We broke the Tick or the Tock.
  Not sure which but time has never
  been on time ever since. The world's
  out of sync. We were as one in love.
  You speak in whispered echos from
  shadows now. I barely hear or see
  you anymore. I dream of you perfect.
  One of us is dead without the other.

I drink to enjoy a time without judgement.
    Happy hour is a sacred time to dim my past.
    I float above the pain, guilt and unforgiving.
    All is as it should be. Sleep, dream at last.

I drink your wine and listen
to your heart beat louder as
we tangle in sheets and spend
our last nickle for ******.

Humanity unable to be human
breaks my shiver bone's pieces
to choke my spider love again.
Tattooed as my ash blood ceases.

I embrace your sorrow.
I recognize it as my own.
I know your sunken cheeks
of hunger as I know mine.
I think poor and I think
humble but proud, fierce
not looking for a fight
but demanding respect.

In this uncertain world
at this imprecise time
I drink shots of Tequila
with slices of lime.

I snorted the atmosphere
from my ******* spoon
blew out the stars at night
then swallowed the moon.

No longer need to pretend.
At noon I smothered the sun
I brought it all to an end.
We fear God. I killed His son.

In this uncertain world
at this imprecise time
I drink shots of Tequila
with slices of lime.

I snorted the atmosphere
from my ******* spoon
blew out the stars at night
then swallowed the moon.

No longer need to pretend.
At noon I smothered the sun
I brought it all to an end.
We fear God. I had Her gun.

75 and I fell again.
Hurt worse when sober
in the morning sun
in my cold October.

Before I understood love when
I had crushes on girls and teachers
I fell in love with Elizabeth Squires.
She has a kindness few of us have.
She encourages us in the trenches.
She is Aphrodite and Joan of Arc.

Free! I won't have to walk the dogs.
I won't have to put the garbage out.
I won't worry if I can sleep or not.
Am I a drunk? Doesn't matter now.
The guilt that hangs heavy like moss
from the branches of my soul is gone.

If I had a cat I'd call her Quincy.
  If I had a wife I'd call her Jayne.
  If I had a mistress I'd call her up.
  If I had a dog I'd call him Rusty.
  If I could love I'd have a heart of
silk just filled with sawdust.

If I had a heart I'd pray
  If I had a heart I'd stay
  If I had a heart I'd try
  If I had a heart I'd die
  If I had a heart I'd lie
  If I had a heart why?

Is my love a weak whisper?
Is it silent in our loud lives?
You are my contrarian. My trusted advisor.
You mean more to me than you'll ever know.
If I owned the earth I'd make you King.
If I owned my heart I'd make you Queen.

I'd build a symphony for you.
I'd strum folk songs of our love.
You'd hear your song on radio
and tell your friends but they
wouldn't believe you anyway.
You would hum it all day long.

I was hatched into this life.
Egg and ***** agreed to
share a place together.
Happy father and mother.
Parenting is hit and miss
Carousel brass ring
another broken thing.
What else can I bring?

I can't remember her name
but I can't forget her *******
all that remains is shame
like all my drunk regrets.

My life was despair
of my own making
we kissed on a back stair
my vows were breaking

the Summer of love
******* in a halter top
fit me like a glove
I could never stop.

I can't remember her name
but I can't forget her *******
all that remains is shame
like all my drunk regrets.

My life was despair
of my own making
we kissed on a back stair
my vows were breaking

the Summer of love
******* in a halter top
fit me like a glove
I could never stop.

Hungover on a bench
in our own Eden Park
smell of the beauty sins
from screams in the dark.
Pretend marriage in flight
never able to lose the night.

We aren't nuclear wasted
dust lost in wind's burn
one more whiskey tasted
one more Sun we turn.

War or tumor radiation
are we really more dead.
Always fight eradication.
No fear inside my head.

It's coming through a hole in the sky
It's decadence from back in the day
It's coming through a crack in the wall
It's debauchery and she's here to stay.
A time to live and a time to be our time
it might not fit just right but will do  
for our never mind and who really cares
we found our perfect paradise for us two.

I've been unlucky in love. I will
   be rich when I make a risky bet
   on a new innovation. Trust new
   love because you're near 70.
   Just grab for the brass ring
   one more time and remember to
   take your blood pressure meds
   and ******. Update your will.

I don't want to be cruel
to the innocent fool
and innocent lamb.
I hate the me I am.
I set the jackals loose
in hangover noose
scare the grand kid
scar his heart I did.

I hate its expectations
demands and frustrations
tired drools and snores
and all the ****** bores
wandering eyes are trouble
divorce broke kids in rubble.

I hate me. I don't know why.
I want to live in a cocoon
forever. I won't hurt you
again. I'm a live love grenade
never in it for the long run
just a night or two and watching
you go into love's harsh fog.
I'm a live wire in a storm.

