Spring mind
Summer soul
Fall heart
Winter eyes

My visions appear cold
as feelings change colors
and start to fall apart
becoming bare...

My soul attempts to nurture the darkness, with warmth, feeding needed hope...

My mind a constant source of new life as it decides between the cold and warmth...

..................HoRRoR
         GONE
                 AGONY
          FEAR
                 TEARS
        TOMB
                 REALITY
         LOVE
                 AFFAIRS
         TOOK

HEARTBREAK HoRRoR
 GONE, her presence replaced with AGONY and FEAR, TEARS pouring out ever since, My heart remains hers in HEARTBREAK HoRRoR's TOMB, The REALITY is: She really loved me but her LOVE wasn't enough to conquer my neglected past AFFAIRS,
HEARTBREAK HoRRoR TOOK my LOVE

Forecast calls for ?
Brainstorm
Topic choice
dark humor
Said the weatherman

With a chance of ?
thought cloud
wait for it
Punchline
heavy winds

On and off
light switch
brain showers
random thoughts
grab your umbrellas

If I had a dollar
for every time
the weatherman
was wrong
Well , I’d be rich
sometimes I think
he forgets, who is
in charge

It’s the big guy
upstairs holding the phone
as this is, his write
Poet God
well not really
but it sounded good

As the blue lights
from the television
keep the eyes lit
that are heavy
from a long day
COMMERCIAL
ADVERTISING
replies keep them up

Something is on your mind
you can’t quite place it
if only you could
but every other distraction
and you forget about it
but deep inside the pain
is still ticking
Marco ...... the call goes
unnoticed , if only it was
that easy but no Polo
to point it out

What’s wrong
your significant other asks
as you’re lost in the show
before answering
you think to yourself
why ask now
instead of during the
COMMERCIALS

Snap back from that thought cloud and answer
“nothing dear”
you sure ? “Uh huh”
meanwhile amidst your mind
a pinball machine
of stress from A through Z
isn’t it obvious if they ask
“ you sure ?” then they know
SOMETHINGS WRONG

Im just gonna go to bed !
you get up , they shake
their head AKWARD
yeah being single
isn’t so bad after all

Wake up in a sweat
info commercial advertising
cha cha chia pet
with clay dish
3 payments of
$9.95 , it was a dream
thank God
but then you hear
“what’s wrong dear”
you look to your side
and SCREAM ... NOOOO!
It’s your life After-all

Life conditions us
We condition life
What condition are you?
What condition is life?
Conditional statements
Conditional questions
Conditional answers
Conditionally speaking
that is........

Why did our love make it to shore? Why couldn't we just stay stuck out at sea? It wasn't us but rather everyone else, that wanted our love's ship to sink. As quickly as the waves came crashing in getting lost in the sand they turned to mud, our love went from beautiful blues to shades of dark brown. Dont bring a heart to a mud-fight unless you're:
PREPARED TO GET HURT

"Dont worry about what others think".........How many times have we heard that ?

A lot less than all the times we have acceptingly been judged!

Day 1, we are born, pictures of us blasted all over the internet showing us off.

Every check up we go to as youth, whispers go heard about our growth

And where we fit on the charts compared to who ?
everyone

Every single first day of school, all eyes on us, dress to impress

School picture day, lets profit off these kids images and apply more unnecessary pressure

Quarterly report cards, graded papers, parent teacher conferences

Who cares about your life changes and puberty, you must do better

Lets not forget sports try-outs, you made it, he *****, shes cut

JUDGEMENT

To think this all isnt pressure is ridiculous to know we measure A-Z on everyone from day one

"Dont worry about what others think"........How many times have we heard that?

