Only one option
read or write, cannot be both.
Which one would you choose?

Two hearts spinning
fast enough to take flight
Two blades spinning
fast enough to take lives
Love can be, one hell of a
HELICOPTER RIDE

I was given the gift to relate
I truly can preach
But not based on beliefs
I truly can reach
I was given the gift to feel
I truly can touch
But not based on religion
I truly can love
If only I could accept my call
If only I could save you all
But not because I have to
I truly can accommodate all

Dont forget the trip we had that night in Fargo North Dakota
Best friends like family slowly became enemies  among us
We vowed then to live more purely and never give into temptations
Or that time we switched seats and escaped a life sentence
Your sister Rosalie calling you with a cupholder filled with quarters
Don't forget the golf course and a beer being slapped by a God from your hands
But the truth is we are the one and only in our own lives
Through him, with him and in him the love will remain
You have two Gods now that rely on you for the worthiness to deserve forgiveness
I love and miss you bro and just wanted to text you a friendly reminder

I prayed for a woman to save this soul
I was given a woman to save this soul
I took for granted a woman that saved this soul
I prayed for another woman to fix my broken heart
I was given a woman to fix my broken heart
Hopefully I won't **** this up again

Her touch a rush I still chase
her touch lost from chasing others
Others touch couldn't compare how dare I chase anothers
She's gone now and I'm all alone missing our home
now
Others here now and I'm all alone missing the one that
mattered
I'm laying in a bed I made and I cannot ever get comfortable now
I'm alone now and wondering how I couldn't  see what
mattered
She was taken for granted and I take full responsibility for my actions or lack of
She deserved way better but I never figured out how to change for the better
She's gone now and the growth from the pain of her loss I have endured seemed so natural
She's gone forever and the pleasure from the growth cannot be celebrated for I have lost my true love

If only I could be
as free as my imagination
If only I could be
as free as my spirit
If only I could be
then so could you
Imagine that
FREEDOM
I did
and now I
SEEK IT

Pages and pages
of stories being told
Not just a book
but rather a way of life
Pages and pages
of beliefs being sold
Not just a book
but rather a life manual
Pages and pages
of faith being explained
Not just a book
but rather a religious journal
Pages and pages
of religion being trained
Not just a book
but rather a Bible
Pages and pages
of words to be deciphered
Not just a book
but rather an adventure
Pages and pages
of many before us
Not just a book
but rather a documentation
of past trials and tribulations
Pages and pages
still to be wrote and fulfilled
Not just a book
but rather a romantic story
Pages and pages
of tragedy and sacrifice
Not just a book
but rather an Old Testament
Pages and pages
of massive confusion
Not just a book
but rather a great detailed history of past times before my birth from an unknown source claiming to know the whole story of God, his son and dating back before Christ
Pages and pages
from pages and pages
Not just a book
but rather a story passed down with time and rewrote to be modernized many times and yet I still to know the accuracy of translations or the hearts or minds of the ones that decided the language needing to be heard
Pages and pages
wrote to persuade us
Not just a book
but rather a tool to humble us
Pages and pages
upon pages and pages
But I rather ask him
through prayer and communication to seek the answers then rely solely
Not just a book

Green-light from hello
Fast around first-base
Started to round second-base
Yellow-light now exposed
Quick to third-base I sprinted
Red-light came on just before
HOME
As she pointed her finger
towards the front door
and gave me a quick peck
on my disappointed face
but hey you can't blame a guy
for trying to get a homerun

The worlds biggest
pyramid scheme
The Food Pyramid
courtesy of the USDA

The worlds greatest
deceit of all times
Our countries History Books
courtesy of the United States

Is it safe to say or assume
they feed us knowledge based on their self-benefit and corporate profits

Is it safe to say or assume
we eat from their hands knowing they benefit from their self-truth

They market to us by a service that claims to help us get our day started but in reality we're watching a really long commercial fueled by political  influence more than
our self-benefit

Their job to instill fear within our minds to mold their ideas and opinions into our mindset to get our views to promote their campaigns against us

One nation under God we all claim to be a part of but yet we allow them to divide us as far as the left will go and as far as the right will go until we are backed against ourselves

One man to lead though, that we all are to look up to even though he's not for all or any of us but rather his funders hidden agendas

But hey we all bleed red white and blue as we all know United we stand and divided we fall, if only their was more feeling of emotion to those words portrayed

Within my lifetime it has gone from no personal information should be shared to having to give it all out just to have an email address or Facebook

Big companies pay web developers for our views but yet we pay for the inconvenience every month, cellphone

Who
What
When
Where

All these questions answered with a ping of a tower, since when did we become okay with all of our privacy being stripped away

How ?

