Europe, syrup, sugar free... not always sweet, just ask Ukraine.

USA, days, forever free... not ever free, just ask Germany.

France, dance, freely... not always free, just ask Parliament.

"aren't we all determined by our own governments, to each we willing allow to determine a final growth for anyone man? To whom will go strengths to prevent rather support and tax rather invest in thy growth or wealth! TO EACH THEIR OWN!"

Money isn't everything, they say... Happiness cannot be bought! They brought the beast out in us... When they fought!
Losing a war, is not nor never an option... WHEN YOU ARE MEN LIKE US!
We take it personal, because... We are men of our words!

My life has been a crockpot of mixed emotions all stewing together

Without any taste of the familiarity of each ingredient alone

The comfort of them all together creates a vibe felt forever

Before I found myself, within fake walls that weren't my home

"I KNEW NO BETTER, NO BETTER AT ALL, UNTIL NOW! "

Giving up ..... Nah
Working hard .....Uhuh

Monsters are to real
they don’t live under my bed 
but one’s in Mom’s bed

I let go
she still hasn't
come back

Time still
wont tell,
will it ever ?

Pursuit to happiness
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[]       []          I             []      []
                      I
​​                      I
STOPPED

Live, hurt, cry
not love and
LAUGH

irony

Tick-tock, Ticked-off
Angry
But who?

MySeLf

From lost love
I knew I shouldve
held on

Her touch unfamiliar
her scent forgotten
her voice I remember

**** I still
miss her
HOPE

Piercing hazel eyes
whispering **** secrets
across the table

Year one cannot come 
without day 1 coming first 
You could start today

I'm going through a selfish stage
but this is my change

I don't mean to be rude
but I finally feel important

I know what I need to do
so I just need to focus

I apologize to those that
I have made feel unnoticed

It's not on purpose so
please don't take it personal

I'll overcome this phase
and be way stronger

I'll become someone better
and be way more supportive

I'm going through a selfish stage,
you deserve better

My ultimate goal is
to become that for you

I don't mean to be rude
but I finally feel worthy

Red, Right and Blue
Red, White and through 
Dead, White and Blue 

R, I and P 
​​​​Heart, Soul and Mind
Selfishly I Stand Alone 

Me, Myself and I
​​​​That's What I Bleed 
My Own ******* Blood

Love me, or leave me 
They all decided to leave 
So im used to it

Don’t say you love me
and don’t act like you love me
you haven’t hurt me

“Two heads are better than one“
“The more the merrier”

Are two heart halves better than one? Because I felt happier when it was one.

My mind is growing on me
perception becoming reality
GrAvItY NO LONGER
holding
ME  d
.... .......  o
..........      w
................... n

Thinking before doing
Doing then stopping
.............. midway
Realizing the flaws
AND
Pre-conceived notions
DEFFENSE------MECHANISMS
ShUt   D
.......... O            _Myself_
​​​ .........  W        P
​​GROWN   U

Temptation calls you
hands firmly over your ears
I cannot hear you

I'm Biden my nails 
My cuticles are bleeding 
Why did I do that?

Why God ?
Why him ?
Why her ?
Why them ?
and Grandpa
too ?

I’ll never
ever understand

Your plan
your reasons

Nor will
you, always
mine

But let’s
agree, that’s
what FAITH
is all about

A big ugly rug lays on top of the old wood floors covering up the ancient dust from many years before

On that rug lays an old mutt dog with shaggy fur all knotted up from playing outside all day in the woods named Buster

He lays in the same exact spot every single day and night so much his fur and dirt outlines his domain where he stays inside

Just a foot behind that fur outlined spot where the old mutt dog lays on top of that big ugly rug that covers the ancient dust upon the old wood floors sits an old man on an outdated plaid reclining chair named Bob

Bob at the start of everyday and the end of every night enjoys sitting on his outdated plaid reclining chair with his feet up just behind his old mutt dog with shaggy fur all knotted up named Buster who is laying on his fur covered spot on the big ugly rug that covers the ancient dust upon the old wood floors
smoking his old wood pipe filled with Indian tobacco

That was until after many years of this exact same thing the old man Bob had to put his old wood pipe filled with Indian tobacco down from his old black lungs coming down with cancer

