The worlds biggest
pyramid scheme
The Food Pyramid
courtesy of the USDA

The worlds greatest
deceit of all times
Our countries History Books
courtesy of the United States

Is it safe to say or assume
they feed us knowledge based on their self-benefit and corporate profits

Is it safe to say or assume
we eat from their hands knowing they benefit from their self-truth

They market to us by a service that claims to help us get our day started but in reality we're watching a really long commercial fueled by political  influence more than
our self-benefit

Their job to instill fear within our minds to mold their ideas and opinions into our mindset to get our views to promote their campaigns against us

One nation under God we all claim to be a part of but yet we allow them to divide us as far as the left will go and as far as the right will go until we are backed against ourselves

One man to lead though, that we all are to look up to even though he's not for all or any of us but rather his funders hidden agendas

But hey we all bleed red white and blue as we all know United we stand and divided we fall, if only their was more feeling of emotion to those words portrayed

Within my lifetime it has gone from no personal information should be shared to having to give it all out just to have an email address or Facebook

Big companies pay web developers for our views but yet we pay for the inconvenience every month, cellphone

Who
What
When
Where

All these questions answered with a ping of a tower, since when did we become okay with all of our privacy being stripped away

How ?

If we all could see eye to eye and realize the third eye that is fogging the mirrors then maybe we could stand united and agree it's not the left or the right but rather us all against them,  the government

They divided us to conquer us, they persistently create distractions to numb us knowing together we outnumber their forces thousands to one

But let's keep hating one another, lets stay divided and wonder why things never get better, lets keep allowing our taxes to fund political wars, let's keep allowing our information to be shared with the world, let's pretend we don't care about any of this

The yellow lines on the roads symbolic for the whole entire country being a crime scene, we are all victims to them:
Taking
Making
Forcing
Creating
Dividing
Obtaining
Denying
Etc

God Bless America
Home of the brave
Land of the free

Windy whispers from all directions
Clouds of doubt resting above heads
Bright rays of common sense uncommon
Rainy rumors pouring down regularly
False conclusions strike like lightening
Roaring thunder from angered voices
A star in the sky for every insecurity
Light at the end of the tunnel
moon
Scarce hope of equality loving rainbow
Weather or not you're bothered
PUN INTENDED

Scary came near but then ran scared, not them but me from their temptation, I'm free from myself, free..freee...freeee.....
Up in the clouds away from society, societyee..soicietyeee...

Time now ticks and tocks
until eventually
Time stops, tick..tock..DEAD

Upbeat, standing tall, 
appearance confident,
healthy heart, mind filled with 
everything but doubt and 
I'M FEELING GOOD

I'm a little boy within this skin of what resembles a normal looking man
I'm a psychopath within this skin of what resembles a normal looking man.
I'm a healing soul within this skin of what resembles a normal looking man.
I'm a little boy within this skin of mine that resembles a normal looking man.
There's nothing normal at all about me or what lies within the skin of what appears to be a normal looking man.
I AM a man kindly reminding you
" things aren't always as they appear "

He kicked the can
far before the keg kicked

He drank himself
until he drowned

Literally his last breath
was spent at this bar

Right before his last cent
he was broke in many ways

His days started at open
his nights began at close

Only leaving room for
a drunken walk and sleep

His spirits were always hi
until the spirits went bye

A rowdy guy he could be
when others spoke to thee

He was a lonely man
sorrow built up caked his face

Cold brews washed it down
as foam covered his chin

He knew his limits though
never touching the liquor

The beer numbed the pain
the brews calmed the temper

A good tipper indeed he was
but now he's gone from us

He kicked the can
far before the keg kicked

The pub still lives on
from open to close

His lack of presence
remains the biggest difference

He was a lonely man
that found comfort at

The bottom of every glass
he had ever ordered

But was it genuine habit
or was it out of pattern

I never the courage to ask
I never the care to speak up

Is life moving to fast
for us to take the time

I'm no therapist, I remind myself
but merely a tender of the bar

However I still feel guilt
knowing I filled the last mug

Meaningless words dealt
fake "how you do's"