If we all could see eye to eye and realize the third eye that is fogging the mirrors then maybe we could stand united and agree it's not the left or the right but rather us all against them,  the government

They divided us to conquer us, they persistently create distractions to numb us knowing together we outnumber their forces thousands to one

But let's keep hating one another, lets stay divided and wonder why things never get better, lets keep allowing our taxes to fund political wars, let's keep allowing our information to be shared with the world, let's pretend we don't care about any of this

The yellow lines on the roads symbolic for the whole entire country being a crime scene, we are all victims to them:
Taking
Making
Forcing
Creating
Dividing
Obtaining
Denying
Etc

God Bless America
Home of the brave
Land of the free

You might have a bad day
You might have a bad week
You might have a bad month

You shouldn't have a bad year
Or else you are in the wrong
line of work

Don't label me hateful
because I seem ungrateful when the reality is I'm just
UNEDUCATED
So please dont
assume the worst
and take it
PERSONAL

Unaware
absolutely
oblivious
some are

To not know
the choices
they sew
from words
and actions
reaped

To not think
far or close
AHEAD
But rather live
in the moment
*******

Or to think
far to far
AHEAD
and rather fear
in moment
*******

Somewhere between
the two
do just
FINE

Happiness is a
temporarily feeling
Just remember that

365 days in a year
365000 tears in a year
but I still say
that I'm okay
I just really miss her
I just really regret lost love
but I still say
that I'm okay
All my friends know I'm not
all my friends know I'm lost
WITHOUT HER

Quit working
quit trying
Quit asking
quit replying
Just
Give up
give in
Give up
give up
Just
Accept
you can't make a
DIFFERENCE
accept
there's 10 for every one of
You
unfortunately life *****
You
just have to make the best of
It

I turn 32 on Monday
that is a little under
half of the life expectancy
In America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
and I feel a little on edge
hopes of an early retirement
In America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
social security is running out
but that doesn't scare me
in America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
and I plan on doing
nothing different than
the last 31 years in America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
and I feel lightyears ahead
from 31 or any year before
because I have accepted
WHO I AM, IN LIFE

Not scared

Narrow-minded
already-decided

Vast-opinions
fast-conclusions

Many-regrets
infinite-threats

But hey!
What do I know ?

It's not my job
to judge

These are just
my opinions

And I'll
keep them to myself

RESPECT

American Dream,
     or better yet a nightmare?
Look at the numbers

                    Failure more likely
the statistics just don't lie
                     Just try to survive

Politics, crime rates
       terrorist plots, pandemics
and everything else

               Life is more about
protecting yourself more than
      focusing on growth

                  A reality
we all must accept right now
          It's the bitter truth

Born to a ******
known to some but soon to all
Jesus Christ our lord

God's only son is
given up for forgiveness
of all of our sins


Father, son, holy-
ghost resseructed from dead
He will come again

Devil hard at work
Hell on earth finally here
Redeem your faith now

Only one to judge
Only one you must answer
Where will you call home?

There is a BIG test
Will you get a passing grade ?
He will let you know!

Chase the face
That still stares
Pretending to care
Leaving you bare
Always playing unfair
Do you dare?
As it tears
Your life part
Don't be scared
It's a layer
On top of
The real you
So just stop
Pick yourself up
Quit laying down
Raise your head
And climb to
The top again
Drop your insecurities
Let them escape
Your worthy skin
You're worth it
Regardless your sin
Forgive the ones
Forgive yourself too
Wipe that face
Covering up yours
And take control
We both know
You deserve to

Wealthy need not money
for they have much more
Wealthy need not validation
for they have much more
Wealthy need not popularity
for they have much more
Wealthy need not abuse
for they have much more
In a perfect world
thou shall not abuse it
But we all know
including the wealthy themselves
That's just not the case
otherwise equality would exist

You don't know
what you've been
TOLD
You don't know
what you've been
SOLD
Trust no one
dissect it all
LEARN
Trust no one
dissect it all
EARN

