Every pore a sensor
every movement accounted for
Every word heard and dissected
every feeling selected
Every tone detected
every emotion elected
Every single aspect about you
accepted or misdirected
every attempt to remove me from this shell
Every attempt to save me from this hell
every smell picked up on
Ever since i was young
every detail was important
Every single situation
ever created I had to pay attention
Every single second, I had to live in the moment
SCARED

"Dont worry about what others think".........How many times have we heard that ?

A lot less than all the times we have acceptingly been judged!

Day 1, we are born, pictures of us blasted all over the internet showing us off.

Every check up we go to as youth, whispers go heard about our growth

And where we fit on the charts compared to who ?
everyone

Every single first day of school, all eyes on us, dress to impress

School picture day, lets profit off these kids images and apply more unnecessary pressure

Quarterly report cards, graded papers, parent teacher conferences

Who cares about your life changes and puberty, you must do better

Lets not forget sports try-outs, you made it, he *****, shes cut

JUDGEMENT

To think this all isnt pressure is ridiculous to know we measure A-Z on everyone from day one

"Dont worry about what others think"........How many times have we heard that?

Character is successfully built on a foundation formed from caring

Dont take these judgements more seriously or give more importance than:

The heart that beats behind the scenes subject to all these judgements

" People dont care how much you know until they know how much you care"

Blood and flesh over ink and paper, in person acknowledgement

VERSUS

Preconceived notions, the death potion to humanity as it kills all :
HOPE
FAITH
DREAMS
RESPECT
KINDNESS
CHARACTER

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Horrorscope
from
Virgo
to
Virgone
All
my
things
i
had
to
have
Now
in
a
box
placed
on
the
sidewalk
As
she
yelled
"Get
the
****
out"
From
the
door-
step
Four
years
of
mad
love
bad
love
Finally
she
got
me
out!
Will
work
for
love
SIGN
Lie
She
knows
just
as
I
do
I'm
not
capable
Damaged-
goods

Life like an onion
Each year another layer
Leaving me in tears

Difference relevant
various forms
False measurements
begin to form
Shape shifting
slowly creating
An internal stranger
no acquaintance
Unfamiliar figure
visions blurred
Absent shadow
wipe your eyes
Fogged mirrors
reflect unwanted imagery
Who have i become?
Sweaty palms
dry skin
Bloodshot eyes
dandruff hair
Stubble beard
look of despair
Anger fills your mind
false illusions
Of the previous night
leave a cloud of doubt
One thing is certain
and that is......
The "HOW"
before accepting fault
You quickly engage
telling yourself
In the back of your mind
it's not your fault
Keep playing the victim
knowing your plenty capable
Traumatic childhood
left in the past
Never realizing
the importance
It will have on the present
the same childhood friend
That got you through it all
now is the biggest culprit
Allowing your mind
to pretend its never your fault
Imagination, always their
to save the day
Allowing yourself
to procreate
Thoughts of weakness
ability to misdirect
The tough conversations
your favorite sidekick
An all purpose tool
for all occassions
Especially the ones
that put you on the spot
Preventing yourself
from overcoming the past
Allowing you, to live a lie
lets not forget
Although its a small circle
we both know **** well
Creativity shows up
Imagination's favorite
friend
They saved you as youth
kept your mind
off all the abuse
They made being poor
not seem so tough
They got you through
some really bad breakups
Hell! they both
were the majority
of the responsibility
For everytime
a girl fell in love
You expect me to believe
these two childhood friends
I have always been able
to count on
The very two
that always had my back
The very two
No one could ever
take me from
They have now transformed
allowing insecurities
to be easier to hide
All the training over the years
were only suppressing
Allowing me to avoid
keeping me weak
Allowing my mistakes
always to be justified
Things aren't always
as they seem
R..AD
B..T. ..EN
..HE
L..N..S
Don't become
that someone
That will allow
your past
From preventing
self-love
Be someone
that you will
Not have to
learn to love
When you can
GAURANTEE
THE REFLECTION
looking back
Is exactly who
You want to see
Often its
the in between
That is literally
the actual message
We can't, always be
focusing on literal terms
When we have
STRONG MINDS
to interpret what we see
Into what it means
Into what we believe
and everything in between
INTERPRET

Before and after
The fake laughter
Never noticed
Surrounded by doubt
She sees that within him
She knows his past
She knows what she wants
She lives in the moment
She saw through the fear
Energies collide
Passion never questioned
But what we want
Isn't always in our time
Lost in those moments
Lost in her eyes
I would gladly
Give the rest of my life
To relive those 60 seconds
Knowing my last moment
I spent breathing
Was looking into
Her knowing eyes
Away from judgement
Before and after
The fake laughter
Before the inevitable pain

Rules are made to be ?
Followed ?
Broken ?
Or to gauge a level of ?
Control !

Rulers are made to be ?
Followed ?
Broken ?
Or to gauge a level of ?
Control !

Dictatorship
or
Democracy
Are the same?

Both
have
One
In complete control!

Person
or
Party
Both with hidden agendas!

Vote
for
Vote
Individually we don't count!

Millions
upon
Millions
Invested with no gaurantee!

Promises
upon
Promises
For all the wealthy!

Insider
trading
Inside
The electoral stock market!

Taxes
upon
Taxes
Delayed for the bidders!

Home
to
House
The super rich and wealthy!

Land
of
Slaves
The working class!

Home
of
The
Fee, it costs us all!

Hell
on
Earth
Politics truly are our sickness!