Downbeat, leaning down,  appearance insecure, unhealthy heart, mind filled with doubt and 
I'M FEELING BAD

Upbeat, standing tall, 
appearance confident,
healthy heart, mind filled with 
everything but doubt and 
I'M FEELING GOOD

Spend money like it's
nothing
to me its nothing
but numbers 
Spend energy like it's 
SOMETHING 
to me its everything
but simple-math

Get your point across 
We all know you always do 
but we still love you

Signs unnoticed on 
purpose 
A familiar reflection of 
guilt 
Change needed but never 
planned 
Fears of possibly failing 
preventing 
Motivation from kicking 
in 
Mediocre is all i'll ever 
be 
Caught in the middle 
of 
Heaven and Hell until the day 
comes 
Suspense of thee unknown
comforting 
One question still with no 
answer 
Was I created, born or
raised 
THIS WAY, WHO IS RESPONSIBLE?
FOR MY MISFORTUNES?
WHO?

Rays of light crash through the waves of the sky 
Shinning bright on you and me from a massive star 
Various shades of soft blue 
reflect from the waves below 
Without the ups and downs of life would we be blessed?
Thoughts of optimism respond back happily "No we would not"
Maybe its just the combination of the warmth from the sun
and the Vitamin D my body is absorbing talking
It's funny how little things can have huge impact on our days decisions

To be conditioned 
never to notice others 
that may need our help