From not quite ripe
to heavily bruised
within little time

It’s not my fault
I’m unwanted
but rather my
shelf life

TIME

Time will tell
or so they say
I’ve heard otherwise
or so I say
How about you?
what’s your take?
Time eventually
will run out
Then what
takes place
You only know
what they want you to
You only hear
what they say loud enough
You only see
what they allow you to view
Time cannot
set you free
Time cannot
uncover the lies
Because even time
can be taken away from you
Just like life
they go hand in hand
Face the facts
you just seek
What it is
you desire
Waiting will **** you
LITERALLY

0-60mph in 3.2 seconds
0-depressed in 2.4 seconds

An eye for an eye
EQUAL
counterparts
TWO
worlds across
ONE
disappointed face
****
spoke the mouth
WORDS
take the place of
ACTIONS
go willingly unheard
IGNORED
even by myself
FACT
in disbelief of the
MAN
I have become
RUN
from the truth
HIDE
eye to eye
LOOK
for the truth
VIEW
the pain and anger
CHANGE
but only if
YOU
decide too

Scream, yell
tell a tall tale
the tallest ones
always tell
THEMSELVES
without speaking
one word

Ignore me freely
but please beware of the trap
my words captivate

A world
in a world
Hidden from
the people within
An experiment
within a world
inside another one
The outsiders looking in
paying dues to disrupt us
Making bets on threats to come
laughing at the ignorance
among us, wondering how…
WE COULD BE SO DUMB!
wondering how?
WE COULD BE SO CONTROLLED!
wondering how?
We believe one thing but let it be taken away.
FREEDOM, we are free
gained from deaths
of many loved ones
from war that was
defending our
FREEDOM…..
SUPPOSEDLY
I CALL *******
it’s all just “politics”
Profit driven
entertainment filled
humanity killed
expensive thrills
the outsiders fund
to get their socks off
from looking in
At:
A world
in a world
Hidden from
the people within

There’s a hurricane
amidst these eyes
as the waves of tears
confront the fears
dramatically washing
down to shore
There’s a forest fire
amidst this heart
as the flames of Hell
engulf the lies
burning the passion
leaving pain behind
There’s a tornado
amidst this mind
as the funnel of thoughts
violently get tossed
contradicting each-other
with lost feelings
GONE

Menu diluted
open to all
I go to
the meat case
and face only
the best cuts
CORNDANCE TAVERN
home of
locally sourced meats
handpicked, only by
THE BEST
Also known for their
BOURBON
Meat and Liquor
AGED to
PERFECTION
paired with
four cheese asparagus
along with Yukon Potatoes
and a much needed
craft beer:
ZOMBIE DUST
I know most parents
hate school shopping
but I enjoy it
especially when it’s time
for LUNCH

Attention desired
in order to feel
IMPORTANT
Insecurities desired
attention to feel
SECURE
Wether good or bad
attention granted
REALITY
Seek what you deserve
not what you’ve learned
DIFFERENCE
Lose your”self”
in order to find
YOURSELF

I’m a fixer up
borderline condemned before
to livable now

I’m comfortable
working on final touches
what a difference

For all who gave up
on me and my past baggage
I cannot blame you

Your desire to quit
really spoke volumes to me
but it still hurts now

My heart, mind and soul
are no longer made from straw
nor are they from sticks

My remodeled life
has slowly, one by one been
constructed with bricks

TOUGH

10 days
7:30am to 9pm
120 customers  
12 salespeople
HIGH ENERGY
GO GO GO GO
9pm and it’s quitting time
but the energy present
doesn’t just turn off
Fresh shower
wide awake now
10pm leads to 2am
Oh **** in 5.5 hours
I have to be up again
in order to do it all over again
100 degree days
working on black pavement
The sun never missing a day
8 shades of red from burnt skin
averaging 8 miles a day
In a mall parking lot
trying to move metal
NO NO NO NO
Is all I hear, literally all day
mental warfare
BRAIN DAMAGE
I’m wore out
my body is sore
my skin is like leather
my ears have had enough
my brain ******* hurts
but I finished the job
10 units delivered
$64500.00 in front end
GROSS PROFIT
Averaging $8000 a copy
YEAH I’M A STUD
One week off
then off to Texas
For the start of
a four week run
Waco Texas to
Edinboro Pennsylvania
and back to Texas
for two more weeks
and then a full month off
But for now I must rest,
recover and turn my brain
OFF

Yourself
must come first
BEFORE
Others
can come first
MENTAL-HEALTH
So
please help yourself
BEFORE
Others
keep coming last

Motivation
in moderation
never over the top
STOP
Dedication
lacking moderation
always over the top
GO
Believe in yourself
nonstop, in abundance
lacking moderation
over the top, never…..
STOP
remain dedicated to yourself
and motivation will never lack
GO

Fire
No alarms
Just charms
Arms of others
No masks on
WHO GIVES A ****
we all get along
We don’t need parents
We have no
PRINCIPLES
“detention”
WE ALL BELONG
among the flame
among the smoke
We all get lost
in the
FLAME