It turns out, until he was gone
I never valued his soul

He was a lonely man
but now so am I

He kicked the can
far before the last keg kicked

And now I'm left
kicking myself in the ***

For never becoming
a good friend
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l                                           I
l                                           I
l             MORALS              I
l                                           I
l                                           I
I............................................I

Morals are in the box 
for what is right is right 
and what is wrong is wrong 
black and white, no gray area 
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I                                         I
I                                         I  t
I          MORALS               I  h
I                                         I   i
I                                         I   n
I...........................................I   k

So to think outside the box 
sure it seems inoccent at first
however with much thought 
look at what we have found 
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C    C     I        f               C       E
R    U     I        i               O      L
E    R     I        n              R      F
A    I      I        e              R      D
T   O     I         l               U     A
I    S      I        i               P      M
V   I       I       n              T       N
I    T      I       e               I         I
T   Y      I       []              O       N
Y           I       []              N       G
..............I       []
There's a fine line between 
creativity vs corruption and
curiosity vs self-damning 
life isnt intended to be:

A SCIENCE PROJECT

.........BELIEFS.................
I    F RIENDS                 I      S
I    A      Values              I      C
I    M      Curiosity         I      I
I     I         Love               I     E
I     L    Creativity          I     N
I.....Y.....MORALS............I      C
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                                                !
                                                !
...............gray area.................!

If steps could be retraced?
if actions could be erased? 
if words could be replaced?
Would you let me come home?
Because I would relive it all, if thats what it meant, to get one more minute with you. Would you let me?

whenever step-dad
went to his hole in the wall
he always made them

Anyone can be born but very few are raised!

****
just like HIGHSCHOOL
IM NOT POPULAR

Crazy and lazy
a bad combination
I know what it takes
to fix me but it’ll require
a ton of work

Nopeful Hope

The narcissist inside still resides but I refuse to allow that side be known again

The decision was born from many incisions born causing the worst kind of pain

The monster is still inside but I finally found a way to tame him and prevent him

FROM COMING OUT

Relevance is like leftovers, the difference in one day can make all the DIFFERENCE. So eat it up while it's still good otherwise toss it.

Become what you hate
become what you can’t stand
MAKES YOU SICK
but it doesn’t have to be
YOUR FAULT
so please quit blaming
YOURSELF
You can’t see your BIGGEST fear taking place
within your own
FACE
Disgrace you wear thin
CHANGE
this now before it’s to
….
LATE……
REGULATE THE PAIN
let the abuse stop
and exit with
the noose
that finally
got taken
OFF

FREE

You are the exception
CONSIDER
There are hundreds of thousands each year that aren’t so
LUCKY

Dont victimize your brain
from the pain
the victims
placed on you

CREATING

Hate from their deep rooted flaws of many past generations
of self-inflicted SLAVING

From this the MONSTER is born
As you slowly become
The
CULPRIT

CARRYING
the bloodlines
of evil
FURTHER

STOP
and
LETS CELEBRATE LIFE
LiVe

When everyone tries
everyone should win
but life is so cold

A blood pumping heart
beating very strong
Veins filled with blood
transporting life
I’m alive physically
but feel like a GHOST
A host to a false pulse
matterless matter
Lost within, lost outside
amongst all others, lost
Unnoticed but present
right in sight but not visible
My mind begins to wander
trapped thoughts irrelevant
My gut feeling is telling me
to run quickly, hide
They don’t deserve you
you don’t need them
GHOST, we all know
I’m here and now
How it has come to this
we may never know
Lost within life’s spectrums
hidden between the lights
My eyes tell it all
they are always visible
But who cares to stare
into a confused soul
But who dares to stare
at someone unknown
These eyes don’t lie
they have seen it all
But I fare this curse of hell
I remain victim to life’s spell
If only our natural feelings
weren’t to fear the unknown
GHOST

Do you know their battles?
Do you know their war?
Would you help them fight?
Would you help them defend?
THEN WHY DO YOU JUDGE?
 ________

My mind outside gravity's reach, amidst the stars in the sky I seek, my goals shine bright providing guidance I need. My mind outside humans reach, amidst the stars in the sky I seek, my goals shine bright dividing misguidance I don't need.