Never guilty of
faking being paralyzed
never without pain

Notice
better than
"Know"tice
don't assume

Words untold
appearances sold
Feelings felt
Insecurities dealt
Cold
bold
Late
hate
Delayed
gone
Right
wrong
COMMUNICATE
better
Love
lost
HEARTBREAK
One
big
MISTAKE
flaw

There's a world
inside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Mind inside my
God created body
people inside my
God created earth

There's a world
inside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Mind inside my
physically abused body
danger inside my
physically abused earth

There's a world
outside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Body outside my
God created life
people outside my
God created earth

There's a world
outside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Body outside my
mentally abused mind
danger outside my
mentally abused earth

WE ARE IN
CONTROL OF OUR
EARTH CREATED MINDS

WE ARE ALL
GIVEN EQUAL LIFE
AND EQUAL EARTH

WE ARE IN
CONTROL OF OUR
EARTH CREATED MINDS

MAKE YOUR WORLD
WORTH HIS TIME
AND BECOME GODLY

My
interior is superior
to my
exterior is inferior
My
internal is eternal
to my
external is ephemeral
But
you don't want
to get
to know the
REAL ME
superficial

There's a tear running down your cheek
but no fear in your eyes
As I peek
I realize the shine from your
beautiful smile
Coming from your warm face
of comfort
I too smile as it cheers me up
to know
There still exist tears of joy,
who knew ?

a world of infinite trees
                all forced to coexist
          each with their own history
branching out from different soils
          procreating more from stemmed roots
a ring inside a ring and so on and so forth
          hundreds of years before and hundreds more to come
                   each new tree resembling the past but also unique in identity
          millions of millions all within the same world living
some more grounded than others naturally
          others with loose roots fall easily
many are dead before born
          it's the unfortunate truth
              all forced to coexist
            a world of infinite trees

Chase 🏃‍♂️
               what you
                        can't have

                                      🏃‍♀️   but
                                  run from
               what desires you

​​   🤷‍♂️Its human nature

Get lost in the thoughts

and

find yourself amidst the

madness

Never take the insecurities for

granted

For without them it could be

worse

Look at others but don't

compare

It's not a competition but

rather

a comparison in an effort to

study

Your reflection has the only

eyes

that matter and until then

everyone

else is just a distraction

truthfully

It starts within amidst the

feelings

dissect the past and all the

decisions

Decipher between the forced

ones

versus the ones you would've

made

Relate the difference to your

morals

not the morals of the others

donated

Never feel guilty at the hands

of

the ones that helped create

the

Madness but rather

sympathize

realize NOW you have the

POWER

To CREATE CHANGE

REARRANGE

YOURSELF to fit the BUILD

DESIRED

FIGHT for the RIGHT to FEEL

BETTER

EARN the SECURITY and

HEALTH

YOU DESERVED all along

BELONG

to the VALUES YOU want to

BATTLE

the desires and temptations

UNWANTED

DEVISE a PLAN and BECOME

the

MAN or WOMAN better yet

PERSON

YOU WANT TO

OVERCOME

I wasn't going to do it
but my phone told me to
I wasn't going to do it
but my friends said to
I wasn't going to do it
but my co-worker said to
I wasn't going to do it
but the voices in my head
told me I had to!
SCHIZOPHRENIA

I work little and make to much
I spend to much and spend to much time off
I need to work more and make less
I need to spend much less and spend more time at work
FULFILLED
But it must be something I love to do
But it must be something I'm passionate about
So I can have a normal schedule
So I can have a normal life
I'm tired of all the traveling
I'm tired of the uncertainty
I just want to write
I just want to love
I just want to live
I just want to
SURVIVE

When words just won't do
What is one to consider
what is one to do

A flame of passion
unaware of its power
Burning with no awareness
pouring mugs of gasoline
ALCOHOL
Waiting for the reprucussions
still yet to come
INEVITABLE
A flame of passion
unaware of its harm
Burning with no intentions
pouring mugs of gasoline
ALCOHOL
Waiting for the reprucussions
still yet to come
FORTUNATELY
A flame of passion
unaware of others
Burning with no answers
pouring mugs of gasoline
ALCOHOL
Waiting for the questions
still yet to come
Thank God