Hereditary
SCARY
Carry the burdens
Within my
DNA
Regardless
the growth
My memory
of the pain
Will never be
GONE
Ever
Never
WILL I FORGET
The ****
that they dealt
ME
but
since I realized
the life
I have !
REALIZED
the importance
of accepting the
PAST
Dissecting it
and
the importance
of
MOVING-ON
GROWTH
The blood
I was
made from
may be thicker than
WATER
BUT
never
HAVE I
been treated worse
from a stranger
than my own
BLOOD

Make them to break them
RULES
Make them to fake them
GOALS
How about you just do what’s
RIGHT
How about you just do what’s
NEEDED
Make yourself make yourself
SUCCEED

It hurts me to do without
SHOUT
SCREAM
quit being mean
You know I
MISS YOU

I’m hurt and battered
my heart is shattered
my enemies all feel flattered
SCATTERED
DISAPPEARED
Sincere
I fear
NO ONE
NOR
MYSELF

A meal among friends

A meal among family

A meal among strangers

Food the universal language

NEVER TAKE A MEAL FOR GRANTED

NEVER TAKE PEOPLE FOR GRANTED

EVERYONE DESERVES TO EAT

Puff puff pass please now
now as in ungrateful free
puff puff pass pleasd NO

She’s a ****** bro
no she’s not, she had a son
well so did Mary

His only son gone
sacrificed for forgiveness
I wouldn’t my son

Life is a Rubik’s cube
keep trying and stay focused
It can be magical
hocus pocus
when you get
all the colors
to line up
SOLVED

He killed himself
how could he do that
He had a family
that relied on him
He killed himself
we assume he’s selfish
For all we know
he killed himself,
to save everyone else
from his demons
He saved everyone else
from himself forever
SUICIDE

Life hates me
Life loves me
Life is so unpredictable
It wasn’t until
I realized
this “Life” is mine
My life loves me
My life is GOOD !

I’m tired of being a sheep
So I tried being the sheep dog
I’m tired of being a dog
So I tried just being me
I’m tired of trying
So……..
I give up
on trying
to fit in……

The noose said it will rain today
the news said there was another shooting
the noose said Covid was on the rise
the news is IRRELEVANT
break free and base decisions off your own feelings not people that get paid to SELL RATINGS

How many years
will we live in fear
of the unknown

How many generations
will still feel the same way
we do now

How many wars, pandemics, natural disasters, mass shootings, etc

How many? I ask myself.
Fear does keep the
economy going

I fear living in fear
an entire life more than
fear itself

BE FEARLESS

EYE WITNESS
to unforeseen doings
of oneself through
a recognition of
PATTERNS
Guilt settles in
within the buzz
removing the numbness
DUMB
Mental notes taken
recollection of them
creates self awareness
LEARN

There’s a war overseas
There’s a war outside
There’s a war in the sky
There’s a war worldwide  
The war I’m most concerned
about, is the war inside my
MIND

Deep thoughts
lead to deep decisions

Deep decisions
lead to deep thinking

Deep thinking
leads to deep thoughts

“Deep decisions,
scare the **** out of me!”

I’m deep thinking
aloud again…..

The hands like daggers rotating in orbit, moving in time, creating measurement, from beginning to an end. All of this amidst a clear face, trapped within a black back, inked and pressed against a soft white, face to face I countdown as I get lost with time
DEADLINE

For every person
that told me
I wasn’t
GOOD-ENOUGH

For every person
that told me
I wasn’t
WORTHY

For every person
that treated me
horribly
ABUSE

For every person
that took advantage
of me
WILLINGLY

For every person
that put themself
before me
SELFISH

I used to
think I deserved
all of you
WHOLEHEARTEDLY

Until I learned
to love myself
for who I am
SELF-DISCOVERY

To every person
who treated me
like dog ****
I FORGIVE YOU

Because I realize
as I have grown
it wasn’t me
that caused you
all of the
PAIN

But rather yourself
from everyone else's
actions and words
creating self-hate
INSECURITIES

I recommend you
focus on yourself
and quit deflecting
your past flaws
focusing on
EVERYONE ELSE