It’s 4:11 in the morning
and I’m not tired

I woke up from a deep sleep just thinking about you

My heart started racing as my mind tried to keep up

If only I could forget you but it’s more complicated than that

It’s 4:11 in the morning and I’m wide awake now

And all I can think about is all the mistakes I made

The games we played and how our love went astray GONE

But no matter the pain you have caused me, I just can’t forget you

Its 4:11 in the morning and I wonder where are you

I don’t know why since you left me and you’re no longer my problem

I guess regardless the culprit or victim I still miss you

Although it seems dumb as you have moved on

It’s 4:11 in the morning and I’m not yawning, I should be tired

But I’m not just sitting up thinking about your love

My body getting all worked up as my mind starts spinning all these thoughts

My heart pounding against my chest and I’m left knowing I didn’t try my best

It’s 4:11 in the morning and I want you but I know I can’t have you

We’re states away not by accident, the space was needed to prevent a relapse

And although I want you , I don’t need you

You we’re my one, I truly believed until you gave up so easily on you and me

It’s 4:11 in the morning and I’m done rewinding my feelings for you

As I know you are home sound asleep, not devoting a minute of lost sleep to thinking about me

And it’s sad now, I think how ? Could I be so weak and the only answer is .... I really ******* loved you

But not no more , I’m only human so I got to remind myself
of the pain you caused me

it’s 4:11 in the morning and now I’m reminded of all the drama

Like 2020 spending Christmas all alone , I left my past in Indiana

I made a life with you in Vermont and as Covid took over I lost my job

That’s when the tension took us both , but I couldn’t rely on the woman I loved , LOST

its 4:11 in the morning and my thoughts are calming my heartbroken nerves

As the feelings remind me that it was you that discarded me

Like a piece of trash to the sidewalk, or meat to the wolves instead of battling beside me

You threw salt in our loves wounds and for that you’ll regret it one day

it’s 4:11 in the morning and I’m going back to bed now


I realized so quickly , you’re not worth the lost sleep that the few good parts of you I remember are nothing compared to the parts that left me

You gave up so quickly without any fight left to try to overcome the differences we shared

I just needed a companion to support me but you couldn’t even be a good friend

It’s 4:11 in the morning and I’m going back to bed , feeling a lot better than I ever did , just thinking about you

Amidst a dark time
a sparkle of light

Amidst the light
a bright shine

Amidst the shine
I saw myself

Amidst myself
I felt loved

Amidst the love
I breathed new life

Amidst my new life
the darkness fades

Amidst her eyes
looking back into mine

A twinkle of magic
telling me it was okay

Her smile cheered me up
and outshined the pain

A total surprise
I didn’t expect at all

When her eyes
laid upon mine

An unexpected fall
an unexpected catch

Hand in hand
we’re walking slow

She knows my flaws
she knows my concerns

She has some herself
as she opened up to me

Together we plan
to take things slowly

Amidst the light
that killed the darkness

We decided
to dance slow

When money prevents you from your dreams...money you may or may never have. 

When a decision prevents you from your dreams...a decision you can make.

So is it safe to assume we enjoy the comfort of having something to blame.....

Victims to ourselves
captive to our minds
hostage to our hearts
Lost and found thoughts
weigh heavy in our hearts
Lost and found love
weigh heavy in our minds
If only we could see
what it is we need
But the fact remains
our thoughts and love
will always remain blind
to each-other
Unlike our feelings
those forever will show
even when it’s not in
our benefit because
our minds and hearts
know what they want
but it’s not always
In our benefit
So we remain
victims to ourselves
captive to our minds
and hostage to our hearts

Find faith in what it takes to forever evolve, to forever change, to forever break the bad patterns and with no mistake maintain the belief you forever will lead and not be tempted to fall astray from what it is you need and seek.