Character is successfully built on a foundation formed from caring

Dont take these judgements more seriously or give more importance than:

The heart that beats behind the scenes subject to all these judgements

" People dont care how much you know until they know how much you care"

Blood and flesh over ink and paper, in person acknowledgement

VERSUS

Preconceived notions, the death potion to humanity as it kills all :
HOPE
FAITH
DREAMS
RESPECT
KINDNESS
CHARACTER

            .....­........................
            [ JUDGEMENT ]
            [           on          ]
            [           ⬇️          ]
            [           off          ]
​​​            .............................
​​​​

Good luck with that dog
he’s old and that’s a new trick
good luck with that brain

Ignore me freely
but please beware of the trap
my words captivate

Forever is never 
from then until now
From now until then
make the best of it 
Our days are numbered 
time is forever limited

Temporary fun with irresponsible decisions 
their repercussions are 
always right around the 
corner, Im all about longterm,
forget the instant gratification
I refuse to let a part-time fun 
create a full-time problem 
moving forward or atleast not on purpose, opportunities for bad decisions will always surface but it doesnt mean we have to let them rise 
STAY FOCUSED 
its not magic,
no hocus-pocus 
just a lot of tough-love 
The older I get 
the more I realize 
Im worth it 
The more I grow 
the more I realize 
I deserve it 
Self-observations 
leads to 
Self-reflection 
leads to 
Self-acceptance 
leads to 
Self-understanding 
leads to 
Self-respect
leads to 
Self-improvement 
leads to
SELF-CHANGE
Equals 
SELF-GROWTH 
Heres a real life 
mathematical equation 
they didnt teach us 
in school, Lifes one BIG
MATH PROBLEM 
everything your facing 
can be fixed 
with addition 
or subtraction 
its really that simple 
solve for 1( you )
Once you are the product
then you can produce 
but to think 
someone else 
can do the math for you 
is ridiculous 
its quite obvious 
that theory 
will always end 
WRONG

I don’t miss the darkness
that held my subconscious and mental health captive however the writes about those battles and fights were fierce

I don’t miss the pain from my last heartbreak as it’s been almost a year  and I finally feel over it however the writes about those battles and fights were heartbreaking

I don’t miss the blood and tears from my childhood years as those battles and fights are far gone now thank god however those writes were the most raw and intense poems I could ever write and now it’s all behind me

So that leaves me with a little less fierce, a little less heartbreaking, a little less raw and intense writes but I guess there’s a certain happiness that comes with the more missing

Grass Needs cut
Head-Yard
Overgrown
Zero turn
Gas to burn
Pleasure earned
SUCCESS

Life like an onion
Each year another layer
Leaving me in tears

One centimeter 
the difference 
Between life 
and death 

One second 
the difference 
Between life 
and death

One decision 
the difference 
Between life 
and death 

One bullet 
one gun 
One trigger 
one centimeter 

One person 
one mind 
One heart 
one finger 

Millions affected 
from one
One variable 
affects many

8 killed , 100's injured 
adults, teenagers & kids 
MURDERED 
Not a crime scene 
by design, but rather a
CONCERT 
Astroworld Concert 
Houston Texas 
LOCATION
Fans rush the gates 
Travis Scott ( hip hop artist )
SICKO-MODE ( a titled song )
Disregard for others 
trampled and walked on
CROWD-SURGING 
8 lives taken
at others actions 
DISREGARD 
An innocent concert 
became a warzone 
DEADLY 
Security was outnumbered 
hundreds to one 
HELPLESS 
Thoughts to their family 
and to their loved ones
R.I.P

Different reactions 
to similar situations 
Different pain
from similar heartbreak
Different decisions 
for similar scenarios
Different answers 
for the same exact questions 
Yeah it's safe to say we all are Different in our own unique way, so let's not judge, so let's not compare because the reality is.....
IT'S JUST NOT FAIR

Abused, confused, infused with bad love

At hands, with words
From effect, from cause 
Loved ones, the world 

Regrets, threats, lets just give up 

My hands, my words
My effect, my cause
My love, the world 

"I've become what it is that I feared, I remained the same as the ones with fake love."