And shortly after that big ugly rug that covered the ancient dust upon the old wood floors where the old man named Bob sat on his old plaid reclining chair no longer had an old mutt dog with shaggy fur knotted named Buster sitting in front of him because he had to be put down and all that was there was an outline spot of fur for a reminder of a **** good dog and an old wooden pipe with no Indian tobacco

10 days
7:30am to 9pm
120 customers  
12 salespeople
HIGH ENERGY
GO GO GO GO
9pm and it’s quitting time
but the energy present
doesn’t just turn off
Fresh shower
wide awake now
10pm leads to 2am
Oh **** in 5.5 hours
I have to be up again
in order to do it all over again
100 degree days
working on black pavement
The sun never missing a day
8 shades of red from burnt skin
averaging 8 miles a day
In a mall parking lot
trying to move metal
NO NO NO NO
Is all I hear, literally all day
mental warfare
BRAIN DAMAGE
I’m wore out
my body is sore
my skin is like leather
my ears have had enough
my brain ******* hurts
but I finished the job
10 units delivered
$64500.00 in front end
GROSS PROFIT
Averaging $8000 a copy
YEAH I’M A STUD
One week off
then off to Texas
For the start of
a four week run
Waco Texas to
Edinboro Pennsylvania
and back to Texas
for two more weeks
and then a full month off
But for now I must rest,
recover and turn my brain
OFF

Puff puff pass please now
now as in ungrateful free
puff puff pass pleasd NO

Among the many remedies  to fight stress and release anger
I have custom tailored my own cures for my mental-health 

Like tearing through my firebirds 4 speed as I take off like a bat out of hell and watch the rpms climb to redline 

Like hopping in my truck and burning out while cruising down backroads listening to the radio all the way turned up 

Like taking my dog Buster for a hike and watching him enjoy some one on one time with me out in the woods by where we live 

Like writing poetry just as quickly as the words try to weigh heavy on my mind, each line wrote prevents the bottling up 

These are my most popular ones among some more but most importantly require no dependancy on drugs prescribed by a doctor 

Gas, tires, oil changes and dog food is much cheaper than hurt feelings, broken relationships, criminal record or attorney fees 

Plan for the worse, hope for the best and if **** could hit the fan then eventually it probably will....... So have a plan

Happy thoughts are to sunshine as teardrops are to rain, someone better tell Noah to build another ark, before my world gets flooded

"I looked for all the answers in all the wrong places, eventually I found all the necessary changes in the mirror!"

Is it the $800 mortgage that prevents you from the $8 cofeee or is it the other way around

Is it the $400 car payment that prevents you from the $12 lunch or the other way around

Is it the $200 phone bill that prevents you from the $16 to go see a movie or the other way around

Priorities, Priorities. Priorities

Its the $8 coffee, the $12 lunch and the $16 movie that keeps me having to loan you money so you can keep your phone , car and house

Well I’m done being an ATM for everyone else because I need to put my Priorities first

TOUGH-LOVE

As I stream movies for free and only pay $50 a month for my phone plan

As I have a car that is paid off and still decide to pack my lunch to save money

As I brew coffeee every morning for pennies on the dollar to enjoy and I don’t even have a mortgage

But yet you keep borrowing from me,
GET LOST

Walk the line
talk the line
stay within the lines
draw the lines
follow the lines
Everything ever created started with a line
Everything ever marketed started with a line
“ CHECK THIS OUT “
“Line me up said the man to the barber”
“Read this line” said the optometrist to the patient
Stand in line to watch a big screen filled with many lines:
MOVIES
Time after time
line after line
we all measure life
TIMELINE
Cast a line
FISHING
Run a line
LAYOUT
Hang a line
LAUNDRY
Two solid ones
closing in a series
of dotted ones
HIGHWAY
Shortest distance
between two objects
STRAIGHT-LINE
Phone a friend
lifeline
TELEPHONE
Imagine a world
without lines
RIDICULOUS
tagline
PUNCHLINE
Joke
Lunch-line
BUFFET
feast

Tomorrow I’ll be
better than today but now
I must just give in

Four score and seven years ago..........Who really knows what happened? History books teach us what the Government wants, CoNvEnIeNtLy! Four score and seven years from now.........They will continue to do the same!

