He says his piece
I say mine
Both flow freely
Hours of hurt
Guided by lawyers
Directed with purpose
With clever questions
and pointed thought
To conclude this matter
So much money for
so little.

He hit me
His fist met my face like an old friend
I backed away

His anguish filled the room
He flung his arms in the air
I backed away

No  future
No past
All just a blow
He hit me

Now it's done
No regret
Deep breath
Humble prayer
Step aside
Glance from side to side
Walk ahead
Relief

Wet above my lip
Sweat  on my legs
I stretch my arms above my head
I turn my face to the side
The itch is consuming as the heat
Hot summer thunder in the distance
The room is close
Surrounded by pillows and white bleached sheets
Let the time never end
Hold me closer
Whisper the secret of my name
Kiss me tender in the heat

I am not that bad.
I played a game.
You played one, too.
I felt the shame.
Alone in that.
Me, held to blame.

You said you had
So much to lose.
It came a time
for you to choose.
I moved back
my heart to bruise.

I am not that bad
I let you go.
It was so deep
and yet not so.
You were the cheat.
I saw you go.

I want to run screaming down the street
Let me go!
Let me go!

I want release
Don't follow me!
Don't follow me!

I want to be free
Leave me be!
Leave me be!

I want to let go
But I can't
But I can't

Crazy in my mind
Trapped in a life I did not choose
Crazy in my mind
No release
Duty is mine
No place of solace
Don't share your guilt with me
Crazy in my mind
Let me be
Just a little peace