Some die in pain
others in soft rain
of kind Morphine.
Look alive machine
gives the false hope
a pretend tree rope
church choir swinging
from ugly trees singing.

I'm dead desert skulls
listening for living  calls
to arms the second coming
warriors hymns humming
Eat the rich raise the dead
take a Xanax and off to bed.
In morning's light  I blink
in secret dream black ink.

Somewhere near puberty
corner of nuns and set me free
I blew up my past for tomorrow
drown guilt in beer and sorrow.
God please forgive my lust
and give me more to borrow.

I live in Van Gogh's
mad sky of midnight
dance with the ******
settle in our delight.

I keep scarring my heart
with scabs from my tears.
I keep playing my part
for too many years.

The beast blood red Lust
demands a proper fight
**** honesty and trust,
the moon is full tonight.
Shadows die at midnight
troubled dreams of flight
we always die indifferent
like the disobeying kite.

Born in a coal mine town
rarely up mostly down
into a dead cold hell
make a living in a well.

I talked my way
into your broke
smile and *******
Mr. happy woke
tall at attention
the rarest *******
my sweet affection
another misdirection.

Flash of light
blinding night.
Sounds astound
everything caves
explodes insane
death is blind.

A puzzle of lovers at a party
million pieces broken mirrors
matches will set them free
otherwise there's only tears.

The second hand
drags its clock
hour glass sand
to our desert rock
ancient wind land.

I drove to Boston with
  a teacher and a dealer
  and a snake oil healer,
  left family like trash
  burned it down to ash
  in a lightening flash
  shrinks passed me on
  one to another ******
  to stay inside my mind
  and they rob me blind
  calm before the storm
  world's fabric is torn
  hear God's heart beat
  feel hell's cruel heat
  the panic attack I have
  a bus stop on Mass Ave.
  I walk miles to my womb
  my tiny safe attic room.

It dies in neglect
no night kiss notion.
Broke sacred vows
lost in time's ocean.

We filled a bathtub with gin
then we drank it bone dry.
Next day we did it again.
You left and made me cry.

The entity is broke
love is never easy.
Pretty but choke
on my ******.

Who do
voodoo
you do
I do too.
We all do
the voodoo.

I dragged you naked
from the tiny womb
nothings just sacred
make our bedroom
after years of winter
on our Honeymoon.

Try again or slit your throat
the easy way out all she wrote.
Round here we just shake hands
enough to make promises stand.

I arrived on time
through tiny slit
of slickest slime
***** a tiny bit.

I have the restraint
of the holiest saint
I still ****** a nun
black habit was fun.

The doctors keep us meek
we know the pad they keep
just one more script  to sleep
drowning in the black deep.

The things we've been through,
some were lies but mostly true.
We drank our strangest brew,
dreamed our lives, never knew
tomorrow what madness grew
what in love's trance we'd do.

I hate to burden you
with my ugly stew.
I've wreaked havoc
too much on the clock.
I wish I were a pain.
Humanity's stain
died in a **** oven
pity blessed coven.

Do you think
I don't know
I left you to sink
in the undertow?

I know I broke
all that mattered
we never spoke.
I died splattered.

My scarecrow has a brain.
My Tin man has a heart.
Dorothy circles the drain.
She went back to the start
Her lion found his part.
Time moves us all apart.

I remember lovers from years ago.
I don't remember darkness or glow.
Angels and ****** felt the same.
For the life of me I forget their name.

I don't want to be cruel
to the innocent fool
and innocent lamb.
I hate the me I am.
I set the jackals loose
in hangover noose
scare the grand kid
scar his heart I did.

He shouted in a whisper
my name in his phlegm.
I miss you at the end
can we just start again?

I abandoned myself
kids and wife on
Mariana's shelf
reborn my son
staged crazy life
always have fun.

I'm pyramid scheme.
I'm a silent scream.
I Love You forever
alone frozen lover.
Wish upon a star
hide a birth scar.

We call it death
took final breath
why? Cruel ends
god's message sends
next in line to die
don't question why.

The blue pill
The blue rug
In Valiumville
always blue hug

10 keeps me sane
20 I'm a zombie
I know my name
never truly free.

My body on the stainless steel.
They drain my blood out while
pumping life back into in me.
I'm dressed in the latest style.
They make me up like a *****.
I finally look best to please.
Friends never see the corpse.
They only see their memories.

I sit on the curb at the liquor store
until 9 am when it finally serves,
wait for desperate beauty queen.
I talk smooth settle her nerves.
We share a bottle and queen bed
*** was just a lost cause at best.
I sit on the curb at the liquor store
until 9 am when it finally serves.

She wears red **** Me heels.
   your hands that woman feels,
   always swaying to her siren song.
   Go home at dawn where you belong
   with a sweet Lover of your heart.
   hold her close and never part.

Earthquake. Atom Bombs.
Commies' hungry tombs.
Homecoming once more
Dad's back home from war.

I mumble and slur
our life is just a blur
ocean over and under
love is always blunder
set me free once again
divorce my wander sin
Gomorrah and *****
burned into the calm.

When you stole my heart I was dancing.
  I was clumsy on my knees romancing.
  When I kissed splendid siren *******
  We slept and we ****** slow as beasts
  in morning and you wept. I wonder why
  the mirage gets closer **** it will die.

War's soldiers never the same
boys looking for adventure.
Rough stranger my son's name
comes home an angry warrior.

It's a grand adios
taking your dose
of the morphine
softens the scene.
Visit first lover.
Your dead mother
begs your mercy
father so angry
in war's terror
a simple error
over and over
blood in clover
float in a dream
last shot unseen.

I saw it sprayed on a rock.
  "Why Do You All Hate Me?"
  I thought I don't know you
  so I can't hate you but if
  we meet for coffee I'll try.
  Maybe you'll hate me instead?

Throbbing ****
Hangman's knot
Marriages die
the vows a lie.

I am inebriated
I am liberated
from God's eye
judging til I die.
His eye is blinded
staring at my sun.
I am God's drunk
I am His only son.

Humanity unable to be human
breaks my shiver bone's pieces
to choke my spider love again.
Tattooed as my ash blood ceases.

Machines are whirring
drunken eye's blurring
future in ashes burning
the world keeps turning.

CIA Operation do or die
holograms make you ***
so real pants are never dry
humans are forever dumb.

Seagulls crying over who knows what
   riding ocean breezes we'd all die for.
   We fight drunk in our room, a prelude
   ******* on the sheets with an anchor.
   I hear the 9th symphony when we ***.
   We are one hearing seagulls laughter.
   Wide awake at midnight smell our ***
  I finally fall asleep in the deep after.

Itches
*******
crucifixes
alter boy
priest toy
lover joy

lesbian nun
so much fun
spank girls
warm curls
flag unfurls
****** pearls

I melt into promises like molten lead
   cooling into bullets aimed at my heart.
   I never make them lightly or ever mean
   to keep them forever they never start.

   I'm at war with me. I'll be victor and I'll
   be defeated and I'll bleed all over brave
   while I die in a trench of my own intention.
   Bury me where I fall in an unmarked grave.

The sky's so clear
  in the atmosphere
  stars perch on a tree
  caged birds set free
  my mind takes flight
  into the cold night
  old lover's heartbeat
  naked in the street
  I'll chase her heat
  I saw her in a window
  her curly hair in a bow
  when I just can't feel
  what's dream or real
  my dogs walk me home.
  I still yearn alone.

She's bitter but comforts me,
like mommy could never be.
It haunts my mind with desire.
I'm always looking for her fire.
Sirens burned me up as we came.
****** saved me from the shame.