Teacher says: "spell dad"
student replies "g.o.n.e"
Teacher says: "spell mom"
student replies "w.h.o.r.e"
Teacher says: "spell love"
student replies "I dont know how"

Fear in the unknown
fear in the known as well too
fear being fearless

Call me selfish
but when we took
our new love
off life’s shelf
I expected it
to be perfect
but as we built it
it became apparent
we weren’t just missing
one or two pieces
but rather many more
Was it out my fears
from previous years
or was it just lust
convincing the both of us
that the love making
romantic weekends
and one on ones
would be enough to fix
all the issues
we were facing
amidst a mixed family
with 2 different generations
of confused people
all with our own issues
the biggest one being
TRUST
But call me selfish
because I still desire
the love regardless
the pain it costs
because a second with her
I’d gladly exchange for a year
of my life versus a lifetime
without her love

Pain to Painful 
Trouble to Troubled
A Life to A Life Sentence 
Fumbled to Humbled 
Children to Child run 
Far to Not Far enough 
Your not guilty
to
You are guilty 
Of these Patterns 
You didnt start 
to 
Finished 
another Life 
GONE

I cared and I still do, I care and I can no longer. It's not my ******* fault, it's what they created!

I'm not perfect, so I claim! Who can say the same thing? Are we making these conclusions based on scars from a damaged brain? Well who caused those scars? Who is to claim what I am, including myself, it's not the sane thing to bring feelings into thoughts and make conclusions.... I'm perfect, maybe I'm not but I refuse to accept either based on my BrAiN damage! Opinions please leave ME the **** Alone!

Consistently making decisions sporadically, sporadically deciding to pretend to be consistent.....hmmmmm! 

It's no wonder why you're constantly facing guaranteed grief, for your foundation built involves little to no planning!

Common sense is less common than uncommon sense, literally speaking. The fact we admit and know this is what makes it scary.

Fear has never distracted nor prevented me from falling victim to the process of elimination. I refuse to live or act on fear. 

The power to gain motivates me far more than the fear of loss although her love lost is what I wish I could have back the most.

Maybe, just maybe... I need to rethink my thoughts and reconsider how I choose to live! Or maybe just how I love, maybe!

Her love unlike, her love unique, her love cannot be duplicated nor found in anyone else! Her love is worth changing for! 

"A true and personally lived lesson in life, a lesson learned that only love can teach!"

Physical work
physically draining
Social work
socially draining
Emotional work
emotionally draining
Mental work
all of thee above
MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS

"Most of my shades I claim and respect, Most of them!"

To the guy wearing the shirt
SAFETY in bright reflective orange color chainsmoking cigarettes
back to back
To the guy wearing the mask
SAFETY in front of your face
chaincovering fresh air
back to back

CHEERS
to each
thier own,
SAFETY

It’s
contagious  
outrageous
an illness
with
no fulfillment
if you will
And
all it takes you
to make you
into a victim
Is just one drop
pressed to your lips
mixed with
the scent
of it
will make you
go weak
relapse
ALCOHOL
But not anymore
as that door
has been closed
regardless the calls
from the deep-end
I refuse to give-in
when I can
REMAIN in
Shallow Waters
never willing to
take you
B A C
0.0 ‘/. Chances
pun intended

Preach what you know to be true, Speak only the truth, teach what you know to be true, otherwise don't preach, speak or teach anything at all! Learn only from those that follow these same rules and law.

The noose said it will rain today
the news said there was another shooting
the noose said Covid was on the rise
the news is IRRELEVANT
break free and base decisions off your own feelings not people that get paid to SELL RATINGS

A Rubiks Cube 
traveling 1100 mph
​​​colliding against 
A deck of cards
laying face up 
fully exposed

A humans soul 
many sides
very colorful 
A humans soul 
many suits
very unpredictable 

A Rubiks Cube
traveling 1100 mph
colliding against 
A deck of cards 
laying face down 
fully hidden 

A humans soul 
many faces
very dark 
A humans soul 
many numbers 
very predictable

