I pretend to forget
kids are starving 
I have a sports car 
a badass truck
I make 120k a year 
doing what I love 
I own a camper 
I can park anywhere 
I have a condo
in Michigan 
and stay in 5 star hotels 
all across the country 
But yet theres people
with no running water 
So to tell you 
I struggle with faith 
shouldnt leave you puzzled 
How can I have all of this
Knowing some have nothing 
and to the ones
that feel good they give 
I bet its never enough 
to help all out 
but yet still 
you are doing just fine 
Is this our fault 
or is it even mine 
That this mind 
OF MINE 
works this way
Maybe it is, maybe its 
NOT 
who really ******* knows 
I work hard 
but to some 
thats not even 
an option 
FrEeDoM isnt FREE 
when you have a conscious

D.T.I.P
please 
Its not 
your fault 
D.T.I.P
we know 
you 
deserve 
way better 
D.T.I.P
please 
understand 
I did 
love you 
D.T.I.P
I accept 
full 
responsibility
for
my actions 
D.T.I.P
just know 
I still 
love you 
more than 
ever
D.T.I.P
I've
changed 
for 
the better 
D.T.I.P
I 
finally 
became 
better 
D.T.I.P
I 
finally 
b­ecame 
what 
you needed
D.T.I.P
you 
never 
got 
through
to me 
D.T.I.P
you were 
the motivation 
until you 
went missing 
gone 
I never 
heard 
your words 
or accepted 
the truth 
reality 
D.T.I.P
because you 
still could 
be with me 
But please 
D. Dont 
T.Take 
I. It
P. Personal
i finally grew 
and became a man 
that you thought
I never could 
be
D.T.I.P

"Write," people say.
"It'll help with the pain."
But what if every time I pick up a pencil
I only go more insane?

I stay in my depression.
I can't say I'm brave.
I'm stuck on this merry-go- round
and I no longer want to play.

It doesn't make me stronger.
It only makes me sadder.
If this goes on any longer
I know I will decay.

Writing is a reminder
of where and how I went wrong.
It reminds me of the regrets,
I'm hearing the same old song.

So when people tell me to write
I want to sit and scream.
All I ever wanted was
to leave this dreadful dream.

Is it you?
The one that is gone 
the one that lost life 
For you are no longer here
disappeared from this earth 
A true place of sin 
Hell on earth especially now 
Are you the victim?
for the inevitable took place 
You are no longer here 
you are heavily missed 
Are you the victim?
Or is it all of us ?
We are still here 
we still have life 
We havent disappeared 
from this sin filled earth 
We lost you and we are forced alone, without you 
Are we the victim ?
Or are we just being selfish?
We know you are in a better place , regardless ones faith, we know it cant be worse than here 
You no longer have pain, you no longer have fears, you no longer are living in a sin filled world 
Are you the victim ?
Or is it us ?
Can you still see me, wherever you are? If so can you believe me, when i say " when i lost you, i lost who i was" and if so, does it **** you, like the loss of you did my spirits and if so is my reaction causing you to be the victim from the sorrow you see in my eyes? 
Are you the victim? 
Or is it us, the ones that love you and hate that you're gone?

Take a hard look
In the mirror
Do you see
The trace
Where once
Was your face
Now is fading
Stranger in
the mirror
Don’t know
Who you are
Nothing left
But the
Broken glass
It’s never been
So clear
Why I’m
Standing here
I need to make
A change

A heart filled with hope is a heart filled with doubt, for one wouldnt need to seek more than the known, If one had a heart filled with faith

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                 MORAL:S

Life isn't a journey
                 but rather a path 
Purpose isn't discovered 
                    but rather found 
Happiness isn't given
           but rather a decision 
       Love isn't granted 
but rather formed 
       Lead with your heart,
             decide with your mind 
         Let your morals
   be the compass
               and you will, 
                   NEVER BE LOST