Mother Nature’s wind
Passing freely with power
No rhyme or reason

Various seasons
Multiple temperatures
Only she decides

North, south, east and west
All amidst her control too
From the ground to sky

What lays deep below
Or what floats deep above
Confines her power

However her love
Cannot be prevented ever
For her actions just

Normally the cost
From her violent outbreaks
Is a cause from us


Our own decisions
Leading to neglect and harm
From lack of respect

We take this calm earth
For granted like it’s deserved
Versus a blessing

But we should all know
It can and will get way worse  
.Instead of better

When we don’t listen
To her many calls and signs
Then what to expect

An environment
Feeling abused by its host
What undeserved love

Mother Nature is
Far more deserving of more
From each one of us

Together we can
Individually we can
Every bit helps

Scars scare the far fares of those who sight what only they see. Shallow intrigue these that believe, for one may be strucken with grief infinitely from false imagery. When labeled and condemned biasly from strictly physicality, one may just become the projection of those that seek to judge.

Who am I right now ?
I don’t resemble myself
I told her I changed

She may believe me
but what does it matter now
right now I’m lonely

That’s who I am now
a better and bitter guy
I told her I changed

POEM - 22 NOVEMBER 2021, 15:51

For Them, For Us

 

Robert Grove

 

Regardless the talent 
you may witness 
none like the Cosmos 
Its a whole new world 
you may witness 
its a whole new planet 
based on raw talent 
shooting stars of poets 
all landing together 
in the exact same place 
for others to enjoy 
for others to be able to read
with good intentions 
knowing knowledge is power 
and together we all can 
believe in one another 
through the ability 
to share our stories willingly 
knowing it could 
quite possibly 
be the reason 
Making the difference
for someone 
who had no clue 
they are not the only one 
to go through
the unbelievable 
WE ALL MUST OVERCOME 
together we can 
together we will 
We must move forward 
regardless the climb 
or pitch of the hill 
regardless the height 
of the mountain 
We must prevail 
and set sail 
to calmer waters
never willing to fail 
because we all know 
WE DESERVE WAY BETTER 
so cheers to all the heroes 
also known as authors 
keep writing and fighting 
protecting the readers 
that witout our words 
could easily become 
VICTIMS

Market fresh filets
marinating all day
Lazy day, at home
videogames with my son
Fresh powdered roads
plowing driveways
Busy day, at home
riding shotgun with my son
Dogs anxiously await
steady napping away
Lazy day, at home

"Man I've missed being home, there's no place I'd rather be."

I'm not a good person pretending to be a MONSTER

I'm a MONSTER trying my hardest to be a good person

REALITY

Inhale negativity
Exhale positivity
OPTIMISM
Inhale positivity
Exhale negativity
PESSIMISM
Don't take
Life for
GRANTED

...............I        ​​​​O      I      O
              I                  I
...............I..................I...............
       ­       I                  l
     X       I        X       l      X
...................................................
    ­          I                  I
              I                  I­      O
              I                  I

​​​​​​TIC TAC FOE

I trusted you
enough to let you win
You broke my heart
when you purposely lost
Our love

A spiraling staircase leads below to worlds unknown


One sign resides at the top before the first step drops

———————
l   CAUTION    l
l  enter at own  l
|       RISK        |
———————
            |
            |
            |  ­                           ¥
            |                              |}\\|
            |­————————-|}\\|
           ^————————-|}\\\|

What thoughts race through a curious mind as you look down

As far as your eyes can see long and it keeps going

Other bystanders keep passing by never even taking a look

Until finally you decide to get close and commit to one step

WAIT! someone screams in fear for you causing you to back up

What, wait, huh , what do you mean you mutter confused

The gentleman says “ you must not be from around here “

If you were then you would know that this stairway is a trap

You reply back “ what do you mean, I don’t understand “

Just trust me kid it’s not worth your time , you must move on

Go! Get and never ever be tempted again to consider

For what lies below none of us know for one mere fact

Not one soul has ever lived to tell of what is down below

As you turn to look back down at the endless stairs that spiral

You look back at the strange man and he’s no where in sight

Your body gets chills as your mind’s thoughts cross paths

You are drawn back to that sign but this time it is totally bare

———————
l                       |
l                       l
|                       |
———————
            |
            |
            |              ­               ¥
            |                              |}\\|
            |­————————-|}\\|
           ^————————-|}\\\

You start to get creeped out wondering, how this could be ?

