Sometimes, I ask God,
"Do I deserve this?"
"Do I deserve this kind of treatment?"



But then I realized,



God wouldn't want me to suffer if I can't handle it.



Thanks be to God.

I did cry yesterday cause I missed you but then you were just happy with your friends.

You don't really need me.

You're okay on your own.
You're happy on your own.

And sadly I'm not like you.
Cause

I am okay with you.
I'm happy with you.

But I guess I have to change that now.

Who should I blame for my misery?
I blame her for everything
I blame her for my misery
I blame her that I didn't get the chance to be who I want
I blame her for giving me the responsibilities that I shouldn't have
I blame her that I don't have my freedom
I blame her that my life is ****** up
I blame her for what she did
I blame her for the family's problems
I blame her all because of what she did
I blame her that all she did is a mistake
But the results is lifetime
The effect cost me, the family, her children
I still blame her everyday,
Everytime I remember how my life is so ****** up
How can I not get out of my comfort zone
How can I not leave
Who should I blame for everything?
I think I should blame myself too.