desire is an intoxicating pain
howling at the winter moon
he paces and stares at me hungrily
leashed and growling low
I approach timidly
as he presses towards me against restraint
and unclip
his collar

come, fantastic creatures
guide me through earth night
brothers, sisters, teachers,
remind me of soul's light

I see your expansive spans and shades
silver, magenta, midnight, puce
as large as moons in the void
or small as molecules, too tiny to deduce

I listen closely
and let my third eye roar-m
to catch glimpses of your flight
and mythical extra dimensional form

majestic wisdom bearers
join my body expansion
we'll envelope the world
with comical compassion

a smile that invites love
heart like a love cannon
thoughtful, gentle, wise
also
hilarious

I am a peach, juicy and pink
dripping down his chin

I am succulent lamb
tender flesh falling to pieces between his teeth

I am a strap of leather
taking his pain, with pleasure

I am a tapas
teasing his taste buds
one morsel at a time

I like a good tease
the suspense is infiltrating
building an amusement park of expectation
despite all efforts to release expectation
the heart beats a little different
like a freshly tightened drum
a bright timber echoing

I have no hopes or dreams
just a simple enthusiasm
for new love

I see them now
the beautiful woman chained in a dungeon
the highborn noble without conscience
the brutality, the hopelessness
the merciful death that was long to arrive...

I imagine lifetimes of despair and guilt followed him
compassion and empathy slow to form over millenia
forgiveness elusive
he still can't get it right
I see them clearly now

he plays all the cards right
I am taut, straining to see his hand
I need an edge

saluting our common sociopathy
from the balcony of social darwinism
blind to humility or empathy
and obvious reflections of narcissism

change the script? with peace and compassion?
or run predictable tropes of rage and melancholy?
grow into an emotionally mature society and
put in perspective the reruns of human folly?

yes please,
or be relegated to the galactic library
of failed genetic experiments
our modern rendition of comical incompetence

I do not tire
I am invigorated
by your cards
your mouth
your desire
never ending fascination
I am your love
sought in this time
happily bound in eternities
inevitably collapsed in our unity
thank you, love
for joining me here
in this existence
I did not know
I would need you so

my fingers will trace invisible paths
over the landscape of his desire
as I step in his every trap
and hang
suspended by intention
wrists tightened by surrender
inspect your prize
release her bound fantasy
who will be predator
who will be prey
who will tap the drum of ecstasy
in this dance of tantric light

a great wheel turns around me,
like a giant slow moving gear
it just appeared, about a meter wide, and dark
horizontal over the earth, circling my hips
it has no light or color
but it wants to
it wants to spin faster and faster
funneling into the ground
igniting a portal in my spine
it wants to become a tornado of light and shoot up into space
maybe it will land somewhere in sirius or vega
who knows
maybe it's a stargate or an astral healing machine
maybe it's a dormant orb
maybe I'm a dormant orb!

or maybe it's an etheric garbage disposal
I do have a lot of junk to clean out down there

the enormous snake moved slowly and steadily across the landscape
metallic and smooth, a silver train
holding possibilities like passengers
unconcerned with it's destination
it had no beginning or end, like most mythical snakes
all is well, was the message to my mind
you are on track

the distance is electric
his sweet brown eyes promising
comfort seduction ecstasy
I can feel his openness like a torrent of ocean wind

the soft lilt of his voice
lounges nakedly across my pillows
his desire is pressed tight to his chest
but I can feel it
the subtle playful turn of moon kissed lips

I hear his mind spinning like a top
possibilities and fears a swirling picture show
but there's no need to fret
my heart is a balanced and nurturing ecosystem

his shyness is innocent
gentlemanly
irresistible
...not long now

my Valentine has written me lovely words
thank you Valentine
my heart flutters low
a moth looking for tiny flowers in low grasses
it is forever spring when I see your smile
warmth rises on the horizon
rays of light bring love straight into my soul
the sun is between us
the moon is between us
stardust is between us
I've found another portal to infinity
winking in your sparkling eye

you inspire me to be drunk
you inspire me to be sober
you inspire me

thank you

a bee sting can act like a homeopathic remedy
correcting imbalance
so, too, can a car crash
it can knock the past energetically out of your orbit
free up astral space for new connections

what's that old adage about hardship
maybe good, maybe bad
too soon to tell...

but then the new car comes along
you fall in love
this one has a heated steering wheel and
automatic start
it's the exact color you wanted
the perfect color
not like the old car
you never had a say in that

when driving now
in your smooth new car
that you would never have
if it hadn't been for the crash
you know for sure
definitely good