Infuse
with abuse
but not
just any type
Lets go verbal
as in just words
because I’m to scarred
to be hit anymore
or fall victim to others hands
EVER AGAIN
Maybe some basic
NAME-CALLING
some yelling and shouting
and the occasional low blow
beneath the belt
backstab
BUT PLEASE
NO VIOLENCE !!
PHYSICAL
Or better yet
make some threats
tell me I’m no GOOD
If verbal abuse isn’t
GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU
and you still are hell bent
on breaking me down
I would prefer
Mental over Physical
because once again
I just can’t take being hit
as well as I can
the emotional disrespect
My past gave me plenty of
practice at being very
ACCEPTING
of it
Mental Health AWARENESS

Abuse a noose
a rope tied tight
that once removed
still has a tight hold
Old scars still freshly
BOLD not by others
nor by view but rather
the story behind what they
HIDE: THE TRUTH
A dark secret to most
a dark story you HOST
a love lost
your MENTAL HEALTH
the COST
Feelings of being
UNWORTHY
Feelings of being
UNDESERVING
attracting
BAD ENERGIES
like a MAGNET
but until
YOU REALIZE
ITS NOT YOUR FAULT
GET HELP AND MOVE-ON
OR you will always be the VICTIM
to the ABUSE , the NOOSE
around YOUR NECK

A heart filled with hope is a heart filled with doubt, for one wouldnt need to seek more than the known, If one had a heart filled with faith

I loved everyone 
until I was born 
Then I hated most
anger was born 
From the loss 
of the love 
It wasn't me 
it was always them 
But it was me 
that had to change 
Thank God I did 
thank them for it 
It wasn't me 
it wasn't him

Replace the B with an M
and that's what you make me 
when you act out 
Replace the M with an S 
and that's how we both feel
after the fact 
Replace the S with a D 
and that's why I'm so hard
on you son 
Replace the D with a GL
and that's how I feel 
when you don't break the rules

Dad: son let’s sit by the fire tonight and have some father son time

Son: dad let’s sit in front of the tv tonight and play video games and bond

Extension cord ran
from the garage
Folding table grabbed
from the storage shed
Camping chairs gathered
from the cars trunk
Television moved
from the spare bedroom
And together we
set it all up
in front of
THE FIRE-PIT
WIN WIN

A sky
A star
A guy
All alone
One day
One night
That all changed
A sky
A star
A girl
2 worlds
Spent apart
Now Together
Lost in
One sky
Two stars
Cross paths
Shinning bright
In one another's light
Found
Discovered
Uncovered
Her eyes
Melt his heart
Her heart
Warms his soul
2 stars
1 guy
1 girl
1 sky
Together
They form
1 bond

Less words more cutting 
I came here to loose my hair 
Not to loose my mind

You’re feeling down, tired and slow
You just need a quick pick me up
You contemplate ******* or adderall

You’re feeling depressed and insecure
You just need a substance to numb yourself
You contemplate ****** or alcohol

You’re in so much pain and you hurt
You just need a quick fix to take it away
You contemplate pain-killers or muscle-relaxers

You’re drowning in anxiety and stressed out
You just need something to calm yourself down
You contemplate cbd or marijuana

You're so heartbroken you feel all the above ⬆️
You just need a drug to help numb yourself
You contemplate which one will do the job

One thing for certain is, you’re done with the most powerful drug of them all
lOvE

It always leaves you with the worst hangovers and is a gateway to the
REST

For it wasn’t until your heart was torn into two that you tried any of the
ABOVE

Now you can’t get enough of anything to make you forget about the
hEaRtBrEaK

Love is one drug you refuse to get addicted to, monetarily it is free but costs the
MOST

You are in no danger of ever being tempted to try it again after the last
RELAPSE

Life is out of focus
pieces of who we are
captured by those close to us

Who we are, will we not know?
pieces of ourselves blankly
captured by others photos

Life is out of focus
as a whole we remain altered
captured by those unknown to us

Who we are, will we know?
pieces of ourselves boldly
captured by our purpose

Life is our main focus
pieces of all of us
captured by life's purpose

Love me or leave me
but please don't do
BOTH

Habitat to bad habits, habitually harvesting bad moments, helplessly in need of heroics, hopefully soon as these heights in which I suffer up to are humiliating my humanity, hindering my happiness and ******* with my head! I'm only human and cannot help the hidden agendas of this heartless world!

