Not in the mood for middle feuds
cause that's not my greatest amuse
Please I thought by now you'd open your eyes
And see what turns me into a monster
All I ever try to do is be a sweet flower
That has a pretty scent  puts a smile when you see me
What way can I smile now ?
Even the thought of looking sickens me
Just the time when I started to accept your behavior
You have me questioning  to why is that so ?
Do something  say anything
See the beauty I behold
Change today
Better tomorrow
Manage a healthy
Relationship
That can last for a while

Oh if only I can
be myself again
Some how
I'm not the same
Girl I used to be
Just a few months ago
....
As if I can't enjoy things like
I did before

My soul is
Clean
But my heart
Is *****
Can you
Clean it for me ?
Maybe
Bring joy to me?
So my heart
Can be clean as
Well

Stuck like super glue
Which path should I take ?
Which one leads me to your heart
?
How can I get pass this love
For you
If u don't love me back
?
Stuck
& can't even
Move

its a type of mourn
Not death
Just my heart frowning
When I can't see
Your face
Body
Been months
But seems  
Longer
Do you look any different ?
The tears from my eyes
Burn
The salt runs down
Rheumy

I don't know
What its like
To be refreshed
Meaning
How it is to wake up
From a deep sleep
Or even a nap
Is how bad it is
:(

How I'm feeling is
Scary
No longer can I just
Be myself...

I've lost it
From you
I can't  stop
my addiction
No
Control
I need help
You be
The one to  
Give it back ?