I wonder how he is now
that handsome troubled genius kid
who knew about bicameral dolphin brains

the world is full
of fantastically amazing people
just love

the earth is a ball of metal fire
guarded by dragons and deceptively peaceful lions
I answer the call madam, maiden, lover, crone
with rivers running through my veins,
flames leaping from my skull
trees growing from my palms
and flowers filling my heart
on the silent wings of night birds guiding me to my station
I answer the call

we get ***** in life
energy *****
take an energy shower
under an energy waterfall
scrub good
inside and out
rinse
don't be
an energy dirt bag

the panther met my gaze with large yellow orbs
he entreated me follow him into the dark forest
we came upon a crackling fire
as I watched the sparks snapping up into the night
he transformed into a man
a love in my heart from lifetimes ago
we danced around the fire traveling deeper into the below, until owl came
and bade me join her in the sky
she brought me to the desert where pyramids towered in the hot dry sun
go below, she said, into the ground
there you will be reborn

silence followed

I traveled back then
to the stream where I started
and rejoined the middle world

my roots shoot down into the emerald crust of gaia
overhead
I hold the strings of our story in my hands up high  
a dizzying expanse of kites tumbling wildly in the golden chaos
     the lives and possibilities of us, in technicolor geometries

your existence is woven into the web of my soul
let's dance along with carefree love
just a girl and a guy
and their super powers

I recently dreamt of my soul mate
     not one of those lovers, brothers, friends
     who follow one through the ages wrapped in karmic bonds
no, I dreamt my soul's true mate
it was a memory
he was a merman, strong and beautiful
I caught only a glimpse of him
before I was swept away into this life
he tried to follow me
we reached for each other
as the dimensions tangled into strange new realities,
our bond became distant and invisible
my awareness slipped gently away...

but I wonder
did he follow?
has he found me?
is this why I'm thinking of him now
as I gaze into your familiar eyes

I saw the perfect **** today
but I wasn't looking at butts, per se!
I raised my head from the work I was engaged
and there it was
in my face, as though staged

it was shaped like my heart
(which stopped a few seconds)
where upon I looked quickly away
before my feet they were beckoned

my mind and spirit were brightened
a few lumens
as I moved on, thinking, how beautiful
are humans

she wanted so badly to forgive him
to love him
but he was the hardest lesson she could not learn
some people are capable of great violence
they cling to fear and pain
because it's all they recognize
so while your heart loves on repeat
you must learn to turn away
leave them to their cycles of darkness
let them off the hook
from the beauty you see inside
accept the ugliness they choose
take one long last look at invisible wings
then turn away
it will be a great mercy
to you both

gratitude is appropriate
he chose to be a lesson
allowing others the chance to meet their heaven
to be shown their path to joy
he reaped no sweetness
expecting nothing but blame
playing the messenger of others' pain
the light does not shine on him so I will turn mine
to acknowledge
with all due respect
each life has it's place

leaves crumble
turn to dust
vibrant color lost to memory
but the tree blooms new
every cycle
just look at the buds...

know that god holds every moment lost,
imagined, hoped for,
untouched
that is all you have
to know you are recorded in the hall of dreams

I came across an old notebook today
an old poem
beautiful, lyrical words of heartbreak and love
did I write this gem?
I still surprise myself

most surprising,
these passionate sentiments of longing...
I had no idea who they were about

blame is a drug
a medication against pain
sometimes hiding weakness
sometimes masking hidden strength
the memory must extend back farther
to understand the circumstances of your life
the choices made by your soul
blame is a short term distraction
when contending with the infinite

my lips do not tire of kissing you
my skin will never tire of your caress
my mind is entranced by your thoughts
my heart is a dense dripping sponge
trailing sweet juices and desires
love flows free and soft, escaping my shell of light
absorbing into the fabric of space
I will never be sated of you
even as I supersaturate existence with this loving

the stars whispered to me about you
they sent me magnificent geometries to share
with my lips against your skin
our light ripples out across galaxies and timelines
where we loved well
many times before
they tell me this, but I don't remember
I just reach blindly into the shrouded mystery
of my future, expecting to find your hand
and it is there

we soar over mountain tops
then rest on ledges
watching clouds darken and light

I slipped through a portal in my body
and ended up in a strange place
am I dreaming? I asked
no, I replied, I am here
strange beings beckoned me through dark corridors
a tall pale man looked on, meekly lost
I passed tests I didn't need to pass
went through another portal in a tiny spaceship

the next station was similar
a woman who was not a woman called me over
her mouth was a gaping orifice filled with balene brush
her face was covered in antennae like stalagmite
she was a dwarf
a shifting creature of other constitution
a dimensional being of some odd persuasion
are you still the same consciousness? she asked me
wondering if I had slipped up or down while traveling, outside my identity
yes, I replied, still conscious
another of her kind slunk over, eyeing me in a predatory fashion
she waved him away subtly
she talked my head off with incomprehensible prattle
perhaps attempting to sedate me, for her opportunity to latch on
I began to fade and then
an alarm went off

I was pulled abruptly
back