You look at me
I stare at the ground
Not from fear
but rather disgust
You look at me
I could careless
I wish it was different
but I cannot undo
All the pain you caused
all the lack of love
You look at me
only from photos now
You're dead to me
I hold my head high
Only looking up
because I deserve to
I cannot love you
for all the scars caused
You made me learn
everything on my own
In fact I taught you
solely from trial and error
Not because I wanted to
but because I had to survive
You look at me
but never in my eyes
Because you don't deserve me
nor ever loved me right

Light equals Life 
Dark equals Death 
Lightless thoughts 
provide Lifeless dreams 
Darkness takes over 
providing Deathless dreams 
Light is found
in my nightmares 
When I can actually FEEL
Life is gone 
in my daydreams 
as they tease me with 
HAPPY THOUGHTS 
that never will eXiSt
Dark days and nights 
I forever remain to
Death is an acquaintance 
but only visits everyone else around me, I live this Dark-Life guided by Death's Light 
cApTiVe To ThEsE
~~~~~bLuRrEd-LiNeS~~~~~
             L              i
             u             F
             R             e
             r
             E
             d

She was my love 
so now she is loved 

She used to be my future 
so now she is my past 

The only part I wish 
I could still have back 

She! Yes her, my true love
the only one I still grasp

I'm feelin froggy
dropped the bad habit
left it standing
dine and dash
I don't owe you nothing
I spent many years
That only led to many fears
And it appears, I've had enough , I can't stand it , I never planned it , but 32 years taken from me , IM tired of being disappointed... I WANNA BE PROUD OF WHO I AM, no more allowing sickness , change couldn't be quick enough , I had to learn patience , it can't come overnight but the flaws to numb the cause can be instant, madness Abra cadaver it's not magic R.I.P you becoming the best you could be , I cannot flee me, I rather be lonely and working on becoming somebody than rely on continuing to be a narcissist feeding off bad energy from a relationship , who am I, I cannot blame others for my past pain, I must change who I am before I can provide happiness for myself, useless cause, IMPOSSIBLE but I must end this madness and this poem on a positive note, WE ALL HAVE GREATNESS , WE MUST JUST FIND IT , ITS WITHIN OUR PURPOSE , NOT ALWAYS ON THE SURFACE , KEEP FINDING TO GROW AND BE A LEADER TO HELP FIND IT FOR OTHERS, BE STRONG FOR ONE ANOTHER ! that's what's weighing heavy on my heart .

The stars in the sky 
Are as beautiful as you
The eyes that can see 

For the eyes that can't 
Forever rest in peace with
The stars in the sky 

For the eyes that can 
Enjoy the wonderful view 
Keep your head held high 

The stars in the sky 
Are as beautiful as you 
Regardless your pain 

For the eyes that hurt 
Forever rest in peace with 
The eyes that can't see 

For the eyes that can't 
Rest in peace without hurting
With stars in the sky

Difference relevant
various forms
False measurements
begin to form
Shape shifting
slowly creating
An internal stranger
no acquaintance
Unfamiliar figure
visions blurred
Absent shadow
wipe your eyes
Fogged mirrors
reflect unwanted imagery
Who have i become?
Sweaty palms
dry skin
Bloodshot eyes
dandruff hair
Stubble beard
look of despair
Anger fills your mind
false illusions
Of the previous night
leave a cloud of doubt
One thing is certain
and that is......
The "HOW"
before accepting fault
You quickly engage
telling yourself
In the back of your mind
it's not your fault
Keep playing the victim
knowing your plenty capable
Traumatic childhood
left in the past
Never realizing
the importance
It will have on the present
the same childhood friend
That got you through it all
now is the biggest culprit
Allowing your mind
to pretend its never your fault
Imagination, always their
to save the day
Allowing yourself
to procreate
Thoughts of weakness
ability to misdirect
The tough conversations
your favorite sidekick
An all purpose tool
for all occassions
Especially the ones
that put you on the spot
Preventing yourself
from overcoming the past
Allowing you, to live a lie
lets not forget
Although its a small circle
we both know **** well
Creativity shows up
Imagination's favorite
friend
They saved you as youth
