"Even if it's fake."

im bored.
nothing to do.
-
honestly,
dad keeps messaging me.
-
-
i need money
-
paypal me some money
-
i need money
-
get a job
-
disappointment
-
-
why doesnt he leave me alone
-
i dont have a job
-
im not even fluent in french
-
i cant really get a job if i can barely speak and understand the language.
-
maybe he should get  job
-
yknow,
-
instead of having his *** broke from buying so much alcohol and drugs,
-

love you dad

Cooking dinner,

Getting drunk off beer.

How're you today?

We walked around to see what we could do in a few days,
Moscow is a really nice place.
It was a bit cold,
but that's okay,
Weather is a thing

Good morning.

I don't know what to write about this morning.

I went and bought some more cake and coffee.

That's it.


That's all.

Have a nice day.

'Morning.

I was listening to music last night.
I couldn't help it.
I told him that I'd stop listening to depressing music.
"Hey, Little Girl" - sophiemarie.b
"summer depression" - girl in red
Maybe this is just the music I enjoy.

I wonder when Liz will wake up.
Maybe she's awake.
I have no idea,
I didn't stay inside this morning,
I decided to walk around and buy some groceries.
I'm pretty sure Liz and Tio need some food haha.

I'm looking around for any grocery stores.
Maybe I should've waited.
I'm not good at finding places.

Aha!
I found a local cafe.
It looks nice.

I ordered a coffee and some cake.
I wonder if it tastes good.
I've never had this before,
I normally don't wake up this early and get food.
Normally I'd still be sleeping.

Wonderful.
The coffee and cake was wonderful,
Delicious.


Maybe I'll ask Liz and Tio to come with me next time.
In the afternoon maybe.
I'm sure they'd want to stay inside for the morning.

Adjö.

Good morning!
I didn't sleep at all last night,
it was hard to sleep.
I just lay there sleeplessly 'til the sun rose.

I took a walk this morning,
It's always good to exercise in the morning,
It helps me wake up.

I had fruit for breakfast.
Why?
I dunno,
Why not?

Good morning!
Lizzie’s staring at her phone, sitting in the corner.
I jumped on her!
She got mad and now I’m not allowed in her room.

"No."

"alone"

for the past few days,
i have isolated myself,
in a room.

with my friends having fun outside.

i dont know what to do.

I've landed.
A few minutes ago, actually.
My other friend, Matt is here.

We're taking another trip together.

Hopefully, we can go to Australia soon!

“still not home”

dads not home yet.
he probably passed out at some ***** house again.

i should start cooking for lunch.

yep.

i’ll go get groceries first,

then i’ll cook food


and hopefully he’s back by then..

so i tried to **** myself.

i’m in the hospital now.

wish i kinda died.

i guess it’s not my time yet

i have been
unknowingly
hitting on this girl

for the past few weeks.

honestly.

might like her but

can’t trust her.

she likes my friend :)

the people
who died
or served

who killed me

who killed us


who made it so
that i no longer
have family.

im lost,

looking for an answer.

sorry

im
so
sorry


but


do
you
even
mean
it

you proved
that i
was nothing to you

that i meant
absolutely
nothing
to you.

and even though,
i know this is true,

i am still
so ******* attached to
you.

i cant help but
glance at you.


even though we are
practically strangers,

part of me
still finds
comfort

in your blue eyes.