There’s one person
I listen to
he looks me
dead in the
EYES

His reflection no-longer
scares me anymore
because I finally
LOVE MYSELF

Each day is a piece
three-hundred and sixty-five
pieces in total

YEARLY

Every day counts
just as much as the other
so don’t lose any

DAYS

Time, is the one thing
IMPOSSIBLE to get back
so enjoy your life’s

PUZZLE

Life is just a game
so quit working to survive
you can play to win

Imagine a place
where your face
looks confident
Amidst a space
where you’re safe
without any doubt
Where your voice
no longer screams
but instead sings
Away from fears
from past years
and insecurities
A world in which
you can switch
and forever ditch
your past flaws
No longer
feelings undesired
they are retired
your now
whole again
Dressed in
new attire
feeling proud
and rediscovered
uncovered from sin
Horns, thorns , torn
GONE
Right, wrong
left, right
up, down
don’t exist
Only one way
for you to go
to know
to show
No stress from
OPTIONS
CHOICES
DECISIONS
SUBCONSCIOUS
SHUT OFF
Just be yourself
ACCEPTED
APPLIED
NO VOCABULARY
NOR WORDS
ONLY FEELINGS
WITH PURE THOUGHTS
OF ENERGY
No turmoil
no regrets
JUST SUCCESS
FOR EVERYONE
All LOVE
No hate
Second guessing
GONE
Everyones mind
STRONG
MENTAL HEALTH
No need for
AWARENESS
there’s nothing wrong
PERFECT
Would a place
or space like this
exist I ask myself
WITHIN MY DREAM
If one bite could be
REVERSED
and WORDS that were
HEARD were honored
by the ones that were
SUPPOSED TO LISTEN
To a GOD versus a snake
that took ADVANTAGE of
US ALL , not just them
SO WE PAY FOR
DECISIONS
Of others
Why not
PUT US
IN THAT PREDICAMENT
and let us
DECIDE our fate
As I awake from my daydream
from a phone ringing
As it almost falls off my leg
I catch it and see
AN APPLE WITH A BITE
OUT OF IT
I-PHONE
Could it be
THE MARK OF THE BEAST
***-***-XXXX
We know they record us
WE KNOW THEY TRACK US
We know they market to us
BASED ON CONVERSATIONS
just like the snake
ALWAYS IN OUR EARS
wait maybe this isn’t a dream
BUT RATHER A NIGHTMARE

Rehearse
NOTHING
Raw emotions
I ink
My feelings
Become known
SHOWN
For the world
To see
AGREE
OR
NOT
DISAGREE
It’s okay
We all don’t
Need to believe
The same things
In a world
Where we
find things
of difference
TO HATE
CREATE
PAIN
rather than
LOVE
EXPOSE
the ones
Who fake
to make
HOPE
Let’s lay
to rest
Let’s pass
the test
Let’s do
OUR BEST
and FOCUS
on just being
GOOD HUMANS
forget the rest

Fill in the blanks
think
to your strengths
recognize
your weaknesses
then
decide the change
become
who you deserve
along
with them too
decide
now you win
live
the good life
become
the one they need
WIN

I told you I’ve changed
you agreed I have
You told me, you heard
the old me today
I told you, indeed you had
you replied, that scared me
I told you it scared me too
but that side of me
IS THE SIDE
YOU BRING OUT
I told you don’t blame me
you disagreed with my thoughts
You told me you still fear me
I replied, you scare me too
Let’s agree, we aren’t
good for each-other  
I told you today
we both just needed closure
To be able move on
let not fear hold us back
But rather the doubt
that brings fear to light
You told me,
it’s time to move on
I told you, I couldn’t agree more
I’ll still miss “us”
but from the good memories
we shared
My precious
long lost love
it’s time
we both move on

Life can be stressful
all we need to focus on
is survival mode

Within a world
there’s a world
Within our minds
thoughts get lost
separating from
what we want
as they crash into
insecurities, feelings
and mental roadblocks
the past dictating
the future and by doing so
it continues to resemble
the world we try to
stay away from
but in reality
we only get
drug deeper in
as worlds collide
distracting us from
who we could become
we remain the same
a world inside a world
all created within our minds
where reality is blinded
by insecurities, feelings
and mental roadblocks
lost I remain
amidst the pain
as one day bleeds
into the next
as one problem solved
leads to another being created
as one world
slowly gets manifested
into another one
an age old problem
I just can’t seem
to be able to FIX

Don’t say you love me
and don’t act like you love me
you haven’t hurt me

Mushrooms to powder
ziplock bag full
Pour me another handful
lick it from my palms
Rob quit thinking
turn your brain off
Get lost in the night’s sky
from Mother Nature’s
MOON DUST

Earth, wind and fire 
Mother Nature’s remedies 
relaxing at night 
​​​​​​​

A home has a foundation
keeping it grounded
A teenager has parents
keeping them grounded
Both extra necessary
when weathering storms
and adult encounters
many storms a lifetime
No concrete
keeping them grounded
No parents
keeping them grounded
Mental Health
is extra necessary
When weathering storms
to stay healthy
Always be strong
and keep YOURSELF GROUNDED

Cage of rain
shelter tree
leaves keep me
dry under branches
holding them high
Mother Nature’s Gazebo

The voices in my head
used to tell the darkest tales
Their advice was horrible
telling me to be invulnerable
knowing the damage has already been done
but now I refuse to listen
to the abuse from the past
present, moving forward
GONE

I miss you more than time could ever show, the thought of life without you kills me more than the sorrow from the first time I lost you but now you’re mine and I cannot accept the line that expresses you may not miss me the way that we both know should be expressed! Love

If I could comprehend these feelings
You
all could love me
But I
cannot
I’m sorry