kept your mind
off all the abuse
They made being poor
not seem so tough
They got you through
some really bad breakups
Hell! they both
were the majority
of the responsibility
For everytime
a girl fell in love
You expect me to believe
these two childhood friends
I have always been able
to count on
The very two
that always had my back
The very two
No one could ever
take me from
They have now transformed
allowing insecurities
to be easier to hide
All the training over the years
were only suppressing
Allowing me to avoid
keeping me weak
Allowing my mistakes
always to be justified
Things aren't always
as they seem
R..AD
B..T. ..EN
..HE
L..N..S
Don't become
that someone
That will allow
your past
From preventing
self-love
Be someone
that you will
Not have to
learn to love
When you can
GAURANTEE
THE REFLECTION
looking back
Is exactly who
You want to see
Often its
the in between
That is literally
the actual message
We can't, always be
focusing on literal terms
When we have
STRONG MINDS
to interpret what we see
Into what it means
Into what we believe
and everything in between
INTERPRET

My purpose 
isnt to service 
unwanted ears 
from sharing 
childhood fears 
from past years 
Its not my destiny 
to become someone 
that must share 
all the darkness 
for hopes it might 
help someone 
besides myself 
CALL ME SELFISH 
for this selfness 
i surround myself in 
i wish i could be 
more selfless 
but to imagine 
what that means 
when i was 
an acquitance of 
everyone elses needs 
but mine 
when i was a kid 
Emancipated at age 17 
runaway with 
a pregnant girlfriend 
just the icing 
on top of the cake 
of mistakes 
I wish were fake 
but are far to real 
the scars exposed 
host the bitterness 
exposed in me 
from years of 
bad habbits 
being the 
natural habitat for me 
poetry saved me 
poetry gave me 
a fighting chance 
the last dance 
before death 
was interrupted 
by words wrote 
on a bar napkin
before the rage 
took over the daze 
before the haze 
ended the self-slavery 
to mental health catastrophe 
as I gave 
my last words
meant to be written  
a second chance 
glanced at my last 
vision as I published 
a mind releasing poem 
and recieved comments 
of uplifting support 
yet another soul saved 
rEaLiTy 
kindness saves 
more than hate
COULD EVER STEAL 
Thank you greatly 
POETRY 
Im not worthy 
of your poise

Far [                                  ]Far
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left [                                  ] Right

I BELONG TO NONE OF THIS 
   
  IT IS ALL JUST PURE EVIL!
  🔥🔥🔥🔥😈🤵🔥🔥🔥🔥
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Jack Johnson artist
title "Better Together"
medium volume 
Natural light 
lit the kitchen 
but it didn't matter 
Her presence 
lit my world on fire 
both of us covered in 
PASSION 
Breakfast Sunday morning 
but only after 
we made love 
I couldnt resist her
the woodstove warmed 
THE FLOOR WE ROLLED ON 
The kids all in bed still 
the next story above 
Sunday morning breakfast 
the best meal ever 
because we always 
COOKED TOGETHER 
WITH PASSION 
as the lyrics play

🎵🎶"Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together"🎶🎵

Why celebrate your birthday once a year ? When you can celebrate it two times a day .....AM and PM

SEPTEMBER 8th
equals
9:08 AM
and
9:08PM

Subconscious winds 
voicing opposite directions 
Emotions temperature 
heated to ice cold 

Thoughts tornadoes 
my heads spinning 
Decisions flawed 
lightning and thunder 

My life 
one big storm 
Mentally speaking 
where's the sunshine 

Unfamiliar weather 
atleast for now 
There's tomorrow 
I remain optimistic 

Regardless now 
weathering these storms 
Regardless now 
weathering these thoughts

My life 
ONE BIG STORM 
My thoughts 
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f
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Second to none? 
First to all?
Overstated!
Nah, I just want to be seen!
I just want to be heard!

By who?
For what?
Undecided!
Nah, I'll just remain unnoticed!
I just miss having someone!

Second to her,
first to her!
Contradiction!
Yeah, she just wanted loved.
I just messed things up. 

It was me,
​​​​it was her.
Reality!
We were just young, 
we were just immature!

Quit second guessing
trust and believe in yourself
if you don’t, who will ?