's complicated should only be so simple
When midnight comes and I've run out of time
To make some kind of difference
I constantly overlook the impact I've made
My minds wide open, like starry skies

Except the colors are starting to fade
I guess this gray just got me feelin' shamed
This is something we all know
In the end, most just seem to let it go
Can feel it breakin' down
Gettin' lost and losin' hold

If this is what you need
Then let the flames die
Let the glow and embers go cold
I'll do what you want
Fighting what I've been told
Left you lost in moments
And nothing feels quite the same

I awoke to the sky still in blackened splits
To find a heavenly creature lying there
Shining bright, oh so bright.

Tomorrow will come
And we’ll be alright
For she is mine
And I am hers.

I sat there strumming along
Locked in the corner humming along
She came up
Her words collided in my mind like kaleidoscopes
"Is that the only thing your tongue can do, spin that toothpick from side to side?"

Cried out to you alone
Begging Life to just throw me a bone

Oh Life, how do you ever decide?
Oh Life, how long must we wait?

How do we fly to the sky?
My love, all we have to do is try

Oh Life, what do you know.

Crashing into the wave side
Endless depths to a never ending heart
Unable to see my faults for what they are
Such distance lost in the currents

Sometimes when I write a beautiful moment, I like to wait before I mark the world with its stain and keep this reverie just for me

It must be the selfishness that's settling
I can't tell you what it is that makes a man
But, I think I might know
It looks like times just not on my side
I can hear my train a coming
I'm still running for my life
Oh what a distant and welcoming cry

I sat and watched
Relived every memory
The sad memories often striking first
The good memories often soothing the pain of the sad
Both intertwined as they were one in the same
As the good memories are often the saddest
And the saddest memories are often the good unforgotten
These memories often racing
To see which can finish first
In the glimpse of an eye the race is over and done
Until the lightning shatters the sky with its white-blue streak across the clouds
Brings me back to reality and I see those memories are only the reflection of my eyes
In the water drops as they race down the window as the storm rages on

I think the hardest thing
I've had to do
Was see this thing through
Knowing that you'd do
What you always do
Shoot me down for now
You slipped right through
In the moonlit rain
Subtle laugh line pains
I can see you haven't changed, only show love when there's things to gain
And if I'm not with you, I guess I'll have to teach myself to fall asleep again
If I need you, I'll see you in my dreams

Let your troubles come to me
Don’t be afraid baby
Let the heavens sweet honey suckle melodies
Flood the fears we feel away
Cause’ I’m feelin’ devilish with the way you move
So, let your lips and my eyes tell us what to do
It’s never the right time in our mind
Let’s not make this hard, cause’ all I want is you

Every time I write
I’m filled with a feeling of this is the last
After this, I’m done and I’m complete
Just to find my veins filled with ink again
Dripping from my fingertips
Caressing your lips with all the unsaid things
So, disastrously impatient
Filled with incredulous amounts of self doubt
But, it seems you are too
Truce?
Funny how when we stop yelling
You and I both start to speak
Stop and wait for the other
There’s just nothing to say sometimes
And we’ve been at this for quite some time
Calling all skeletons
Hidden away by time

I began writing here at the age of twenty
Eight years later, some days and nights
I found those clouds I saw off in the distance
She had bright blue eyes
Pink lemonade lips
Those aren't what made me love her though
The way she looks at my son did
Her laugh and the hum of her breath helped
His giggle and hands showed me truth
Taught me things I didn't know I needed to learn
Lest I not forget the wonderful dead
Who showed me what I had
What I've earned
And what I still have to strive for
Yeah, I guess it's been eight years
I suppose I will continue to write
Continuing at the age of twenty-eight.

Twenty-five and I finally just got my mind right.

Learned that girls like you...just aren’t my type.

Moving on to new heights, got heaven in my sights.

And I still feel the burns from the hell you put me through, but it’s alright.

Like I said, twenty-five and I got my mind right.

The world called me Vinnie
You called me V
Ultimately I don't understand a thing
I try to do the best I can
I know you try to do the same
We're just so bound to make mistakes
You could call it a disposition
I apologize for all your tears
I wish I could be different
But I'm still growing up
Into the one you can call your love
I don't know if I'll ever be enough
I'm throwing in my chips
I guess I tend to push my luck
And ultimately I believe we'll be okay
It's so cliché to say these things, but repetition is a key
I think I'm better when I'm with you
But I worry when you're gone
I think I need to learn to love myself
I must learn to be strong
So for now we'll say goodbye
Although it pains me in my heart
Your words they come to me in memories
They sing to me like songs
It won't be long until I'm here
Soon I'll make my arrival
Under shady trees
A quiet street
The roads that I have traveled
Ultimately it's a beautiful thing
Like flowers blooming in a lonely field
The petals drift through crossing winds
They find their way to river streams
That scent the water beautifully, it takes me back to you
It takes me back to you

She came in on a mission
To make you feel fiery anger
She flirts with every guy in the room
Heavenly giggles and hellish smiles
All except you, not even a glance
There was one set back in her plan.



You just really didn’t ******’ care.