Nonstop pain in my front part of my
                                           Head
                                As if someone took a hammer & smashed it x10
                                 Even when i sleep or attempt seems worse
                   How that possible ?..

Regular is what ive slowly
                        crawled back into
                                              Relaxing used to be easy
                                   Now its soo hard  
                                                Why ?
                                      Get caught up in other thoughts
                                it's effected how I'm

Sports get me going
                     Make me feel alive
                        Take ur mind off of bad things
                          The rush of you can do it
                Brings out the inner guy side of me

I feel different now
       God ? wat is this reason
seems like you have
                      punished me
            Help me
                   can u be my savior ?

I'm not built like other girls
with them being small
I'm more like a guy
But i accept it
Be proud of wat u have
    could be worse
      so i'm grateful i have least a body

Reached it
                   Thanks ppl for loving my work
                   i found it shocking keep it up follow me
                     goal (go)    
                                            Gigantic
                                             Option
                                             Aptitude
                                              Level

Flirting
                  Until
                               Night
                                                      besides you
                 Time of my life
                                            Feel you
                            dizzy..

Loss  no longer
has meaning
this trip
changed us
its a sign from god
I sense
From the way
u spoke
from how It was said  
you smiled
Hint of red , off your cheek
But now I must move on
                  Begin again
         new start

I'm stuck like its glue
always having
common flaws
can't do it as good but
I can at least put my best effort
& love
can they ? or do they
        i've already known but u don't accept it

Take a risk with me ?
                                         a chance @ happiness
                                                 a change of things
                                            Want it with you
                                         Wanna touch you  
                                              Let me take a risk
                                            my heart won't break from you

Unknown to earth
                                                    what talents do I have
                                         Can there ever be a time machine
                                         You can stay a while for ?

Good to be on
                                              When u have company
                                                I feel so empty
                                              Wanting to make a recipe ?
                                            Relax & chilax
                                                   Wish I had seen you now
                                                Make my heart beat loud
                                               Dream vaca where are you ?

I have faith that i can break free from the cage
                    I'm locked up in can u just give me the keys so I can be free
                        All I wanna do is have a good fun life that too much to ask ?
                       God helps me I pray for forgiveness & some how I get it not quickly
           But least it happens at least for me anyways
                         Have faith in me I can be a better person learn from mistakes and try
                                To not make them again its hard  
              Each step away is closer to becoming free
                                               Faith lies in my heart you can see it as I blink
                        Through my eyes

I wanna see the light that
                                   You and me can spread like a disease  ,
                                             Us just smiling
                                  Glowing & showing our euphoria  
                                             To everyone else & having them
                               Maybe just finally gloat ,about our chance at
                          Something that's real and fantastic ,  better yet magical
                          Take some of my own powers & reflect on it
                                           Use it for only good
              nothing but good
                                            Hope it can happen between us two
                                        Promise this secret ?

My birthday & i'm over joyed
        the impossible is possible
      as i grow older i build up adult skills
            a special birthday i wanna
                remember till i grow old

Guilt is all I feel from you
            eats me up & throws out cold tears
                     making me feel guilt
            telling me oh that wont happen
                    How would you know if it can & cannot
          Honestly my mind wants it to be the truth
                 When maybe its not ?
        Is there a way for me to escape it all  
                Guilt is where u leave me @
         When will truth/hope bring me back ?