But yet that dark black spiral staircase leading down remains

You put your hand on the top of the rail ¥ as you grasp it firmly

You lift your right foot to plant down on the first drop...

Don’t ! Someone screams as you retract your foot back

What do you think you’re doing ? Cant you read the sign !

The woman in a dress-suit finishes yelling  at you

You reply back what do you mean ma'am I’m confused

She firmly reaches out her arm and points her finger at it

———————
l         NO.        l
l  Trespassing  |  
|                       |
———————
            |
            |
            |              ­               ¥
            |                              |}\\|
            |­————————-|}\\|
           ^————————-|}\\\|

You plead with her you never read that or those words

But rather it stated something different before

She laughed hysterically and scary loud with her head back

And when she came back to eye level with yours .......


You couldn’t believe what you saw ..... it’s your ex-girlfriend

What in the hell? you ask as her hands turn to claws

The gentleman’s voice from before yells “ I told you so “

Run, Run, Run! He pleads but where? as you’re  cornered

The staircase the only place left to go as her eyes turn red

Thorns appear from her hair as her heels explode off

You feel stuck in place, truly lost not knowing what to do

She takes her claw and points one last time at that sign

You look in fear and cannot believe what you read

———————
l GET OUT OF l
l   MY HEAD     l
| NOW, NOW   |
———————
            |
            |
            |              ­               ¥
            |                              |}\\|
            |­————————-|}\\|
           ^————————-|}\\\|

There's a world of distractions, there's a world of temptations, there's a world of problems and it's no longer my concern....  

Within these worlds is the world that really matters, it's the world I call home, it's the world where I'm a father....

There is a BIG test
Will you get a passing grade ?
He will let you know!

Relapse
GREEN LIGHT
Success
STOP SIGN
Think
YELLOW LIGHT
Plan
RED LIGHT
Grow
GREEN LIGHT
Battle
RAILROAD TRACKS
Stop or Go
CROSSBARS DOWN
Decide

Raised a slave to mental-disorders 
Momma bear hibernated when it came to LAW AND ORDER 
No Papa bear but a ton of 
WILD ANIMALS
I love Mother Nature 
but HATE her MAMMALS 
I received the most love 
and healthy interaction from 
ACTION-FIGURES and 
STUFFED ANIMALS 
heartless creatures 
with no brain damage 
Raised a slave to mental-disorders 
Peta mightve been more alert than child services 
As I served my 16 year sentence 
If only I was a dog it would've came 7 times sooner 
Now an adult by the government's standard 
I AM FREE to deal with 
THIS MENTAL BAGGAGE

Popularity doesn’t make mental health healthy

Nor does being unpopular

but learning to be yourself and being happy with who that is .....well that creates growth !

Happiness is a
temporarily feeling
Just remember that

Ashes to ashes
dust to dust
Trust to…….
lust to lust
I ****** UP

Watch, listen and read...... those are others actions, voices and words!

Do, speak and write...... those are your actions, voice and words!

Everything you do should have purpose in life.

Everything in life should have meaning.

Time is to valuable to not invest it wisely!

Pay close attention because close attention costs you.

Whether you realize it or not, I promise you they do!

Created to create

Rules are made to be ?
Followed ?
Broken ?
Or to gauge a level of ?
Control !

Rulers are made to be ?
Followed ?
Broken ?
Or to gauge a level of ?
Control !

Dictatorship
or
Democracy
Are the same?

Both
have
One
In complete control!

Person
or
Party
Both with hidden agendas!

Vote
for
Vote
Individually we don't count!

Millions
upon
Millions
Invested with no gaurantee!

Promises
upon
Promises
For all the wealthy!

Insider
trading
Inside
The electoral stock market!

Taxes
upon
Taxes
Delayed for the bidders!

Home
to
House
The super rich and wealthy!

Land
of
Slaves
The working class!

Home
of
The
Fee, it costs us all!

