Time will tell
tall tales of fate
REGARDLESS
My thoughts
or ideas of us
REMINDER
We cannot
predict the future
REALITY
We may be
mad at eachother  
RIGHT-NOW
But who knows
what tomorrow brings
REASSURANCE
So stop with
the preconceived notions
REMEMBER
Time can heal
all our wounds

............EMOTIONS
         M  V         N              
           O   E       O
          T      R     I
         I          Y THING
          O            O
        N             M
        SNOITOME

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ GET IN
THE WAY OF
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YES, NO
I DON’T KNOW
MAYBE
OR
WITHOUT A DOUBT
I’M 100’/. SURE
SOLD
OR
THERE’S NO WAY
I REFUSE TO BELIEVE
LIE

NO LOGIC
WHEN EMOTIONS
ARE INVOLVED
FEELINGS GET
IN THE WAY
OF LOGIC

Change inevitable
adapt and own it
Create reality
from perception
transform yourself daily
grow in every variable possible
a centimeter further
is as good as a mile
advancement is key
regardless the hurdles
life could always be better
so strive to be better
change inevitable
so adopt it and nurture it
raise it to become
something and someone
stronger the longer you live
the more you should give
in every variable possible
love, pain, weakness, strength
an ounce more
is as good as a gallon
baby steps
gives us distance
separating us
from our demons
so CELEBRATE the little things
knowing the happiness they bring us might be the DIFFERENCE in making us
a BETTER person
be forgiving knowing
no one is perfect nor deserves the pressure of feeling they have to be in a world that strives based on DIFFERENCES we all don’t need to be the SAME, lame that would be to think you should live up to my expectations rather than your OWN
for yourself, life is an infinite amount of battles until death we won’t know who won the war unless we quit fighting before our time comes , refusing to move a centimeter or give an ounce , no hope at that point , waste of space , give-up
LOSE, I’ll keep crawling, struggling, moving, getting back up, fighting, regardless the obstacles I’m going to try to
WIN, I suggest you do the SAME

I gave up on god
there’s only myself to blame
I can’t trust in faith

No more asking why
no more blaming someone else
no more excuses

I gave up on god
there’s only myself to name
I can’t accept him

No more blaming him
no more defending myself
no more excuses

I gave up on god
there’s only myself to shame
I can’t avoid it

No more pretending
no more relying on him
no more excuses

Emotions
twirling
Insecurities
swirling
Heart
hurting
Mind
wandering
Thoughts
crossing
Fears
absorbing
Pain
resulting
In
my
LIFE
journey

Lately I’m not myself
I think
thats good
who I was before
I’m told
wasn’t good
it’s hard for me
to read
to dissect
to leave good feedback
for others
for friends
even my undeserving family
I’m sorry
it’s a
phase I’m going through
I apologize
to those
to who
to you, him, her
My flaws
are greater
than my strength sometimes
it’s sad
it’s mad
it kills me inside
to hide
to write
to fight these demons
hang on
let go
either way I understand
I didn’t
try to
ever plan this ever
but it’s
the reality
of my current situation
it’s hopefully
only just
a phase right now
not later
not again
but it’s who I
AM NOW

I was beneath the lowest point in life looking up with my curious face, catching tears of happiness from the ones that rest above

As I tried to climb myself up out of the hole I dug, I eventually gave up and fell face first in the bottomless pit

Completely submerged at the bottom of everyone else’s sorrows, pain, fears, joy, happiness, love and heartbreak

They all continued to walk on me as they tried to make their way to a better place further up the chain regardless the bloodshed from the weaker souls below......

I drowned

New place
new face
new steps to take
I can’t keep
chasing these dreams
retracing old steps
from others paths
they carried
me down
I must move on
I can’t give up
so close
but yet
far away
One step
one day
gets us all closer
​​​​​​​just try

The front door is unlocked
yet it houses your most prized possessions

But the safe is fireproof, hid and locked yet it houses items of monetary value

The jewelry, the cash, the titles, the deed, the marriage certificate and etc

It all can be replaced, it all can be gradually moved on from
FORGOTTEN

But our family members, friends and loved ones will never be
FORGOTTEN

Confused
abused
twisted
listed
as a
lost cause
to who
who cares
they don’t
otherwise
i wouldn’t
feel
this way
GONE

Your words are encouraging
but your actions contradict them every-time

If only your actions were encouraging and your words contradicted them

I could learn to drown out the words but I cannot drown out the pain

Your name
caught in
crossed thoughts
crosshairs
your face
captured results
my faults
give in
thinking now
thinking how
you were
my everything
and now ....
just a
distant memory
I hold
CLOSE
when I’m
ReMiNdEd
Of you
of us
but now
but how
You’re gone
forever
lost
from my
grasp
of my
fingertips
FREE

Freestyle is fun
keeps you sharp
it’s like a game
no shame in the
CREATIVITY
I’ve yet to be
STUMPED .....