Born a single side sword
Graduating to a double edge
One side is filled with pain
The other keeps causing it
The tip is extremely sharp
My handle is uncomfortable
Yet others keep swinging it
Not realizing the harm caused
TOXIC

​...........              |
                         |    MOTIVATION
                         |   ___
                    《   》
    TIME
__      |
​​​                        |
       ­                v
                  《    》
            ----------------------

Ti­me weighing down
My motivation
As I attempt to accomplish
My goals in life
Time weighing down
My morals
As I attempt to live honestly
My expiring life
Time weighing down
My ambitions
As I attempt to overcome
My fear for lost time
TIME

Love me, love me, say that you'll love me
Hurt me, hurt me, say that you'll hurt me
I RATHER FEEL PAIN THAN NOTHING AT ALL
Broken, bRoKeN, forever BrOkEn

Windy whispers from all directions
Clouds of doubt resting above heads
Bright rays of common sense uncommon
Rainy rumors pouring down regularly
False conclusions strike like lightening
Roaring thunder from angered voices
A star in the sky for every insecurity
Light at the end of the tunnel
moon
Scarce hope of equality loving rainbow
Weather or not you're bothered
PUN INTENDED

A split second
lost in time
The end result
an unfinished circle
Only one millimeter
shy from completeness
It was just enough gap
for her to slip away
Gone between the crack
but who can we blame
It was'nt our faults
but much rather times

BE REAL
I ask who you are?
YOU REPLY
to quickly REHEARSED
Of course
It's human nature
a: NATURAL REACTION
a: DEFENSE MECHANISM
I can tell
YOU'RE NOT
the only
ONE
BE REAL
Not just to me
but EVERYBODY
INCLUDING YOURSELF
Don't fear
who you are
ACKNOWLEDGE
the
FLAWS
SCARS
PAST
INSECURITIES
and all thee
ABOVE
BE REAL
tell me how
YOU FEEL
without
MASS appeal
BE REAL
Life is to fragile
life is to short
life is to familiar
for US
ALL to
BE THE SAME
BE REAL
Amongst a world of fakes
filled with actors and actresses
the "MR" and "MRS" PERFECT
selling and telling
the dream they don't
BELONG TO
for far to long
that they forget
what is true and false
LOST
BE REAL
love yourself
learn from the past
REARRANGE things
CHANGE things
Allow things
to PROMOTE
YOURSELF
GENUINELY
BE REAL
You deserve to
others desire
THE REAL YOU
but most importantly
SO DOES YOURSELF
BE REAL

since a smartphone came
we all have became more dumb
just ask your smartphone

No more reading maps
the bookshelves are all bare now
its all in your palms

smartphones own us all
kidnapping our brain power
but we worship them

whenever step-dad
went to his hole in the wall
he always made them

You know your destiny
you know your plan
but this______
keeps messing
it up for you

Pounds of heartache
answered with
equal ounces of beer

Pounds of disappointment
answered with
equal ounces of liquor

Pounds of hurting
answered with
equal ounces of ****

Pounds of me ****** up
answered with
equal ounces of tears

Pounds of mistakes
answered with
equal ounces of grief

Pound for pound
I answer everything
equally leaving me

UNBALANCED

Don’t fear the mirror
open your eyes
look past the disguise

Don’t fear the past
open your eyes
quit reliving for then

Don’t fear the present
open your eyes
this is your time now

Don’t fear the future
open your eyes
look forward to change

I fear
but I’m not afraid
I hurt
but I do not bleed
I cry
but I won’t shed a tear
I scream
but you won’t hear a sound
I work
but I love my job
I try
but you may not agree
I love
but in a different way
I talk
but she never heard a word
I left
but I wanted to stay
I change
but I didn’t always know how
I wish
she could see that
I miss
her more than anyone
I pretend
the pain is gone
I distract
myself to cope with it
I pray
I’ll be able to move on
I remain
victim to heartbreak

I refused to stop
the ball got dropped
staring at the top
from rock bottom
walking, talking
living proof of
no education
raised by suffering
nurtured by patterns
NO OUTSIDE EVALUATION
proclaiming the damage
all generations victims
all generations with symptoms
our family tree a pandemic
all born into the sickness
WE ALL ARE CONTAGIOUS
the vaccination needed
still yet to come
MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS