i am sick
you don't need to tell me
i get the hints
i'll quit
barking up your tree
cause you hate me
naturally
i'll try
to wipe clean
any trace
of existing

if you read these
i don't know it
i need to talk
though i may not say it
may not show it
i need you
though you already know it

that's the worst

even if you had,
had had my heart
treated it bad
regarded as a fad
moved on at interest's death
not that there was care
anymore, i know it wasn't
a false start
i ruin it all
i sabotage

love for you is easier
i am glad, i am
myself?
i am broken

*******
*******
you came back
not me
you slice wounds open
and stick in your dilator
you love
to see me bleed

it's all overreaction
but not really

i bet you think
i actually
didn't notice

you don't get to sit there
and complain of assumptions
when you make them yourself
when you pass judgement
and say cold things
and get offended
at you offending me

come on over
and watch me
defecate and replicate
a couple new
younglings

we can **** for hours
and if you're good
just to watch
that's fine,
you weird kind

she smiles
and whispers in my ear
something to make me riled
all the while
just writhe