don't hold yourself that way
to keep this pain at bay
for as they always say
"its okay to not be okay"
just remember to hide it away
and make pretend, you'll play
then paint away the gray
hide in a hidden ashtray
just to make it through today
so remember, its okay to not be okay
that's what they always say
so long as it's not actually that way

the meds cant work if i dont take them













and yet i dont really care

****** nails, scraped raw
silent screams, hearts thaw
constant morning, endless night
icy covers, fading light
walls confining, ceiling caving
desperate pleas, useless saving
silent drowning, screaming voice
blistered palms, lacking choice

you've returned
to my shore
like the tide
wanting more

my mind
fast asleep
sees your face
as we weep

my chest
dully hollow
in your absence
I now wallow

I've returned
to your shore
like the tide
wanting more

your grasp
holds on tight
chained wings
can't take flight

hand in hand
****** mess
but numb hearts
don't break less

we've returned
to this shore
like the tide
needing more