Her body
my Playground
her emotions
step ladder
always raising
herself up
each step
I take
the closer
I get
her skin
impatiently waits
for my hands
to take
control
and
press these
fingertips against
her flesh
I move quick
Until I get close
then I slowly
approach
barely brushing
against her
skin
working my
palms
pressing firmly
in her sweet spots
pressure points
my favorite place
to show special attention
as I take
the tip of my
fingers
applying firmly
to the center
of the crevice and slowly
releasing and rotating like a merry-go round
as it stops
quick pressure to the center
and quick release
the stress pours out
and she moans in relief
whispers from my soft lips
to her ears as I complete each sentence with soft nibbles and slide my tongue around the outer edges being extra careful around her earrings
my right  hand slips and slides flat against her back with the warm oil as it eventually stops at her lower back , my left hand holding her left side of her head slightly tilting it as our faces connect and we kiss
MAKE-OUT
dimples on her back become acquaintances with my index and ring finger calling my name as I press firmly and pull my lips away from hers   ......

Desires to want to create poetry medicine drown out the temptation to dance with words

Give in to the questions
reply with false answers
not because you lie
but because you try
to become, run and hide
lose your falsifity
to an honest try

Giving up ..... Nah
Working hard .....Uhuh

What is
NORMAL

What is
RIGHT

What is
ABNORMAL

What is
WRONG

WHAT IS
what is

*******
it is

GO WITH YOUR
HEART

*****
EVERYTHING ELSE

Liver and onions 
both making you cry 
One from to much 
DRINKING 
the other from 
slicing with a knife

Listen
Whisper
Call
My Jane means
Gear talk to grin
Lost sold caught give in
****** skins
Slims cigarette burns
Put out fires with
Liars that spit out
Watered down values
WORDS

To be or not too
to be that is the question
I choose not to be

See me , see me not

Enjoy me , enjoy me not

Tie me , tie me knot

TWISTED

Popularity doesn’t make mental health healthy

Nor does being unpopular

but learning to be yourself and being happy with who that is .....well that creates growth !

Anticipate wanted change.........
Desire needed change..........
OR better than both.........
Create change ...........

Heart to brain
feelings travel
entering unmindful
and then converted into
Words
exiting mindfully
leaving your mind
Empty

That very moment after those words leave, is when you really think about what you said and however you feel then is your conscious speaking without feelings.

Nopeful Hope

Look.........ahead!
you can control that up there.

12 days ......
may not seem long

12 days ......
I’m still going strong

12 days ......
the longest I’ve ever went

12 days ......
since alcohol has been absent

12 days ......
working hard

12 days ......
choosing to discard

12 days ......
is just the beginning

12 days ......
the start to a pattern ending

Just when my love generator started running rough, I decided to give it a tune-up. It seemed to run better afterwards  but never as good as it did before that last breakup. That was until she came along and created a new spark, with little effort it started right up and ran..... ran real good.

Don’t bring a knife to a gun fight.

Don’t bring a gun to a work
fight.

I’m not a treadmill
nor am I a welcome-mat
but you keep walking

“Two heads are better than one“
“The more the merrier”

Are two heart halves better than one? Because I felt happier when it was one.

0-60 in 3.4 seconds
0-heartbreak in 4.5 years

Why celebrate your birthday once a year ? When you can celebrate it two times a day .....AM and PM

SEPTEMBER 8th
equals
9:08 AM
and
9:08PM

Here’s a lifelong tip
always be yourself in life
it’s all you can be

NOTHING REALLY DOES
BUT THAT IS  LIFE GO WITH IT
OR OTHERWISE DON’T

Simon says sit, you sit down
Simon says you are worthless
You get mad at him !
Oh you don’t believe him ?
Well ....... why do you believe your ex ?

Crazy and lazy
a bad combination
I know what it takes
to fix me but it’ll require
a ton of work

Poetry has no
ability to judge me
so I open up

We’re both feeling
the pain
from the strain
in our hearts
it’s in our brain
it’s every-other THOUGHT
in our minds
so let’s quit thinking
even if just for a day
and night
let’s quit fighting
the demons
from lost love
Together you and I
LET’S PRETEND
we are all better
let’s take these
broken hearts
of ours
and mend two halves
TOGETHER
I know it won’t fix
what has been broken
I know
when tomorrow comes
we will still be hurting
but all that proves is
we are guilty of loving
with all we got
We got a room
on the water
the forecast is calling
for beautiful weather
so let’s put down
our heartbreaks
from others
that discarded us
and together
LET’S PRETEND
and even if
just for one day and night
let’s give up the fight
and put our battles
on hold
let’s warm the cold
let’s put
our best foot forward
and take a break
from heartbreak
You and I together
LET’S PRETEND

You deserve better
I know it’s hard to believe
their flaws aren’t your fault

Fake news everywhere
why can’t we just hear the truth
it will set us free

Monsters are to real
they don’t live under my bed 
but one’s in Mom’s bed

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THINK

Weak people say perception is reality !

Strong people know reality is their perception !

Which came first
the chicken or the egg ?
Or better yet .....
Which came first
you or me ?

How many generations
carry the burdens

Of yesterday’s problems
and deliver them to

Tomorrow’s newcomers
rather than acknowledging

A much needed change
and ending the age old cycle

I hate love
that’s just the
heartbreak talking
not me personally

I love love
that’s just the
optimism speaking
not me personally

I want love
unconditionally
that’s me speaking
personally

When that happens
if it truly exists
Then I’ll take a stand
and have a voice

I’ll tell people
they are stupid
for hating love
and I’ll tell people  
they are smart
for loving it

But until then
I’ll let my
feelings
do the
COMMUNICATING

But until then
I’ll remain
BITTER