Hell
on
Earth
Politics truly are our sickness!

The turkey isnt the only thing baked at this Thanksgiving Dinner....

Blood dyed brain.... Colored hair.....   The chemicals seep in ......creepin inward..... Steep the thoughts punch-drunk from the new look to come
Head burns chemical reaction motivated by desire to be more attractive, feel better changing the image of who you are......
Who are you ?

I'm changing,slowly rearranging, I'm not the same! **** fake love, I've grown from the ones that have been GENUINE, I'll become someone I can be proud of, regardless the scars or hopeless stars I wished on, regardless the ones that trapped this soul, I WILL OVERCOME

Its not my eyes that scare you, so look me in the eyes when I speak. If you are not capable then please go work on yourself. Its not my eyes fault you cannot stand
YOUR REFLECTION!

When you vent
they who cares
will listen
When you cry
they who cares
will comfort
When you write
they who cares
will reply
When you can't
they who cares
wont care
They just want
you to feel
forever loved
SELFLESS

Words to seeds
as
mind to ground

green mouth - green thumb

Spoken to planted
as
they both are injected

Behavior to sunlight
as
actions to rain

Both become nurtured

Now sit back
and
watch them grow

insecurities or strength
healthy or unhealthy

Only the gardeners
know
what they planted

W: WORDS
O: OPEN
R: REAL
D: DOORS
S: SINCERELY

W: WORDS
O: OPEN
R: REAL
D: DOORS
S: SUPPORTIVELY

AND

W: WORDS
O: OPEN
R: REAL
D: DOORS
S: SPIRITUALLY

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                   6\\\6
                       \00/
                        🩸🩸
                   🎵 Fingertips 🎶
🩸🩸forever bleeding
as these 🩸🩸
🎶 guitar strings🎵
🩸🩸🎵 cOnTiNuOsLy 🎶
get strung 🩸🩸
         Vocal-cords 🎶
    🩸🩸forever screaming 
as these 🎵
sad words 
🎶 cOnTiNuOsLy  🩸🩸
           🩸🩸 get sung 🎤 🎵
         
                I gOt ThE 🎶                       🎵 hEaRtBrEaK                                        bLuEs🎶   
🎸da da da da da 🩸🩸

Thanksgiving is here 
 the mentally unstable 
gather in one place

Lose sight
of
HIM
HER
THEY
THEM
and
EVERYBODY-ELSE

Focus more
on
I
ME
YOU
YOURSELF
and
NOBODY-ELSE

These beats get
further and further 
apart with this 
bitter cold heart 

Her angelic warmth 
the perfect temperature 
to tame temperments 
well not anymore 

Sore loser I remain 
love isnt a game
my soul screams for 
her name its only 
hope for this heart 

It's out of tune 
its out of luck 
my mind reminds myself 
there still is hope 
dont give up yet 

My heart replies back 
"not true, f#ck that" 
"she's forever gone dude
lets not go skipping 
beats out of tune"

"Who cares anymore man?"
the mind replies back 
"we lost our purpose 
whats left to love for 
shes something special "

"AND WE BOTH F#CKED IT UP I couldve been more thoughtful, you couldve been more compassionate, we lacked communication between us two, now your off tune and im stuck with these regretful thoughts,You're in unbelievable pain and I'm in a bad mental state, Were both at rock bottom but lets agree we are not CONFUSED, WE CHASED HER AWAY"(mind)

"Easy for you to say mind, you base things off logic, im over here drowning in these mixed feelings, emotions and lost love! Where was your logic when we still had a chance ? JUST PLEASE SHUT-UP and let me miss my love ."(heart)

I have no right to judge
nor can I forgive all
Please don't worship me
please don't call me your God

my feelings
YOUR FEELINGS

MY EFFORT
your effort

tsap ym
YOUR PAST


Yeah my past
was ****** up

Well I’m not
YOUR PROBLEM ANYMORE

FREE
eerf

I desire affection 
I crave insecurities 
I want her attention 
I need solidarity 
I, need...... her,
next to me.
Please 
right
now