The highest probability of getting the outcome desired is following the process

Or so they say in every morning sales meeting before we get started

I listen and take their advice with a grain of salt knowing my closing percent

In an industry where 1 in 10 conversion is considered extremely good

I average 1 deal for every 5 customers I speak to, with above average grosses

I don't sell cars or follow a script based process like a computer programmed robot

I connect with my customers by building from a foundation of common ground

I don't sell cars but rather sell emotions, once the bond is made the sale follows shortly after  

My boss reminds me regularly I defy gravity and  break all rules but he enjoys the profit

He reminds me hard work will always outshine raw talent but I know what he's doing

He's merely trying to sell me on working harder knowing we both would benefit larger

I remind him I dont do this job because I have to but rather because I'm a people person

99'/, of sales is a transfer of enthusiasm and energy so I cannot fake it or pretend

When you invest that much effort into your work it requires a lot more energy
than a robot

Depressing thoughts cost your life years, the Doctors re-asks " you're taking your pills?"

Depression results paid in full with time, the coroner's results" death caused by the cure!"

Drowning in watered down values, never rising to the top
STOP
Take a deep breath, calm down
RELAX
Count down 10 to 1
Breathe

Floating in watered down values, afraid of sinking again
STOP
Take a deep breath, calm down
REFLECT
Count down 10 to 1
Breathe

Standing in shallow waters, comfortable in values
CONFIDENT
Take a deep breath, stay calm
ENJOY
Count up 1 to 10
REVERSED

My mind a never ending letter factory as my memory captures photos of the past and instantly associates the thoughts with words as it collects the letters simultaneously to create the words necessary and as quickly as my fingers can type them to write the story a poem is born

Each poem a direct reflection of a reflection of myself like a time machine taking you on a journey opening up a specific memory of my life in 3 dimensions as you get the images along with the emotions from the feelings I felt

So to say I write from personal experience is an understatement because I don’t write at all but rather type the images caught from a past I don’t always remember until a trigger within brings it up

And when that happens I just run with it , I’m just a “Rob”ot for the letter factory up above typing as quickly as I can just trying to keep up

That’s the reality of my poems as most of them require little to no time to create as I’m just the fingers behind the madness of the created words from lost images triggered from an unforgiving and never forgetting mind

BITTER TRUTH  / REALITY

If only I could turn off my mind but unfortunately it’s not a realistic possibility it’s always in overdrive on overtime

Before I would ignore it and be stressed out having a mess for a head with all the confused thoughts from misspelled words as a result of loose letters

It would just bottle up and my emotions would take over and create a ticking time bomb as my mouth would then clock in and the unknown words would spill out hurting others even loved ones

🤯 EXPLODE

So when I say poetry has saved me, I truly mean it as my words on paper sound a lot better than screaming them at others randomly from a factory explosion as a result of missing a healthy outlet : POETRY

No more training wheels
Life is filled with many falls
Always get back up

This soul has never been complete, this soul was destined to compete, this soul refuses to continuously repeat itself, defeat it will never accept, failures it will continue to ***** knowing its one life closer to success, this soul will forever live on in better light, each century it takes on leaves the next century better off, this soul will never die, this soul of mine will forever live on! This soul will forever be convicted, this soul will eternally be guilty until I prove it to be innocent, this soul will break all the man made rules backed by man made statistics fuel by man made mathematics, justified with man made knowledge and when it does all others will realize 99'/, of life is all just *******!

My heart beats the same ****** tune it always has since she left, I cannot stand the sound but it's not her fault......IT'S ALL MINE!

It's 3:40 in the morning 
and the sky is
still pitch black
from the night before 
I awoke from dreaming 
still wishfully thinking 
she was in my arms 
It's 3:40 in the morning 
and my heart is
still pitch black 
from our faded love 
I awoke from dreaming 
still wishfully thinking 
she was in my arms
It's 3:40 in the morning 
and her presence is
still pitch black 
from when she left 
I awoke from dreaming 
to this nightmare 
realizing forever she is gone 
It's 3:40 in the morning 
and I'm forever lonely
soul pitch black 
since she left home 
I wanna sleep now 
wishfully dreaming of her

Spend money like it's
nothing
to me its nothing
but numbers 
Spend energy like it's 
SOMETHING 
to me its everything
but simple-math