You live in shadows of fears. You swim in rivers of tears. Meet me in the promised land. Take my offered helping hand. I'm different from the others. I swear no smothering lovers.
Give me our broke vets under bridges in tents. I give them all money for a cheap pint of honey. Thanks for your service. July 4th makes you nervous 1812 Overture torn apart from bottom of your heart.
I could never find you in the vastness of living. We never shared a beer never found a wedding. You bent chords like I bent my tiny day to day shuffling decks forever without a card to play.
Home Depot. Need a gas can. A woman spraying plants told me where to go. Aisle 3. I was met by John who said his wife had cancer and told me the best gas can to get. I asked about his wife and he said she lost her hair and was sick to her stomach. Hemp oil helped her pains and I promised prayers and the helpless hope we all offer. I found hemp oil on Amazon for her.
Give me our broke vets under bridges in tents. I give them all money for a cheap pint of honey. Thanks for your service. July 4th makes you nervous 1812 Overture torn apart from bottom of your heart.
We see Gatsby's party lights. Brilliant morning sun ignites the colorful bouquet of leaves inside the fragrant ocean breeze. I walk my dog that I call Rusty to *** and **** in sand and sea.
I'm not sure what to say are you in a bad day? Do you need space? Am I leaving this place? Is your garden forbidden? Is your true heart hidden? Just questions, no answers always unknown cancers.
Beauty and perfume I'm in love with you. Drunk and dry spell what else would I do? *** all the week long, eating in then eat out. Turn it up louder song. MIA at work ants shout. What is the fuss about? Fierce *** is never wrong.
I brought you to life in a poem. You'll never love in moderation. Love screams out loud and catches its breath and sleeps 'til noon. Then it happens next full moon.
I never made it to Christmas or Birthdays or school plays. I was drunk and chasing *** to bed somewhere for lays. I know my failure up close live in forever confessions forget me with each dose erase me in shrink sessions.
Deaf to mother's screaming unheard from a waiting room the thorny villain with flask his baby being forced into life is not heard until it's born into blinding light a world of mistakes forgotten on death's lonely wedding bed.
In the old days fathers waited in rooms with bad coffee and fuzzy TV and ashtrays full of butts until the nurse summoned us to the nursery window where we saw a stranger looking like Winston Churchill. We ran to the nearest bar to celebrate the new arrival and hand out cigars and buy rounds for the house until the money ran out. We slept alone in our wedding bed for the first time but not the last.
Train rolls on down the line takes me miles back in time when life was an easy living of just us taking and giving. Now much more is at stake MacArthur Park ruined cake left out in the rain all night spurned lover denies delight. Slits wrists dies in bathtub. Death's feather is final rub.
Forever student at Ohio State, brilliant or simple who knew? Never bathed smelled of B.O. so bad his nickname was Phew. Mascot of comp sci department everywhere on every spectrum pity and love together arrived we all learned to respect him.
I confess and eat penance having sinned I must dance again with my true mistress awed as you slowly undress tempting Eve in the garden God is lost no way to win.
Bless me, Father for I have sinned. I had *** with a nun tasted priests' *** took god's name in some kind of vain. Lied to mom and dad was just kinda bad.
All the good things from my past are past and my future looks like a ghost empty vast. Tremors are worse, memory is going too fast Clocks are breaking and time will never last.
My memory is less than it was before. I can't remember my five wives names. I can't forget thunder of slamming door. I will never heal my cruel inflicted pains.
Her fingernails grow like vampire teeth bleed your back slow when I come I seethe. The hottest heartbeat explodes in lust flame. You're my kindest treat no sin left for any blame.
My bike was broke dad fixed the spoke. My heart was broke Jeanie gave me smoke. Eileen walked forever listened to my bother. Kevin bailed me free I stole dimes for candy. Terry looked other way while I ****** the day.
Is apathy ever free civil war in the bar drunks fight for the right take a stand **** the band bury the hate never too late bury our dead drink instead.
Empathetic. Tear stains. Heart afire and broken. Youth. Broke vows. Broke family. Round the drain. Angel saved me. Broke her heart. Angels saved me. Broke their hearts. Devil saved me. Broke her heart. Queen Jayne saved me as stars in our dark night alone together we do it til we create new light.
I try drawing you from old memories but can't get your eyes right. I don't see the body that destroyed my earnest vows. I can't see your warm young ******* and ******* that grew so hard by my caress. I can't see us dancing naked in the dark. I wish I'd kept the photos. I cremated us in an ashtray and I can't see us anymore.
I lost you in my chaos some hurricane attitude. I've felt the sacred loss inside painful solitude. I look for you everyday in the out of way places we always seemed to stay searching all our spaces. Always holding hands just smelling your hair dream of wedding bands We haven't got a care.
Act I and II are powerful I never have an Act III. Love always turns awful. I have no choice but flee.
Maybe somewhere in between? ****** in *** or Beauty Queen? Living our middle class dream or maybe vomiting Opera Cream. Christ broke my Catholic heart promises we could never keep.
I have a cat with one eye can't control her eating I can't tell you why eats when heart's beating. Leaves ***** art on floor to clean it up seems cruel she always leaves more it turns into a puke duel.
I was born through time and space landed in this crazy bright place furious at light and white beasts with no faces but ******* and feces. I lived parts dealt me rich or poor. Bully or bullied Methadone *****. AA and AlAnon LGBTQ and straight. I always struggled most with weight. I had visions through time and space in Hospice in Morphine dreams place light's candle abandoned the living accepting a blink of eye forgiving.
It's ugly as mortal sin as we crawl to our end. Bette clued me in. Blood thin as vapor skin parchment paper toothless beauty queen we were so beautiful. We sing this Hymn.
I never believed in anything as much as I believed in us. I'll never forget dog breath. You taught me how to trust. You taught me patience and humility and to be kind when it wasn't deserved but atone. I need you more than ever to show me the way back home.