I keep going, even on the days I can barely breath,
I keep quiet and I listen carefully to my own needs.

I may not feel joy yet, and that’s okay.
I’m learning to take care of myself, while having nothing to say.


For now, that is enough.

This is my win.

I have everything.
But feel nothing.

Discern my heart as you do my curves
the lines stretched across my hips.
Don't let your lips tell me lies,
just gentle strokes along my thighs.
make me safe, and I'll keep you enamoured
Illuminate my abyss and ignite my desires.

His gaze told me
he saw me.
and it told me I had never been seen before

Was it really heart break?
Or was it just deeply rooted trauma that he had plucked from within me and laid out to whither?

I must be losing my mind
I thought I left you behind