slow down.
slowdownslowdownslowdown.
this world was made for healthier minds than ours.
more stable minds than ours.
more well minds than ours,
and we are breaking under the pace
the pressure
the presence
the outpour.
we can only imagine what we could do
with a little more patience

i am yearning for something
i don't think exists anymore

please don't look at me like that -
i would die before worrying you again

remember when you would stop at nothing
to skip the next meal?
you were hurting so deeply.
an empty stomach did nothing to fix your empty heart.

i romanticize the things that **** me

i think i might be lonely.
but who would i tell
if i realized i was?

my safe place
has become a place i dread.
how can i stand to look
to care for
to be present
with this body i can't seem to bear?