I have a dog who seems content with life.
     I don't think he wonders why he's here.
     He doesn't seem interested in math or science.
     He seems more interested in licking himself.
     He loves smelling every **** thing on a walk.
     He pees on things like he's flipping the bird.
     He doesn't worry about bills or taxes or politics.
     He doesn't watch the TV except Animal Planet.
     I know someday he'll die and we will weep and
     envy his ignorance or wisdom, unsure which.

I have bouquets of poems for you.
  They unlock your heart's secrets.
  Open your eyes and read deliverance.
  Please understand a mad poet's love.
  I write of your pain and loss and
  battles you fought and nearly won.

No need to be alone
call me on the phone
pay a temporary loan
buy my love to moan
always time to atone
the bleeding of bone

We all hurt at last
sins outrun our past
party over too fast
the gun a final blast
blood in rain a mask
know better than ask.

You're sleeping with your new shadow
in the bed we bought at IKEA and blessed
with our ******* and swore it was just ours.
I sleep in my bed growing up. I miss us.
The crucifix on the wall haunts my dreams
with you bleeding to death in his broke arms.

I'm God ****** tired of bearing the burden
  of all the failed lovers over the years.
  I fell in love with Snow White and we kissed.
  Blah blah blah it ended with migraines tears.

Do you think
I don't know
I left you to sink
in the undertow?

I know I broke
all that mattered
we never spoke.
I died splattered.

Please just leave.
I don't want to hurt you.
Love is quicksand and
riptides so cruel.
Run for your life!
I'm just love afraid.
It never dies quick.
It will slowly fade.

This poem is born from the same
inkwell as Koko the Clown who
climbed the stairs endless nights
coming for my innocence as I
was still beneath my blankets.
They all come for my purity.
I gave it away at 11 to a Vargas
pin-up girl. I faux loved women
who never stayed my fantasy and
I took forever to breakup so I
wouldn't hurt them but always did.
Dismounting is always painful.

People study me like a Picasso
two heads and eyes to match
all on one side inside a lasso
some kind of legality catch.
I stare at you in your seat
sip your wine at noon's show
I'm frozen for you no retreat
I stare you stare we both know.

Not a ******* second before.
I waste my life day to day but
breathing is precious and I miss
my family and love wine and
**** and breakfast and lunch.
I hope I die in Jayne's arms.

I'll go to hell on an escalator
**** all the god's elevator.
Nobody pushes button HELL.
In the end it's just as well.

You drank too much sorrow
choke in sleep by tomorrow
overnight we had a fight
you took your final flight.

I'll write a song
with music and rhyme
and poetry dripping
like dew from a vine.
I'll steal an orchestra
and God's own choir
and serenade you
to my bed on fire.

Oh, God forgive me
I lost my keys
to Your Kingdom
crawling on my knees
over every piece of me
too drunk to hope to find
Your lost and found
I just step out of my mind.

I had no idea it was happening.
      The world caught fire and I blinked.
      My skin smelled like cooked meat.
      I was hungry and couldn't help myself.
      When I came to strapped down I thought
      I had died. I talked to you with sorrow.
      We spoke of beaches and sand and sun
      and salt that we would visit tomorrow.

Somewhere near puberty
corner of nuns and set me free
I blew up my past for tomorrow
drown guilt in beer and sorrow.
God please forgive my lust
and give me more to borrow.

I had it framed in my mind.
It got caught in a wrinkle of
my brain. Don't worry, baby.
It's frozen in ashes of Pompeii.

I smell your hair
I love you then
we kiss us there
perfect within.

Falling in love is wonderful.
Staying in love is impossible.

I think your synapses and wires and circuits
are state of the art. Your beauty is flawless.
You're a '57 Chevy with a 4 in the floor and
a V8 engine that screams along the highways.

We met in an airport bar on our ways to who
cares anyway? We fell in love and cancelled
flights and left it all to the carrion eaters.
The circus was in town. We went and never left.

I'm torn between intense lust
and a vapid spent reality.
I live above a shop with my *****.
We play at marriage but know better.
My past vows and children haunt me.
When the bill comes due I'm spent,
nothing but debtor's prison of
my own guilt. I love in madness.

I'm an undying romantic.
  My heart has been broken
  time and time again. I always
  go back for more Love's token.

Love is splendid!
Love is never ended.
Lust soars above
mocking her love.

I Love You! Every living one of
you. I think kindly of you all.
Come over for Sunday supper
and bring a dish and stories.

I love you with insane love we shared.
  Nobody else would understand. I'll die
  in a garage with you, my love. Fill me
  with your poison and we'll share death
like lovers in tall grass on a picnic
blanket sharing our first kiss.

I love you with insane love we needed
  nobody else would understand. I'll die
  in a garage with you, my love. Fill me
  with your poison and we'll share death.
You are my youth and desire from back
when it mattered most. I miss you.